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jahseh takes my hand in his, tightly gripping it as we step into traffic and cross the street to the other side of the road. it's rush hour right now, so things are really busy.

since last night, after jahseh got out from his shower, we really just cuddled and watched tv, we didn't do too much deep talking. we just enjoyed each other's presence, and i don't think that i would have enjoyed doing anything else.

"this silence is bothering me. talk." jahseh says, breaking the silence between us. i glance at him as we walk down the sidewalk hand in hand, raising in eyebrow at his choice of words. "it's actually pretty loud, in case you didn't notice." i point out, referring to all of the noise around us; we're literally walking down a strip, and there's people talking, cars zooming by, and a myriad of other things going on.

jahseh rolls his eyes, but with a small smile on his face. "let's play never have i ever, yeah?" i smile, "first it was twenty one questions, now never have i ever?" i ask in a teasing tone. "i'd never miss the opportunity to learn more about you, sweetheart." he winks, and i look away in order to hide my blush. 

"alright jah. you go first."

we walk past a bakery, and the smell of sweets and pastries fill my senses. i've always had a sweet tooth, but desserts are a hit or miss for me, as a vegan. it puts huge restrictions on what i can consume, sadly. but it's worth it, because i don't wanna take part in eating animals and shit. i might ask jahseh about going there when we come back from this gift shop, because i've been craving something sweet so bad. also, it'll keep out out of the hotel a little bit longer. i enjoy the hotel and how comfortable it is, but jahseh and i alone in one room for long periods at a time... that causes too much sexual tension. and it's honestly unbearable.

"hm, let's see." jahseh says, breaking me out of my train of thought. "never have i ever skipped school before?"

i glance at him with a raised eyebrow, gesturing to our surroundings. "what do you think i'm doing now?" i ask sarcastically, with a smile. he realizes what i'm saying and let's out a "tahaha" laugh, waving me off. "shit sorry, i forgot. but i mean, before you ran away."

"never. i didn't really have any room to skip school since my parents were so far up my ass." i roll my eyes. "so studious, i see?" jahseh teases, and i playfully push him. our hands remain intertwined though, and honestly? every time our hands our intertwined i feel so full and complete.

since it's my turn, i contemplate a question that i should ask him. it'll be kind of hard to come up with a valid question to ask him, because he's probably done everything in the book and then some. i've done a lot of shit, but it seems that jahseh's had a far more eventful life than myself. i can see it in the darkness of his eyes, feel it in the roughness of his hands, and hear it in the wild intensity if the stories he tells me. he's been through a lot.

"never have i ever been in a relationship?" i ask.

"not a real one." jahseh responds instantly, as the two of us dodge and maneuver around people that are walking along the sidewalk with us. i accidentally step in the street and jahseh quickly pulls me back onto the sidewalk, sighing softly. "you know, two people loving each other and being there for each other... i've never been able to experience something like that. plus, it's honestly kind of hard to attain something like that at our age, as we usually just indulge in short term relationships or friends with benefits situations. long term relationships are a rarity for kids our age, for sure."

i nod my head at his words. jahseh's so young, but far ahead of his years, and it baffles me how intelligent and observant he is, as most kids our age aren't half a person that jahseh is. they're most likely worried about going out with their friends or ditching school to smoke.

"that's true, the average kid our age isn't really interested in trying to have anything serious. that's understandable though, because we're young and dumb. we don't know shit." i shrug, and jahseh nods his head. "dating long term seems better though, in the long run. better for your heart and your mental. it saves you the stress and trauma of going from person to person."

"have you?" jahseh asks, drawing me back to the question i asked. "nah, i wasn't really one for relationships. committing myself to another person is scary... and it's time and energy that i don't have. you know?"

"wasn't?" he asks, and i can't control my smile. "maybe you've changed my mind." i say softly, swinging our hands lightly.

"i have a tendency to sway." he shrugs, speaking in a cocky tone. "i've been told i'm very persuasive." he winks, and i roll my eyes. "don't get too ahead of yourself."

after a few more moments of walking, jahseh nods in front of us. "we're here." he says, and i look to where he's nodding. a huge store here on this strip, with a big storefront reading "jill's gifts and thrifts". i smile lightly at the title, kind of excited to go into this quirky story that jahseh managed to get a job at.

"that pastry store that we passed on the way here, can we stop by there on the way back?" i ask. jahseh doesn't answer, just opens the front door of the gift shop, waiting for me to go inside before him. once i walk in, jahseh gives me a soft pat on my behind, making me smile in blush, and i realize that's the answer to my question.

my eyes scan over the store, and i inventory t-shirts, trinkets, postage stamps, and a whole slew of other shit.

jahseh and i walk further into the shop and i see a white woman at the cash register, probably late thirties, and her eyes light up once she catches us in her sights.

"well look at you, who do we have here?" she asks, putting her arms on the counter and putting all her weight on it.

