Let's rewrite the star.

Chapter 23

I am still here on the cemetery for almost three hours. Peji and Giljean tried to stay on my side but we are not talking, it's like no one can find a right words to voice out.

But after two in a half hours, Peji bid a goodbye. He still need to go back on their camp, while Gilj, she's still here.

“I will not going to ask you if you are okay, because it's obvious that you are not. But I wanted you to know that I am willing to be your pillow whenever you wanted to cry.” I heard Giljean said, but I keep ignoring her.

“I know I will never be the one who deserve your forgiveness, that's why I am giving the rights to hate me forever.”

I give her a fake laugh when I heard what she said next.

“I have already a 9th dare for you...sing with me.”

Giljean hold my both shoulders just to make me face her. She's using her cards again.

“You are still my...b-boyfriend, right?” This time I pause because of her question.

“You can hate me forever, just...just don't break up on me...please.” I saw Giljean's biting her lower lip to prevent from mourning.

“I-I can't hate you...but, I can't promise that I will not look at you with pain because whenever I see you, you are just reminding me how your dad ruined my family.” I am crying now again.

“Can we please forget the past?” I sarcastically laugh when I heard what she said.

“Do you think it could be that easy as that?” I almost scolding on her, I just don't like the way she sounded.

“What if we rewrite the stars?... Let's rewrite the stars!”

“No one can rewrite the stars. ” I replied.

“You know I want you?” I nodded when she began to sang.
“It's not a secret I tried to hide.
I know you want me,
So please don't keep saying our hands our tide.
You claim it's not in the cards
But your fate is pulling you away
And out of reach  from me
But you're here in my heart
So who can stop me if I decide
that your my destiny?

What if we rewrite the stars?
Say you were made to be mine,
Nothing could keep us apart,
You'd be the one I was meant to find

It's up to you, and it's up to me,
No one can say we get to be
So why we don't rewrite the stars?
Maybe the world could be ours, tonight.”

I removed her hands who's holding my both shoulder's, “You think it's easy?
You think I don't want to fight for you?
But there are mountains,
And there are doors that we can't walk through
I know you're wondering why,
Because we're able to be
Just you and me
Within these walls
But when we go outside,
You're going to wake up and see that it was hopeless after all.

No one can rewrite the stars,
How can you say you'll be mine?
Everything keeps us apart
And I'm not the one you were meant to find

It's not up to you,
And it's not up to me
When everyone tells us what we can be?
So how can we rewrite the stars?
Say that the world can be ours,
tonight.”

Giljean's still crying but tried to manage to sing.

“All I want is to fly with you,
All I want is to fall with you,
So just give me all of you...”

“It feels impossible. ”

“Say that it possible!”

“Is it impossible? ”

“Say that it's possible!”

Now, Giljean and I are both trying to manage to sing together while the tears keeps flowing.

“How do we rewrite the stars?
Say you were made to me mine?
Nothing can keep us apart
'Cause you are the one I was need to find,
It's up to you,
And it's up to me
No one can say what we get to be,
And why don't we rewrite the stars?
Changing the world to be ours? Tonight.”

We both took a deep breath when we got pause to sing.

“You know I want you” I said.
“It's not a secret I tried to hide,
But I can't have you,
We're bound to break
And my hands are tied.”

•••

“So...It's a goodbye now?” Giljean asked after a long silence.

“Let's...let's end this.” I replied.

Giljean's just keep nodding and trying to wipe her tears that keeps flowing.

“Amor Fati'...that's my last dare.” I looked at her, I got confused of what she said.

“I'll count fives steps away from here...and after that five steps, we will forget each other.” she said while trying to hold on her tears, but she failed.

I saw how her knees are trembling while she began to stood up.

“O-one.” As she began to step forward.

“Two.” this time, she stop from crying.

“Three...Four...Five...” she turned back to face me.

“Until we meet again.”

After saying those words,
I never see Giljean again.