WARNING: MATURE CONTENT AHEAD 

I heard Tiana before I saw her.

"Chauncey, don't touch me!" Chauncey's nasty pedophile ass was always tryna feel on Tiana. I hated that shit.

I heard him and Remmey tell her that I was back here in the cut when she asked where I was, and then start laughing. I looked down at the bitch in front of me and wished she would hurry the fuck up. They knew damn well I was back here getting' my shit handled.

This one was fine, too. And good. Real good, just like they said. So I didn't stop her, but I did need for her to hurry the hell up before Tiana got back there. This chick didn't even look like a crack fiend, but she damn sure was. For real, for real. I mean, she came looking to cop like every day. And half the time, she didn't even have any money. Normally, Remmey would have fucked a bitch up by now, always coming around with no money, but not this one. This one he started grabbing his junk every time he saw her coming. Chauncey and Remmey and whoever else was around would always take her back in the cut whenever she came through and couldn't pay, and then they would come back out grinning like Cheshire Cats. She would come back out behind them, with her hair and clothes all messed up, lipstick all over the place, and then would be on her way.

That's how it went with most of these fiends. They would just take their rocks and go. Sometimes, one of the real stupid ones would ask for more than what they were given and get they ass beat. Even if it was a woman. But I never did that shit. I never put my hands on women. And most of the time, I never went back there with them to get sucked off, either. I remembered from my younger days, when Rico used to let me watch, that anything could go down once they got a girl back there. Anything. And I wasn't down with half the shit they did to those girls, so I just mostly kept my ass out of the cut altogether when I could help it. But if she was fine, and if it was just me, I might go back there and let her do her thing.

Like this one.

I finally couldn't take it no more. I had to know what the fuck ol' girl was doing to keep getting away with never having any money. And I was glad I did, too. She had my shit feeling like a volcano. I couldn't even stop her when I saw Tiana walk around the corner and screech to a halt.

I wanted to, I just...didn't want to.

Fucking Chauncey and Remmey.

I closed my eyes so I couldn't see Tiana's face. She looked hurt and betrayed, and most of all shocked. Like she didn't already know what the fuck went down back there. She should have waited until I came back out.

This bitch was taking all damn day. Which was cool, until I needed her to hurry her ass up. I grabbed her by the back of her head and pumped harder, trying to bust, until finally I got one out. I came all the way down her throat. She sucked every last drop out and swallowed it all. If Tiana wasn't standing there, I probably would have been ready to go again. That shit was amazing. She had my whole body jerking like I was having a seizure. I couldn't even push her off until the electricity finally stopped running through me.

Then I threw her two rocks and sent her on her way.

When Tiana first came around the corner, she stopped dead in her tracks and kind of looked scared, like maybe she thought I was about to do something else to this crackhead. Like maybe she had just walked up at exactly the wrong time. But Tiana should have known I wasn't about to hurt that chick. I wasn't even like that. Some of the OGs, most definitely, but not me. When the girl finished and left, Tiana stayed standing where she was and awkwardly watched me fix my clothes. Then she walked hesitantly toward me.

"Kenney..." she was whispering like nobody knew we were back there. "You mess with crackheads?"

I shook my head no. "Nah..." But clearly, she had just seen me. "I just...let em suck me off sometimes...it's...part of the job..."

I said that because I couldn't think of any other better reason to give her. It was something that I had heard one of the OGs tell his lady once, before he beat her ass for asking too many damn questions.

This conversation was already stressing me.

I didn't want to have it with who I was having it with.

"So...what's up, Tee?"

She just gawked at me for a minute and then shook her head.

"Charity would lose her shit if she found out, Kenney."

"Then don't tell her."

"I won't..." she kept staring at me like she had no idea who I was.

She and Charity hadn't been cool since Charity found me and Tiana in her bed together, so I wasn't really worried about that, anyway. What I was worried about was the way Tiana kept staring at me. Did she like me now?

Shit. I just fucked up.

I had been trying to get Tiana to like me since I was a kid. Not just fuck me, but like me.

Fucking Chauncey and Remmey.

"So...what's up?" I tried to play it cool.

"Uh..." she blinked for a minute and then finally remembered what she came back there to tell me. "Jazz had her baby."

"Well shit, gul, whyn't you say somethin'?" I finished fixing my jeans and started walking toward her.

"I...uh..." Tiana was still standing there, blinking at me. It was like she was in shock or something. When I walked toward her, she took a step back.

"Tee...you ok?"

"I just...didn't know you did that..." She was fighting hard to get a grip.

I walked closer to her and she took another step back. Now I was the one staring at her. Damn she was beautiful. I wanted to kiss her. But I could tell by her face that she would probably pee her pants if I tried. What the hell was up?

"Tee..." I finally got to her and put my hand on her arm. She was shaking. "What the hell's really good, gul? Why you starin' at me like that?"

She just shook her head and closed her mouth, then looked down at her shoes and wouldn't look back up at me.

"You actin' like you scared of me." I tried to joke with her, but she wouldn't laugh or even smile.

"I just...I didn't know you were like them now." It had been a while since we had seen each other, but not that long. Damn, that was the last thing I wanted her to think about me. "You know, like Chauncey and..."

I cringed and cut her off quickly. "I'm not." She nodded and continued to stare at me. "What?"

She shrugged. "I just...didn't know you do all that...too. I...I...uh..." The girl was shaking in her boots.

"Tee..." I took another step towards her, and she took another step back. "You ok?"

"Yeah..."

"Tiana," I put my hand under her chin and lifted her face up toward mine. "Is Jazz ok?" She nodded. "The baby ok?" She nodded again. "Then what's up?" She just stared at me with her huge, dark, beautiful eyes. "Did you...were you...tryna be my girl or somethin'?" Her face instantly switched to confusion, but her liking me was the only other reason that I could think of for her to be acting this weird. "I mean...did you think that you were my girl...or somethin'? Because I'm good wit' that if that's...what you thought you were..."

She suddenly smiled at me like she thought I was the cutest little thing. I hated when she did that. She hadn't done it in a while. Not since I started diggin' her out, anyway. But hey, at least I finally got a smile on her face.

"Nah, that's not it..." She shrugged, then slowly relaxed and went back to normal. I still didn't know why she had been all tensed up in the first place. "Jazz wants you." She looked up at me for a minute longer, and then turned and headed back out to the street.

I followed.

On the way past Chauncey and Remmey, I gave them the stink eye and growled "Fuck y'all," under my breath. They knew what the hell they were doing when they sent Tiana back there.

Both of them just fell out. Remmey was laughing so hard, he had to prop his arm up on Chauncey's shoulder to keep from getting weak.

Assholes.

I just kept walking behind Tiana, hoping she didn't notice their dumbass, and hoping that Jazz hadn't sent Tee to get me just so she could ask me to help her get high while she was stuck in the hospital.

This life was so fucked up.

I needed a break.