Life sucks so I write angst to deal with it, p.s the title doesn't really quote from the story I just thought it sounded cool

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It wasn't supposed to end up like this so soon. Katsuki wasn't an idiot; he knew it would happen sooner or later. He just thought it would happen far, far later.

Even his mother mentioned she thought it would happen far later, and she didn't lie. She's not an idiot either. But it's not like she knew it was already happening. She really didn't.

But then again, Katsuki didn't exactly think he would have to fight villains as a teenager. He wasn't supposed to. Kariage told him to be prepared for the unexpected - to be strong and brave in the face of those villains. Even though Kariage was technically a criminal.

The truth was that nobody expected it. Maybe the stupid principal did, with his smartass, but he never mentioned it.

He never bothered to warned him about what could — No, what would happen.

"Life's not fair, kiddo, but that's okay. Because I know you can power through anything it throws at you, right?" That's what Masaru told Katsuki, when he broke his arm after a far too big explosion for his seven year old arms.

What a lie.

Katsuki's body should've been able to power through and deal with it, not ending up like this. His whole goddamn body was reinforced to suit his quirk! What went wrong, was the question echoing through his head, what went wrong?

Was it using his quirk too much? Making too many explosions? Or was it not taking care of himself, and using those stupid oils Aunty Inko always tried to make him use?

Was there even a reason?

Katsuki hated it, but he felt the sting of tears. How on earth would he become a fucking pro hero, if he was losing his hearing? Fucking stupid hearing aids?

He felt so, so weak and pathetic.

Now, Katsuki was just sitting in a hospital bed because he almost got hit by a drunk driver. Just because he didn't hear it coming. It was the middle of the fucking day, why would someone be drunk?

Maybe they were trying to drink their problems away — Katsuki wished he could do that too, now.

He just wanted an escape; a way to leave all this behind. Just for a few minutes, even. He just wanted this nightmare to be over. Katsuki couldn't give more than two shits about how stupid or stereotypical he sounded.

Again, he was questioning what Kariage would think of him now. Would Kariage laugh at him? Make fun of his hearing? Leave him?

Would Kariage even show up at all?

Katsuki knew Kariage knew what happened. He was Katsuki's emergency contact, he was embarrassed to say. His parents were often far too busy, and wouldn't be much help if they were called.

Deep down, Katsuki knew that Kariage wouldn't leave him. But that didn't stop his mind from creating terrible scenarios.

Maybe it was dumb, but he just wanted a bit of comfort. A safe place to just let it out and cry.

He wasn't a baby. Everyone cries. Kariage had cried before, the extras in his class and his parents even.

Hell, even villains cry,

That didn't make it less embarrassing or awkward, though. Katsuki knew he gave off the idea that he didn't cry. He didn't cry when he was kidnapped, so why would he cry over this?

Katsuki didn't even know the answer to that.

Fucking Kariage — where was he when you needed him? That was unnecessary, Katsuki grimaced. He was probably sprinting over right now, worried about Katsuki. 

He knew because Kariage loved him, and he loved Kariage. Therefore, they did stupid things for each other. Like sprinting two kilometres on such short notice.

He was right to be worried though. Katsuki was not physically okay, nor was he mentally okay anymore.

Everything was going through one ear and coming out the other. That felt dumb to say; it's not like anything can go through his ears that much anymore. It was just so hard to process everything happening.

The bitch driver honked so damn loud, it probably did something to Katsuki's eardrums. He knew, because he'd heard the doctors say something about it.

Those same eardrums were supposed to be reinforced, because of his loud quirk.

Guess life cheated him out on that.

Katsuki knew he had bad hearing before. Hence why he would crane his head towards people when they spoke. People always assumed he wasn't listening in the first place whenever he asked them to repeat whatever the hell they just said. Truth was, he literally couldn't listen because their own fucking voice was too quiet.

Kariage was different from those extras.

A year after becoming genuine friends, he had realised Katsuki struggled somewhat with hearing, even back then. And so he spoke louder with Katsuki, and helped him whenever he couldn't hear what nonsense their teacher was sprouting on his bad days. Something so little, and yet it helped Katsuki so much.

Maybe that's another part to why he liked the other boy.

Kariage himself was just awfully charming — not that Katsuki would actually admit it to his face. He found himself smiling a little, and of course, right at that moment Kariage burst into the room. His face was redder than Katsuki's damn eyes, and sweat trickled down the side of his cheek. Coughing, Kariage wiped his hands on his pants. 

"Katsuki." He managed to breath out, after a good 20 seconds, "I'm here." He walked towards Katsuki, grasping his palms. "You can fall apart, but no matter what. I'll be here to catch you."

It's funny how those quiet words were the loudest things Katsuki heard all day.

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Wow. Well, it's 1am now. I really enjoyed writing this. I may or may not of projected some of my feelings onto this. Not much ship stuff though lol. I'm still pretty proud of it

I do hope you enjoyed reading (╯°▽°）╯