Dear Mavis,
It's me—the one and only! When you read this I probably had only just left. I know...
I miss you so much already :,) I'm unsure if I'll have the heart to show my face again soon. I just feel so sad. I didn't want to cry in front of you today. I don't want to break your heart. I'd hate for you to feel upset because of how sad I am that you're really gone. I've tried to put a strong face on for the girls—especially for El. She misses you so much. There's only so much I could do to help her...I feel useless at times. She's just a kid. I don't know how to help her with a loss like this. But I miss you...we all do. Gosh, if you see smudged ink on this it wasn't me...it's the tears from the heavens. I don't know how I can move on from this Mavi...I didn't lie when I said I've been taking care of myself. Because I have...just like I promised. But I've had trouble sleeping at night. To know that I'll wake up another day where you're not around. To know and realise that I can't ever see your face again or feel the warmth from your big hugs....i wish you didn't have to leave me here. Life is so unfair. You had your whole life ahead of you. Mavi, you had so much plans and dreams. But I'll be here to achieve them. Just for you. I'll walk the moon if I have to. I just hope you're okay up there too. I can't help but think that you miss us when you look down on us everyday. But I know that you're gonna be up there when I look out my window tonight. You'll be the brightest star in the sky. The most beautiful... as you always are. My heart is breaking...I couldn't ever admit that to your face. But I hope this letter finds you well. Send me a big warm hug after you do? I think I'll need it. Like a lot. A lot a lot. But Mavi...
Thank you for being my constant. You were always there when I needed someone. I'm sorry if I couldn't be there for you just the same. But I'll be here now. We'll go on as many dates. Wherever you want! I'm just glad that in my lifetime, I got to know and love the one and only Mavis. My Mavi. My Phampham. My honey bee.... my baby. Thank you for every moment we shared. For all the laughs, the warm hugs, the dates, the sponty adventure, the notes in class and everything in between. I thank my lucky stars that you were my first love. You're my forever girl. My soulmate. My moon and stars. Thank you for letting me be your first and last love, baby.
Forever and always with you,
Mara.