"this is billie, my girlfriend." jahseh introduces me, and i choke on my spit, shooting him a look. 

i hold back the urge to roll my eyes at him in front of this woman, who i can only assume is jahseh's boss. jahseh's always been too full of himself, and i don't really know how to feel about how he introduced me. on the one hand, i really like jahseh, and him introducing me as his girlfriend really made my heart flutter and stop at the same time. but on the other hand, it makes me nervous and anxious. jahseh and i are still figuring out what we are... if we're even anything at all. i don't know if a relationship is best for us at the moment, it's a double edged sword. especially at our age, our different backgrounds, and the situation that we're in right now. we're on the run for fuck's sakes. well, i am. not so much him. he's just enjoying his authority-free life.

honestly, god knows what's gonna happen when we get to georgia. there's no guarantee that jahseh's gonna drop his whole marvelous life of train hopping and going from state to state, just to stay with me.

"it's a pleasure to meet you, billie, i'm jill." the woman reaches her hand out, and i shake it, giving her an award winning smile. jahseh throws his arm around my shoulder, putting even more frosting on the cake. "i wanted today to be 'bring billie to work day', since she's been nagging me about spending more time with her. you know how it is."

"well sure of course, as long as you get your work done. but i'm not gonna be too strict today, the store isn't that busy right now anyways." she shrugs, leaning back a little.

"is it usually busy?" i ask out of curiousity. jill sighs, looking around the shop. "honestly honey, it's always up and down. it's usually most busy around summer time, because people are going on vacation and stuff. throughout the rest of the year... sometime's it's a hit or miss."

"do you mind if i show her around before i get started?" jahseh asks, and jill nods. "of course, knock yourselves out, kids." she waves us off, and jahseh, with his arm still around my shoulder, walks me to another section of the store.

"so these are the books." jahseh gestures to the large selection of books and magazines that shit nice on tidy on the shelves, with everything in their place. "oh really? i didn't notice." i say sarcastically, and he sucks his teeth. he walks off and disappears into some backroom, and comes back with a pen and clipboard in his hand, and a nametag now on his shirt.

"i'm in work mode, so try not to distract me too much. you can follow me around and shit if you want." he says, "i'm about to take inventory on these hoodies."

i follow him to the clothes area of the store, and jahseh flying through the hoodies on the rack, writing things down on his clipboard as he does so. the bell to the front door walks in, and a young couple stroll in. you can tell that they're not from here, because they're looking around the gift shop with wide eyes. i don't stare at them too long to bank their appearances and features.

"let's see how good your customer service skills are." i say with a smirk as i cross my arms. jahseh rolls his eyes, "shut up, i don't even work customer service. i only talk to customers if they ask me for help."

"excuse me?" the girl calls out, and jahseh sucks his teeth. "fuck me." jahseh mumbles under his breath, making his way over to the couple.

"did you guys need any help with anything?" jahseh asks, and i can tell his voice has been lightened a bit, and he's taken the bass out of his voice so as not to scare the white people. that's what he tells me, anyway.

"yes, where is the ice cream? we heard there was an ice cream bar here." the lady asks, her eyes lighting up with a sparkle. jahseh points over to the ice cream station with the barstools. "right over there. somebody will be there to assist you shortly." he says, even giving them a smile. the couple thanks jahseh and they practically run to the ice cream bar, and jahseh makes his way back over to me.

"look at you, being all professional." i poke his shoulder playfully. "you're gonna bother me all day, aren't you?" he asks, a bit of a sigh on his voice. i can tell he's just playing around though, because there's a small smile on his face.

"oh, that's a guarantee." i assure him. "what kind of 'bring billie to work day' would it be if i didn't annoy the shit out of you?"

jahseh looks around to make sure no one's watching, and he grabs me by my neck - his grip light - and brings me toward him, so that our lips are almost touching. "you better not do anything to distract me, billie. i mean it." i swear my breathing stops for a second as i'm being confronted by his words. i'm too distracted by his large hand on my neck to even say anything in response.

"you heard what i said." he mumbles, giving me a soft kiss, pulling away from me and letting go of my neck. "if you want some ice cream, go over there." he nods to the ice cream store. "i'll pay for it."

"i don't eat dairy."

"they have soy ice cream." he shrugs, and i smile. "i love soy ice cream."

"so go." he puts his hand on my back, gently pushing me in that direction. i walk over to the ice cream bar and take a seat, a couple seats away from the couple that we just encountered.

"hi, what would you like, cone or bowl?" a girl, probably seventeen, with light freckles on her face, asks. i look at her nametag.

riley

"a bowl, please. what flavors do you have in soy?" i ask. the girl smiles, "we have strawberry, vanilla, chocolate, rocky road, salted caramel, and mint chocolate chip."

"salted caramel." i say, and she begins to scoop out ice cream and put it into a bowl for me, and i choose my toppings, and riley adorns my ice cream with toppings and diabetes galore.

