I smiled as locked the car and walked towards the school.

"Mum!" Ruby shouted as she come over and hugged me. I kissed her head and we got in the car. Adara was already in the car. They began talking straight away. They spoke about both their days in school. Ruby was 12, Adara was 5.

"One more stop and we can go home." I laughed.

"Okay mum." Adara smiled. I carried on driving until we pulled up at Nana's. I let the kids out and they ran into mum and hugged her. I locked the car and went in.

"How are you darling?" Mum smiled.

"Been better. But no honestly mum I feel better. It's been 6 months exactly hasn't it so I'm getting there." I smiled.

"Yeah well. This will make you feel better." She smiled. I went into the living room and picked it up.

"Hello my little perfect angle." I smiled, "You are my miracle baby Carter." I smiled, I wiped a tear away from my eye and kissed Carter's head.

"I can't believe you've finally had a son." Mum smiled.

"Matt would be so proud of me." I smiled. I stayed for a little while before we all headed home, I got the kids all bathed and changed before Kelly came home. By the time he was home dinner was on the table. I had fed Carter and he was fast asleep.

"Evening." He smiled.

"How was work?" I smiled.

"Tiring." He laughed. "How are you feeling?"

"Yeah good. Tired of course but good otherwise. I miss work though."

"Yeah all the lads in the firehouse have missed you."

"Yeah well Kelly I only gave birth 12 hours ago. Like honestly the only reason I'm up and moving is because I had a home birth and I wasn't medicated and I went full term and both me and Carter are healthy. I had to pick up the kids earlier from mum so she kept Carter for 45 minutes tops." I laughed.

"Fancy going to take the kids to the firehouse and seeing everyone?" Kelly smiled, I let the kids finish dinner and wrap up in massive coats and hats. I wrapped Carter up and put him in the carrier. Kelly drove us to the firehouse and parked up. He took the girls in and I followed him.

"Oh wow. Baby number 3 made a appearance then." Boden laughed.

"Oh yeah. Carter Matthew Dawson Casey was born 12 hours ago weighing 11pound 9ounces after 78 hours in labour. I've never been so tired." I laughed.

"Jesus Christ Gabby. 11 pound? How are you walking." Brett laughed.

"I don't even know anymore. He was heavy. I had no pain relief though also didn't tear for some strange reason. I'm just happy I've got my baby. The girls love him already as well. Yeah also my fault Kelly was late into work this morning, he was looking after the kids for me while I was in labour. I'm pretty sure I gave birth at half 5 but no body slept last night because the midwife was with me all night and I was in a lot of pain. I've had about 7 baths, curry's, everything to get into labour and you know what finally did it? Shouting at Kelly for leaving socks on the bathroom floor and bending down to pick them up." I chuckled.

"It's lovely to see you back to normal Gabs." Brett kissed my cheek before sitting down with the girls. I sat down and Boden made me a cup of tea. They went to a call out, leaving me, Kelly and the girls sat around. Carter was fast asleep.

"Kelly? Will you be Carter's godfather? You are to the other two?" I smiled.

"Of course I will." He smiled, he held my hand gently while the girls played around with some dolly's that Boden kept here for when they came by. After a few hours they come back and Kelly had taken the girls back and stayed with them. I was still sat in the armchair having a cuddle with Carter when they come back.

"What time does your shift finish?" I smiled.

"6am." Boden laughed.

"Oh okay. I'll go home when you do." I smiled.

"Don't you need sleep?"

"Carter will sleep anywhere. I can't sleep. I don't know why. I've not slept properly in 6 months. Pregnancy didn't help, of course losing Matt really didn't help. I'm still grieving and it's hard to sleep that's all."

"Spoken to a counsellor?" Boden smiled, he helped me up and I made sure Carter was okay in his carrier. We took a slow walk out and around the firehouse while I carried Carter's carrier around so he could have some fresh air.

"I've tried. I'm on antidepressants and stuff. Chief Jones at work set me up a counsellor too but it didn't work."

"When did you see him?"

"All through the pregnancy right up until 4 days ago when I went into labour. I'm back at work tomorrow. But I'm doing okay now." I smiled.

"Your back at work tomorrow? Seriously? You only gave birth this morning."

"Yeah I know but I'm feeling good. Like I feel great. I'm ready for work. Jones has said Carter can come with me and there can be a mosses basket like right next to me, next to my desk so he can stay with me all the time." I smiled.

"Yeah I made sure it was okay. Because I knew you wouldn't want to leave him at the cresh or anything so it means you have to stay on paperwork and stuff but he can come with you to work." Boden laughed. "The real question how are you?"

"Good yeah I guess, apart from what I've already told you. It's good to have Carter now though." I smiled.

"Your first boy."

"Oh yeah. Even when we had the few miscarriages and stuff they were all girls. This is the first little boy." I laughed.

"He doesn't look much like Matt." Boden smiled.

"Yeah well, I don't know. I guess it's just he's taking after my side more. The girls look like Matt though apart from having the brown eyes like me. I love them all anyway. The girls miss Matt a lot. But they like Kelly living with us, because I mean you know they've both grown up with Uncle Kelly there all the time but I guess it's hard for them." I smiled, I was watching Carter sleeping peacefully. I just kept thinking how he didn't really look like Matt at all and he was so big compared to the girls. Like 11pound? I know Adara was premature but still it didn't seem right. I didn't mind anyway. I had my first son and I was doing okay now. I saw Boden look at the fact I was still wearing my engagement and wedding ring.

"You keeping them on?" He smiled.

"Yep. Matt was buried with his wedding ring, the dog tags that we bought each other, his bracelet with a G on it and the necklace with the cross on it, I wear my necklace and M bracelet all the time and I never take my rings off. I can't Wallace. They mean everything to me." I sighed tearfully.

"It's hard losing someone. Especially you losing Matt after everything you went through together but your strong. Your doing okay? Right? I mean Cindy and Maria are always open for a chat? We are all here for you as well. Your mum and dad are supportive? Matt's family? Mills?" He smiled.

"Mills I haven't spoken to since the wedding. Which is when I was pregnant with Adara. Which was 6 years ago. Kelly and Jay have been there a lot though." I smiled.

*

A year on from losing Matt we were all doing okay. Kelly still lived with us, Adara was 7, Ruby was 14, Carter was 18 months. Jay and Erin had been awesome.

"You ready Gabby?" Erin smiled.

"Yes sorry." I laughed, I pulled my dress down as we hugged each other while Kelly took the photo. We were both laughing so much together. It was good to feel like myself again and have a night out with the girls. Myself, Erin and Burgess were off out together. Only to Molly's then some clubs but we were excited. I had a black dress and heels on, Erin took my hand as I kissed Kelly goodbye while he looked after the kids and we headed out.

"I love you lot." I smiled in the back of the taxi.

"We all love you too." Burgess smiled, and off we went out.

I visited Matt's grave every week, the kids come every 2 weeks. Kelly had met this girl he was getting close with, I didn't want to be with anybody at the moment, Erin and Jay were back together, Burgess was single like me. Boden and his wife already had Terrance and were expecting their second and third child in the form of twins. Mouch was back at work after his heart attack. It all worked out okay. We all felt happy and we all supported each other. I was no Inspector Captain in Command of Chicago. We all supported each other. We all felt better with each other and I was a good Inspector to my firefighters I had been put in charge of 51 so I guess it was easier to see everybody. I was higher up than both Boden and Chief Jones. It was scary knowing overall it was down to me if any of my firefighters died. But I looked after them all. I made sure I did. We spent Christmas together every year. We celebrated our own and our kids birthdays together as well. I'm just happy we are all together again.