We did. 12 weeks pregnant. Officially 3 months which meant today I could tell people. I practically ran into chief's office, not even seeing Matt stood there. I stood in front of his desk, he looked at me in complete shock.

"I'm Pregnant!" I grinned. Then looked at him again in complete shock with myself.

"Gabriella Dawson get your god dam ass over here." He smiled. I went over to him. "Oh my god. Congratulations." He laughed pulling me into a hug. Matt looked at me and laughed as I stood there in some shock after that. I went back out into the common room with Matt hand in hand. Chief was behind us.

"Really random but I did it. Today exactly I am 12 weeks pregnant." I laughed. There was a lot of shock, cheering and then some clapping and a lot of hugs with everyone. I wasn't on calls today I was helping Chief Boden out with paperwork for the day which was honestly so boring. I just sorted through paperwork and folders. Going by date and everything I had every shelf cleared out and re done. We were working on a arson case but this bought back some bad memories for me.

"Are you okay Gabby?"

"Yes just memories. Last time we were stood sorting out Arson paperwork I was pregnant and then I had a miscarriage." I sighed looking round the room before carrying on clearing up.

"Well it's lunch anyway so go have your lunch break." He smiled, I grabbed my jacket and walked to Med. When I got there it was quite quiet considering how it usually was. I went through to ICU and to Jimmy's room. I smiled in shock when I got there he was sat up in bed, both his eyes open, sore and bloody but open. He got up out of bed and hugged me.

"Wow Jimmy." I laughed.

"I told you I'd get better." He smiled.

"Wow. Like we've got some stuff to talk about too." I smiled, he put some slippers on and we linked arms and we took a little walk around the gardens.

"How have things been then Gabby?"

"Tiring, but I'm pregnant again." I smiled.

"Again?"

"I suffered a miscarriage a few years ago. But I'm 12 weeks pregnant today." I smiled.

"Oh wow congratulations." We spent hours walking round the gardens just talking about everything, little things, big news just everything, there were tears, laughter, heartbreak, happiness. It was just nice to catch up together about everything. I went straight back to the firehouse after he settled in again. I got back there and everyone was back and sat in the common room, I went into the bunks and to Matt's office but he wasn't in there or the common room, I just sighed and went into Chief's office again.

"Boden I'm back." I smiled.

"Okay. I practically finished anyway so just go chill out. Rest up this afternoon." He smiled. I went back into the common room, laying on the sofa resting my head on Kelly's lap. He smiled down at me.

"Feeling alright?" He smiled.

"Tired but I'm alright," I yawned.

"Only 4 more hours." I laughed at him when he said that trying to sound excited. I got up and stood up, holding my back as it ached like pain I'd never felt before.

"Ambulance 61, man down and unresponsive. 61st City Street." I sighed and jogged out with Brett to the ambo, I started driving straight away.

"Is there anything you can't do?" Brett smiled.

"At the moment being only 12 weeks I can still do everything but soon you might have to take over driving and stuff." I laughed.

"Okay thank you. Just so I know what there is I need to do." She smiled, when we got there a big crowd was around the boy. Brett went to get the stretcher and everything.

"Come on move back. Give us room to sort out this lad." I shouted moving everybody back.

"His names Lucas, he's my son." 1 women shouted. I got my radio quickly as I kneeled down next to Lucas.

"Get me some police back up here please. Got a feeling we might get a riot." I checked for a pulse and everything and there was nothing he was unresponsive. "Lucas can you hear me?" I double tapped on his chest. "Brett he's not breathing." I started compressions while Brett got a line in, she was watching his vitals, low blood pressure, no heartbeat, oxygen level at 2%. There was no explanation. He just passed out and now he's dying. I looked at Brett while I did compressions and she felt just as confused as me, then finally the police turned up and pushed everybody back so we had some room.

"Brett look under his head for me please." I smiled, she carefully lifted his head up and it confirmed what I thought. There was a large bloody contusion on the very back of his head. He'd been hit in the head, bled out but the shock of the hit made his heart stop. I was so angry, I couldn't be sure who did it. I felt like we had to be careful watching our backs now because someone could attack and kill us in a second. After 10 minutes we'd got him on the ambulance, Brett was driving us to med while I still did compressions.

"Any sinus rhythm?"

"No not yet. He's still not got any pulse or breathing, BP is still so low, no oxygen level anymore." When we got to Med, Will and Anna met us at the door. "14 year old boy, bloody head contusion, I've been doing CPR for 26 minutes so far. He's not looking good." I carried on doing CPR as we took the boy into the ICU. I let Will take over the CPR and after we finished the paperwork we headed back to the ambulance.

"We need to get cleaned up. We're both covered in blood and stuff." Brett smiled, I just felt angry as we got back to the firehouse I sat in the back of the ambulance thinking. Brett helped me clean it all up but I just couldn't focus. We finished up and went in the common room.

"What was that call about? We heard about police attending because of a riot." Herman smiled.

"14 year old boy was found with bloody head contusion, no heartbeat, no oxygen levels or anything I did CPR for 26 minutes, by the time we got to Med he was in the same condition so I'm waiting to hear from Will or Anna." I sighed. I just sat down at the table and fiddled with my wedding ring.

*

I fiddled with the box and looked at the engagement ring. Kelly come in and smiled.

"Woah hang on your already married?" He laughed.

"Yeah I know, it's her engagement ring, do you think she'll want it??" I smiled.

"I'm sure she'll appreciate it." He patted my shoulder. I took the box and went into the common room, sitting opposite her and smiling. I put the box in front of her.

"Are you proposing again?" She laughed.

"No but I think you need your engagement ring as well as your wedding ring right?" I smiled, she nodded and put it on. She had tired bags under her eyes, she was a bit tearful but I'd heard about her last call so I wasn't surprised.

*

I sat at that table in the same place, same facial expression for a good 2 hours. Brett sat right next to me the whole time. Then Will come in with a straight face.

"Gabby can I talk to you?" He smiled.

"Did he make it? Please tell me?" I was shaking right now.

"Gabby no. There was nothing we could do. You did brilliantly trying to save him but he'd been dead for too long." He put his arm out to hug me but I just stood there, looking at him and then Brett, Matt looked at me in heartbreak.

"I didn't do well enough. If I had done CPR straight away instead of radioing for police he'd be alive."

"No Gabby if you had started CPR straight away you would of ended up dead from that riot." Will sighed. I saw him off and then sat in Matt's office with him. He was just packing up his stuff so we could go home. Kelly and Anna were already there but we took a slow drive home and sat in the car for about 20 minutes before I could face going in.