"Gabby? Can you hear me?" I smiled, looking in the rear view mirror. I could see her holding her chest and struggling to breathe again. "Gabby listen to me carefully because I know you can do this. Insert a large-bore 14-gauge or 16-gauge needle with a catheter into the second intercostal space, just superior to the third rib at the midclavicularline, 1-2 cm from the sternal edge. Use a 3-6 cm long needle, and hold it perpendicular to the chest wall when inserting. Once the needle is in the pleural space, listen for the hissing sound of air escaping. Remove the needle leaving the catheter in place. The cannulas left open to air. Secure the catheter in place. Prepare the yourself for the tube thoracotomy." I sighed trying to speed up to get her to hospital. I listened carefully and then heard her breathing get worse.

"Gabby you need to do this in the next few minutes otherwise your going to die." I sighed raising my voice. I radioed in.

"Ambulance 61 to main."

"Go ahead. Over."

"I'm driving my partner to med but she's currently needing a tube thoracotomy but she's performing it on herself because I'm driving. I need some assistance. If I pull over and begin the surgery can I get some back up to help me?"

"Firehouse 51, Matthew Casey here I'm on my way to Brett and Dawson now with Kelly Severide now." Matt radioed back. I pulled over with sirens and lights on. I climbed into the back and Gabby was laying on the bed with the needle and everything halfway in but she was covered in blood and fitting. I began trying to get on with the decompression but it wasn't working because she was fitting so harshly. It didn't take long before I heard the sirens of the fire engine. Then Matt and Kelly jumped out and onto the ambulance.

"What the earth happened?" Matt smiled.

"I was driving so she attempted the decompression on her own. Clearly as she's done it. She's fit the wrong spot. Started having a fit and caught a artery and now I need her to get to med as soon as possible. So if I drive can you both work on doing this?" I smiled hopping back into the front. Otis took over driving the fire engine as the lads got to work.

*

"Brett tell me what I need to do?"

"Right Matt grab the needle off the table. Find the 2nd rib and move to the right about 5cm and don't even think about it. Just stab the needle right into the lung between the 2nd and the 3rd rib." Kelly was holding her head and holding her down on the table while I got this needle in her ribs and attached the catheter on the end of the needle. A massive gush of air come out and her chest began rising and falling properly while she continued to have a seizure.

"Brett I did it. She's breathing properly but this seizure is still happening." I sighed.

"That's fine. Just don't let her fall off the bed. Don't let her head hit anything. Hold her still and carefully until it stops." She smiled as we pulled into Med. I helped get her bed off the ambulance and into the hospital.

"29 year old female, crush injury, right side lung decompression performed en route to Med. She's had a seizure for 18 minutes now on the way to Med." I sighed as they took over. I stood at the door with the others while we waited. It literally take seconds and 1 injection before she was out of the seizure. The nurse come out and told us we could go in. When I went in Gabby smiled and hugged me straight away.

"Thank you so much for saving me." She smiled beginning to cry into my shoulder.

"That's okay. Don't attempt a lung decompression on yourself ever again." I laughed. I stayed with her for 2 hours until her blood pressure got up and then we went back to the firehouse. She used my arm as support because her chest was hurting and it was making her tired. We sat down at the table and she smiled at me.

"I'm going to go and clean up my chest and re patch it up." She smiled.

*

I went off to the bathroom and put some dressings on my ribs to cover up the little hole in my chest. I was annoyed with it but it didn't hurt anymore because I kept taking my strong pain killers I was given for after birth when I had Ruby. I was given them because of the stitches and because of the damage to my back I was also told not to take them for longer than 6 weeks because I could get addicted but I'd been taking them 4 years. The 4 years since Ruby was born. I wasn't addicted. They just helped me a lot. I knew it would probably cause a lot of health issues. Kelly made me jump when he come into the locker room.

"Hey how you feeling?" He smiled as I quickly tried to get the pills back into my locker.

"Good." I sighed chucking everything back into my locker.

"What was that?"

"Just some pain killers." I smiled walking off quickly as possible. I got my stuff and headed back to the apartment as my shift finished. I dumped my stuff and my mum was sitting on the sofa.

"Mum?" I smiled throwing my stuff on the floor and hugging her.

"Darling. Have you not checked your phone all day?" She smiled. I got my phone out my pocket and saw the many missed calls and texts.

"What's happened?"

"Ruby was quite poorly earlier so she needed to be picked up. She's asleep in her bedroom at the moment."

"Oh mum thank you. I'm so sorry I let you down. I am so sorry I let you down." I sighed as I began to cry.

"Oh sweetheart what's happened?" She pulled me into a hug again as I begin to cry.

"I'm a terrible mum. I've let you down well and truly. I couldn't even pick up my ill daughter. I've been in Chicago Med for a few hours. I've got a hole in my ribs. I had to perform a lung decompression on myself. I couldn't even do that. I can't even get pregnant mum. I've got no way of getting on with it anymore. I am so sorry."

"Gabby what is this all about?" She smiled, tucking the hair behind my ears and wiping my tears away. Ruby come running out of her bedroom and come up to me.

"Mummy!" She smiled. I picked her up and swung her into my arms as I sat down on the sofa and cuddled her pretending to smile. She basically cuddled me and fell asleep.

"Sorry mum I can't do this anymore. Ruby doesn't deserve me." I looked down at her as I started to cry again.

"Is this because of the pregnancies?" She smiled, putting her arm around me as I rested my head on her shoulder while I cried.

"Yes. When I lost the twins I was heartbroken. I mean I was so excited. Ruby was excited to have brothers or sisters and now it's all gone so wrong for me and Matt. We lost them and it was excruciating pain physically, emotionally and mentally." I sighed. She just kissed my head and rubbed my shoulder like she used to do when I was little when I couldn't sleep.

*

We finished up at Molly's and headed back to the apartment. Anna was still at work and Kelly was with me. We went in and I nearly cried when I saw Gabby fast asleep with her head on her mums shoulder she had a tear stained mascara face and Ruby was fast asleep on her lap. Her mum smiled as I hung my coat up.

"How is she?" I smiled.

"Shattered. She had a break down earlier. She's heartbroken about having the miscarriages. She wants another child. She feels like she let down Ruby. My suggestion is that you treat your family to breakfast in the morning, take them out for the day have a fun family day together and then maybe you and Gabby could discuss things?" She smiled. She got up gently and laid Gabby down carefully on the sofa and Ruby right in her arms. She hugged and kissed me before leaving. Kelly went straight to bed. As did I.

*

I woke up with a really sore back. I could hear the radio on. Ruby's feet were like digging into my abdomen. I sighed as my eyes got used to the sun through the window.

"Morning." I called.

"Oh hey sweetheart." Matt smiled coming in and kissing me.

"Sorry I didn't come to bed. I just kind of fell asleep. Ruby was ill yesterday so I just come in and had a cuddle." I smiled as he helped me up. I left Ruby there fast asleep. I went into the kitchen with him and kissed him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and carried on as our lips locked. He picked me up so I wrapped my legs round him as I felt my back hit the cold wall.

"I like you in your uniform." He mumbled against my lips.

"Even now in my blood covered messy paramedic's uniform yeah?" I smiled as I chucked his t-shirt across the room when he carried me into the bedroom.

"Even more." He laughed.

"Oh well I guess it's your lucky day then eh?" I smiled, smashing our lips together again.