*Jade's P.O.V*

"Jade, you should probably sleep now, you're literally falling asleep on the couch." I heard Zayn speak. Alex had gone to bed insisting that I go as well but I told him that I'll talk to Zayn for a while. I yawned rubbing my arms. The ocean right next to the house made it Even more chilly. "Yeah. It's almost 1. Thanks for calling." I said genuinely. It was great talking to Zayn. "Goodnight Jade, take care." He said. "Wait." I found myself speaking up before he could end the call. "Yeah?" I took a deep breath before I finally asked. "How is he?"

There was silence before he spoke up again. "He's been better.." making me uneasy. It's been two years and I should have forgotten him already yet here I am still asking about him. He's been better.."I'm going to go now, take care, love." He said. "Bye, Zayn" I replied and locked my phone.

I must've been sitting here for a long when Alex snapped me out of my thoughts. "Why aren't you asleep, Jade?" He asked yawning as he went over to the kitchen, probably to get some water. I sighed and got up, walking over to our room and laid on the bed trying to fall asleep. A few minutes later, I felt the bed dip as Alex came and laid. "Goodnight, love" he whispered. I closed my eyes to forget about everything, yet I knew.. I knew i wouldn't forget anything.

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Today was going to be a long day. I had filled in application forms for jobs around here and had to attend two interviews right after each other. Alex wasn't in bed when I woke up, I decided to go and get ready anyways.

The weather was really nice today wth a clear sky automatically making my mood happy. I hummed to a song as I curled my hair and did my makeup. I was slightly nervous to whether I would be accepted or not. Modeling after this long time wouldn't have been a choice. You need a bright, happy face for modeling. I'm here, recovering with a bland soul.

I was in the midst of putting on my shoes when I heard the front door open and then close with a very excited Alex rushing in with a grin on his face. He looked around before spotting me and ran towards me. "Woa, Wow" I was caught off guard when he pulled me off my feet and turned me around. "Jade you wouldn't believe it!!" He said happily and then let me back on my feet before placing a kiss on my forehead and holding my hands.

"Alright, so you know how Smith enterprises was being moved?" He started. I nodded as a signal for him to continue. "And, it's moving. To Los Angeles!" He said happily with a wide grin and his eyes shining with happiness. I smiled, just looking at him. "I'm very happy for you, Alex" I said sincerely. "But that's not the best part." He continued. "We're moving there. And by we, I mean you and I." He said leaving me speechless. "What?" I questioned. I don't know how to feel about this. I am happy for Alex and I am happy for every bit of success his company achieves but moving to Los Angeles?

"You don't seem so happy about it." He snapped me out of my thoughts. "Oh. No no no" I said giving him a smile. "Of course I'm happy for you. I'm happy for everything you achieve and I'm happy for everything that you want." With that he was satisfied, sealing our lips.

It was a sign of.. not quite love. To him, it surely was. To me.. I don't quite know. I felt guilty every time Alexander would touch me, hug me or kiss me. I felt as if I didn't belong to him. Yet I did, and I do. I'll make sure I do.. Now that he has made plans for us to move together to another state. No work in Georgia it is now.

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"We should set up the guest room like this." Alex continued on with ideas of the house he wanted to decorate in LA. I sat across him laying on a cushion on the couch, watching him intently. He's a very different person. It's odd how we judge people by comparing them to others. It's probably odd just for me.. I compare him to Harry.

He had chestnut brown hair but not quite like Harry's. His personality glowed in a room of darkness, making everyone smile. Alexander is someone we all need to have in life. He's someone we all need as a life partner, yet.. I'm here feeling guilty every single day.

Happiness. A beautiful word with a chaotic influence. They say life's like an ocean. "Just like the ocean, life is full of constant distortion. Some distortions can cause the ocean to be calm, almost tranquil. It can be filled with such beauty and serenity that cannot be compared. At its worst, the ocean will churn and become a mess, causing a ripple effect of lost thoughts, into the withdrawn waters. It's hard to see the bottom of where your feet were once so firmly placed, the water suddenly becoming murky with no evidence of where you once stood so strong. The forceful currents blow pulling you into the depths of the unknown. It's attainable to find your way back to shore but it's even more conceivable to lose your direction and motivation to swim back to the safety of the shoreline, back to the familiarity of the soft sand. If that is the case... you drown"

I would've drowned in those forceful currents that pulled me into the depths of the unknown if it wasn't for Alexander. He pulled me back to the safety of the shoreline. How ironic how the same ocean back in the years began the story of my life. How we were on levels. The feeling of leaping Into the ocean.. all so familiar. I remember when the same man I loved all my life, said he loved me. I believed him blindly.

"And here could be the master bedroom. Your choice of design." Alex summarized his words. I nodded, smiling. This was a tranquil life. It's like a kite with just a little puncture flying high in the skies. A beautiful colorful kite in the hands of a beautiful soul.