"that'll be seven dollars." she says. i see someone hand over money, and i look down at the hand to see that it's jahseh's.

"enjoy your ice cream." riley says, sliding the bowl over to me, with the spoon already in the bowl. "thank you, seh." i whisper to him, and he smiles, nodding. "if you need me, i'll be over there." jasheh points over to the shot glasses and cups. he then walks off, and i direct my attention to the bowl of ice cream in front of me.

diabetes, here we come.

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it's been a little while, and i'm still sitting here at the ice cream bar. the young couple has long gone, riley has clocked out, and ms. jill is in the back. jahseh's somewhere in this huge shop, i haven't seen him in like five minutes. we were just talking about small shit not too long ago, and then he left to continue with his work.

it was nice to come to jahseh's job and see him work in action, it was so cute when he put on his little professional voice for the customers. i don't know, seeing him in this atmosphere feels like a once in a lifetime experience.

i feel arms around me, and a soothing, warm energy which i quickly recognize as jahseh's. "hey." he rasps against my neck. the bass of his voice and the vibrations against my neck do something to me, something exhilarating.

"hey." i whisper.

"let's go in the bathroom." he suggests, and my eyes widen. "what? won't you get in trouble-"

"ms. jill!" jahseh calls out, his loud voice startling me.

"yes, honey?"

"can i take a twenty minute break?"

"go ahead, honey."

"let's go in the bathroom." jahseh repeats himself, and i shake my head. "but you'll get in trouble, if we do something inappropriate."

jahseh waves me off, spinning me around in my barstool to face him. he puts a smile on his face, and his hands make their home on my thighs, which are covered by my sweatpants. jahseh's hands go higher, and he grips the fat on my hips, biting his lip. "please?" he asks in a husky, low voice. the look on his face and the lust radiating off of him, there's no way i could say no. his dominant aura is pulling me in like gravity.

i get up from the barstool and his face lights up, and he grabs my hand, leading me through the store and soon, to the employee bathroom. jahseh pulls us inside and closes the door behind us, not hesitating to lock the door and pushing me against it.

his hands waste no time sinking down to my ass, gripping them tightly as he smashes his lips against mine, sliding his tongue through my lips and giving mine a generous greeting. i can practically feel jahseh's- well, you know- against me, and it kind of makes me a little uneasy.

jahseh pulls away, his eyes searching mine. "you wanna do me a favor?" he asks, and rasp in his voice is enough to make drop down to my knees. "what is it?" i ask breathlessly, too in the moment to even think about what he's about to ask me. all i can think about is this tension between us, too unbearable to go unnoticed.

"do you think you can fix this?" he asks, gesturing to his man part, hehe, and i can see his print through his sweats. now, i've never really given someone head before, so i really don't know what the hell i'm doing. but i watch a lot of porn, so that must count for something.

"sure." i say lowly, dropping down to my knees and tugging at the waistband of his sweats. i take a deep breath, and look up to jahseh. "just do your best." he shrugs, putting his right hand in my hair, tangling his fingers in my tresses.

i pull his sweats and boxers down, immediately moving out of the way when his peepee springs up in my face. i sigh at its size and it's thickness, knowing that this is going to be a hell of a job. 

"it might not fit in your little mouth." jahseh mumbles in a sexy voice, opening my mouth and immediately putting three of his fingers down my throat, making me gag. jahseh bites his lip.

"nah, it should fit." he decides, taking his fingers out of my mouth and putting them back in my hair. i turn my attention back to his peepee, grabbing onto it softly with my hand, and stroking it slowly; this makes jahseh instantly respond by now gripping my hair.

i open my mouth and take in just his tip, swirling my tongue around it and rubbing the rest of him with my hand. jahseh lets out a deep, content sigh at the feeling of my tongue on his sensitive parts, and i smile a little, proud of the fact that i'm pleasing him.

i take the rest of him in my mouth, keeping a steady pace as i move my mouth up and down his length. he groans softly, and the sound makes me feel a flutter in between my legs. jahseh places his hand on the back of my head, thrusting his hips, making his peepee go down my throat over and over, and i gag a couple times, making him laugh lowly at the feeling.

after a while of this, i feel jahseh twitch in my mouth, and without warning, a warm liquid shoots into my mouth, which i can rightfully assume is his cum, and it doesn't taste bad, so i don't mind swallowing it.

jahseh sighs, taking himself out of my mouth and putting himself back in his sweats. he grabs my hand and pulls me back up to a standing position, then lightly grips my chin, pulling me in for a kiss.

once he pulls away, he chuckles, his eyes squinting a little.

"you don't know how long i've wanted you to do that."

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written on friday, february 5th, 2021 & saturday, february 6th, 2021

edited on saturday, february 6th, 2021 & sunday, february 7th, 2021

published on wednesday, february 10th, 2021

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