Dear Jesus, please don't judge me for this chapter. Amen.

"Are you sure, you want to do this?" He stood there while placing the box, bottle, and candle on the nightstand. There was also a lighter in his hand that made me question if he was still done with cigarettes because I would beat his ass if he wasn't. He used the lighter on the candle, letting a subtle hint of vanilla to hit the air.

I nodded. "Can we just take this slow?" My voice came out in a whisper.

"Of course." He smiled sweetly at me while setting the candle back into its place. I gulped the moment when his hands went to the waistband of his briefs. I'll admit I felt a little pervy when the black cotton slid off of his legs and onto the floor and I saw Thorin fully naked. The sweet smile on his lips turned into a smirk when he caught me looking at his naked body as if he knew exactly what I was thinking.

I was caught by Thorin's arm as he settled into my bed and pulled me to his side. Embarrassment flushed my cheeks at the thought of my heartbeat being so loud in my ears. I tried to remain cool, calm and collected but it was hard to when there was a naked ass guy next to me. Thorin had always taken his shirt off in front of me, especially when he sleeps over but he was never fully naked. Hell, the most skin he has seen from me is when I wear shorts.

We just laid there for a moment and I became a little confused. I wasn't the most experienced but I was pretty sure we should have started to move or something and not just lay there. Unless the media had lied to us all and we were fully consummating our relationship.

I didn't actually think that was the case but I was still wondering what was going on.

"Do you have your phone?" Thorin broke the silence. It was a weird question and for a few moments, I seriously thought he was going to record us.

"It's on the nightstand, why?" Again, I was confused to what we were actually doing. I didn't think that a phone was going to be necessary for what we were about to do.

My phone was grabbed by Thorin and unlocked by me, allowing for my phone to be explored. "Because." He gave me a goofy smile from before while going to Youtube and began to type. Suddenly, a bunch of fail videos came up. "Everyone needs a good laugh."

I shrugged and dug myself more into him while eyeing the screen. Mostly there were people falling, making me and Thorin laugh. "Oh my god." I said, laughing. A drunk man came onto the screen. He waddled on a sidewalk with a bottle of alcohol in his hand. "Oh no." I squeaked, waiting for him to fall on his ass.

"He's definitely going to fall." Thorin chuckled.

The man did indeed fall on his ass and making me and Thorin laugh. "Was I that bad when I was drunk?"

"Eh..." Thorin's voice became higher. "Just a little bit."

"Exactly what did I do?" I turned to him, looking for answers. The only thing I remembered was dancing like a wet noodle with Melody, talk to Delia and sitting on the couch with Jace. Not the best of nights.

"Well...." He drew out the word. "You were all over me."

Again, I felt embarrassed. "Yeah?" My nose crinkled as I cringed at the thought of me being all over him.

"You wanted me to know that you really like liked me." He laughed. "And tried to kiss me."

"Tried?" That didn't really sound like me. I didn't usually try, especially at that time with Thorin.

He nodded, a little proud of himself. "I dodged it but you got my neck."

"Like right here?" Craning my neck, I kissed him on the neck.

"Hmm... It was more like, over here." He lowered his head, kissing the area where my neck and shoulder met.

Leaning back, I allowed him to continue to move upward and take little nibbles in between each kiss. "What else did I do?" I seriously needed to know what else I did so I can add it to my awkward moments collection and think about it while staying up late.

Thorin laughed, still kissing my neck and laced his fingers down my torso and past my abdomen. "Well..." He trailed off.

I gasped when the familiar feeling came back to me. Without thinking, I placed my hand on top of Thorin's while moving my lips onto his. "Did I really do this?" I looked down at where our hands were. If he said yes, I would be scarred for life.

"No, but are you complaining?" I backed away, thinking about it. As fast as I could, I shook my head no.

I could feel the part where I would do the weird thing with my mouth that would make Thorin laugh. My free hand went to his arm to look for some type of support while lifting my head to kiss him. I was so close to making contact with Thorin's lips until he backed away and lifted my arm off of his and held it right above my head. Tisking, he shook his head. "This is for you trying to repay me."

"Thorin." I squirmed underneath his hand as my lips rolled. Before I knew it, Thorin began to chuckle while taking his hand away. He could have kept his hand there all night and I wouldn't have minded it. It's funny how I used to hate him hugging him and now I wanted him to touch me all of the time.

"Don't laugh." My voice was whiny. I was embarrassed again because, for some reason, my mouth just had to move weirdly.

"I'm sorry, it's cute." He continued to chuckle but moved his mouth to my neck, muffling the hearty sound. "Are you ready?" The words were whispered into my ear and straight into my already crazy heart. I nodded and watched as he turned over and showed the box once again. A blue wrapper came out of the box that somehow created a lump in my throat.

Thorin's hands went underneath the covers, rummaging around a bit until they came back up for the bottle.

"What's that for?" I asked, curious to exactly what he was doing.

"Well because of certain things, I don't want to hurt you." He said, taking the bottle underneath the sheets and then putting it back on the nightstand. "This is going to help make sure there is less pain."

Like Thorin's hands, one of mine went underneath the blanket to meet up with his. I didn't exactly know what to do as this was my first time doing anything like this and only gently placed my hand on him like he was made of glass. "You don't have to do that." Thorin chuckled when realizing what I was trying to do.

