"Can someone please explain to us both what's going on? I think both Matt and Gabby deserve to know." I sighed.

"Yes I'm sorry. But we aren't 100% sure ourselves. There is no sign she's in labour but it could be infection. The way she's becoming delusional would normally shout infection and sepsis but there's no signs of that either. Because she's only 20 weeks she will have a few tests done to confirm labour or not but at the time we are concerned that maybe it's either slow labour or the worst case scenario it's a miscarriage."

"What do you mean slow labour?" Matt's shaking voice sighed.

"It could be her waters did break but not properly and she's in a very slow labour. Like she's been like this for 2 days now. It could take even longer but at the same time like I said the latter option could also be in the matter."

"What happens if it is a miscarriage?"

"Gabby will be prepped and given a drug that will flush her body out and we will try and get her into a natural labour where the baby will be born without a heartbeat or alive and you will both be given a chance with your baby and to show your respects before we will perform a post mortem before you take the baby away for the funeral."

*

I thanked him for staying with us and explaining everything before I went back into Gabby. She was asleep between contractions, her heart rate and everything seemed normal. Even Brett didn't really know what was going on. I held her hand as Kelly stood beside me and patted me on the back. She must of felt me touch her hand because she woke up and sat up.

"Baby?" She smiled.

"You've not had it yet." I smiled.

"I have, I honestly have."

"No Gabby. It was a dream." I kissed her head. She sighed and read through her birth plan. You could tell how disappointed she was about everything. She couldn't have a birth like she wanted too. She'd clearly been told there was a high chance of a still birth. I think the worst part for me was she knew I was heartbroken and instead of worrying about herself she was upset because of me. She smiled and showed me the folder of paper and all the scan photos. The messy notes she had made. The pictures of the nursery and all the work we had done so far. I kissed her hand again as she got tearful.

*
Looking through the pictures broke my heart. There was a 7% chance that giving birth now at 20 weeks my baby would still be alive. I had to stay strong because of Matt. I read through my notes. I wanted a natural birth no pain relief. Same as with Ruby. No pain meds, no help. I wanted to hold my baby straight away. I left the folder on the table try above my legs. I laid back and held bump as I had a contraction. Just then the nice male midwife come in with a smile.

"How you feeling now sweetheart?" He smiled.

"Good thank you. Having a contraction. Can you do a check quick and see if I'm in labour?" I smiled. He checked baby's heartrate and then gave me a examination and turns out I was in labour just as we all thought. I sat up and got off the bed. I looked at Matt and Kelly to ask if we could go for a walk and Kelly helped me into my dressing gown and then Matt took my hand and they walked either side of me through the ward so I could calm myself down. This couldn't be happening. Not now. I still have 20 weeks to go. I should still have 5 months left before I give birth. Why is this happening. We walked around the ward a few times before my mum come running in and hugged me. I began crying in her arms. Completely breaking down in the middle of the labour ward.

"What's wrong sweetheart?"

"I'm in labour. I'm having a baby and I'm only 20 weeks pregnant!" I cried as she squeezed me. She helped me get me back into the room and then only Matt was allowed in there with me. I sat in the armchair fiddling with my dressing gown ties when the midwife come in again.

"You already have a child?" He smiled.

"7 year old Ruby. She's 8 in 2 weeks. 20th of March. I'm excited. She knew I was pregnant of course but we didn't tell her the gender because well we don't even know and we told her as we expected the baby to be born in August. But you know." I laughed as he did a ultrasound quickly.

"Well it will be a lovely surprise to take baby home to her." He laughed. "Also looks like you are ready to have your baby. Your 6cm dilated but that's all we need for a baby this size. Okay?" He smiled.

"Right okay."

"So darling. When you have a contraction you either push or you don't but I will be here to receive baby for your skin to skin. You let me know when you push. Hold your husbands hand and do whatever makes you feel comfortable just make sure you stay attached to the heart rate, blood pressure and other machines for me?" He smiled. I took Matt's hand and smiled.

*
Gabby's mum had her eyes shut but was clearly shaking, I squeezed her hand before checking my phone. I had several messages from everyone at the firehouse asking me for a update. I ignored them all and chucked my phone back in my bag. I could hear Matt telling her to be strong. She was screaming, well crying but it was heart-breaking to hear even though I knew it was all worth it I was scared of the outcome for them both. I smiled when Mills come in and shook my hand.

"How is she?" He smiled.

"Well as you can hear. In labour." I smiled with a small laugh.

"Oh god. This early?"

"Yeah well thanks for bringing her down here when it all happened. She'll appreciate you being here. How comes you haven't gone home? Haven't you got a honeymoon booked for now?"

"Yes but it's been put off until the baby is born and I know Gabby and Matt are alright. I'd rather be here. Me and Lily have been staying in a hotel for the couple of nights. Boden rang me and told me she had been taken into hospital."

"She'll be really thankful. So thank you. Your welcome to stay with us until we know what's happening." I smiled moving my bag so he could sit next to me. He went on his phone and I felt bad for watching but I was looking through what he was doing. He accidently clicked on his gallery and he had loads of old photos of him and Gabby from when they were together. I felt heartbroken for him.

"I know you still love her. Honestly there is a part of her that is in love with you too."

"How do you know?"

"You being here explains that, her actually willing to drive all the way to your place while pregnant to be your bridesmaid explains it. She is Lily's friend yes but it's the best way to see you."

"But we're both married."

"Yeah I know. But you always love your first love. You might be both married and yes you love Lily and she is crazy in love with Matt but she cares about you more than anything in this world." I smiled. Matt come out and yawned, hugging Mills when he saw him.

"What's going on?" I smiled.

"She's struggling to push. She can't do it. She needs to rest. So hopefully after some tea and some sugar she will be okay to try again and hopefully this time we will have a baby." He yawned again.

"Matt your shattered. Try and get some sleep." I smiled.

"I'm good. I'll sleep when she's had this bloody baby." We all laughed. Matt went and got her a cup of tea come back and went straight in. Off she went again crying and making painful noises before there was a massive clap and then Gabby was sick. I stood up as 3 doctors and a nurse ran in there and before I knew it Gabby was bought out on her bed and rushed off towards theatre. I grabbed my stuff and went in there.

"Matt what's happened?" I smiled, before I could say anymore I went over to him and the nurse and saw this tiny little baby on a blanket in a incubator, wires everywhere. The baby was still being attached to machines. Matt had his hand on the glass of the incubator as he cried. I put my hand on his shoulder and fought back the tears.

"Boy or girl?"

"Little girl..." He smiled.

"Have you thought of a name?" I smiled.

"No I'm waiting for Gabby to come back."

"Where is she?" I took my bag and put it down on the floor in the corner.

"In surgery. Heavy bleeding and stuff. Needs sorting." He smiled, sitting down next to the incubator.

"Oh okay.." I turned round and the entire of our shift workers at the firehouse walked in and they all smiled, gathering round by the window and round the baby and Matt. Everyone had come in to see baby and Gabby. It was lovely and full of chatter and warmth.