"But I want to do it." It was true, plus he said I could touch him whenever I wanted.

Slowly, I weakly grasped him. Like how I did it with him, his hand went around mine and sort of helped me... move it.

"Flora." He whispered my name as he bit his bottom lip. I didn't stop, seeing how he was feeling the same as I was a few minutes ago. His body was tense as mine was, yet for a different reason. "Stop." He rolled over onto me, moving my hands above my head once again. I tried to control the goosebumps that were exploding over my skin at the sensation of his hands trailing down the back of my arms to my bare sides. "I'll get off when you get off... again." He smirked.

"Wow, you're a little cocky." Even though the situation was a little serious, I couldn't help but to joke to make it less serious.

We both knew he wasn't little.

"Little?" He snorted. "You're the little one, I'm the big one."

"What the hell does that mean?" I laughed.

"It means that you're mine." His voice wasn't just a little stern, it was full blown stern almost sounding like he was giving me orders.

Is it bad that I actually didn't mind it?

My hand went playfully against his shoulder to lessen the coolness in his voice."Oh, stop. Just keep going." Every time I was with Thorin, my eyes would roll. They did in that situation even though I didn't want him to stop it.

"You want me to keep going? Are you sure you want to do this? Once we start, we can't take it back."

I nodded, trying to swallow the lump in my throat.

"I want to hear you say it."

"I want to do this with you." I smiled. Thorin was happy, kissing me with a smile.

A small, airless gasp came out of me when Thorin and I's body finally collided with a subtle push thanks to his hips. Thorin kept kissing me, trying to keep my gasping at bay even though it didn't work. He himself let out a low groan while pausing. "Are you okay?"

"Mhm." I grasped onto the back of his head. An intense pressure took over my body, making it hard to really talk. "Are you okay?" The words came out in a little short puff of air.

"Yeah." He grunted. "It's just you're really tight." The words went straight into my ear before he planted a little kiss on my cheek. "I'm going to move, okay?" Again, I barely spoke and only nodded my head.

Thorin was telling the truth and moved again, rocking his hips against mine. His pushing was slow like his kisses. There was an intensity again yet this time there was a pressure that made my knees weak. I had to think about something else so I wouldn't turn into a giant puddle on the bed. I thought about the bruise that was on Thorin's face and how it made me upset. I didn't want anyone to hurt Thorin, not the kids that made fun of him because of his mom, not the guys that we went to school with, no one.

I really cared about Thorin.

I really really cared about Thorin, and how well his lips felt at that moment. Also, the feeling of his hands grabbing onto me, telling me that he really wanted me, didn't go unnoticed. Actually, him grabbing swirled around my mind, making me feel better. What he did was make me feel good. Really good.

Though I didn't want to hurt Thorin, I couldn't help but to dig my nails into his back and wrap my legs around his torso like two thick anacondas. I didn't have control of my body for it moved on its own, slightly rolling with the boy on top of me. My hitching breath was allowed into the world by the absent of Thorin's lips when lifted his head and watched me. He groaned again, as I kept digging into his back from the intensity that I was feeling.

"Did you just..?" He furrowed his brows, stopping for a moment.

I hoped that my face was already red so he wouldn't have to see the embarrassment grow on my cheeks. Me looking away from his smirk was enough for him to know what had exactly happened. There was no need to tell him that he was right once again and boost his ego even more. Trust me when I say there was no needing for that.

He moved his face down to my neck once again, lightly pushing me into his. The pace had quickened than before, causing my breath to be more erratic. "Flora, you feel so good." his hot breath trickled down my flesh.

"Yeah, da-" I caught myself before saying the one word that I promised myself I would never say to him. It was too late, Thorin had known what I was going to say. His thrusts became a little harsher, deeper and faster. I wished that I hadn't said that.

Something weird happened to me at that moment. Nothing that Thorin did, but for some reason tears began to form at the corners of my eyes. I began to think about the hard shell that Thorin had to put on at an early age and the fact that he was willing to open himself up to me unlike he did with other people. The fact that I've been not the nicest person to him yet he still went after me. It made me feel...loved.

"Flora, I'm so close." He moaned.

Without a problem, my legs were lifted into the air. Thorin's lower abdomen was fully pressed up against me, leaving little room. He became slower, pushing harder into me while groaning loudly. I somehow felt protected by the way he pulled me closer into his neck as he finished.

Tears were the last thing that I wanted Thorin to see but I couldn't help it when he looked at me. I wasn't sad, I was happy and glad that I had done what I did with Thorin. "You okay?" He huffed. "I was a little rough at the end." My forehead received a kiss before my body was abandoned and the space on the mattress next to me was full once more.

"Yeah." I tried to smile while giving him a small peck on the lips. "I'm just happy."

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I woke up, panting at the vision that I had in the dream that I just had. I cringed at the thought of Thorin and I doing.... that sort of thing.

Jk. It wasn't a dream.

It was all real bb's.

Btw, my babies aint going to have their own babies. Yet.

Anyway, it happened! OMg, i don't know how I feel right now, I just need to run like ten miles or something.

Have you guys heard Fifth Harmony's (Fourth Harmony now??) new song He Like That? Shit is my jam atm.

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