Emily Rose

I couldn't move.

I was frozen.

Was everything suddenly hot or was that just me?

Cameron groaned and let go of my hand. "Parker... I told you not to come!" She turns towards him. "And of course you don't fucking listen!" She continues. Her voice getting louder and louder.

As Cameron yelled at him, Parker's eyes never left me. A cocky smirk made its way on his lips as he studied me, scanning me up and down.

My legs couldn't stop shaking. My throat began to close, feeling tight and dry. I started to feel light headed. Everything started to feel sickening, I felt the rush of nausea come to me.

"Miss. Shivers! Miss. Shivers!" I heard a voice call out.

Running up to us was the ring bearer. I think his name was Charlie or something. My mind's beginning to cloud up.

The twelve year old boy stops in front of me, "Miss. Shivers, Kelly and Barbara wants you to do your speech."

I almost forgot about the speech.

I nod my head. "Yes, yes. I almost forgot." I laugh and begin to follow 'Charlie' to the wedding stage.

'Charlie' gives me an encouraging smile as I walk into the stage.

As I get up on stage, my breath starts to shorten.

I take a look at everyone in there assign seats, staring at me.

Standing in the back with his hands crossed across his chests was Parker.

Parker was indeed taller than the last time I saw him, or maybe it was me? His hair was grown out longer and he had a five o'clock shadow. His dark brown eyes seemed hazel under the lighting. He wore a dark blue suit that seemed to add to his allure.

His face was marked with concern as he stared at me.

What does he have to be worried about? He's not the one who feels sick.

Cameron stood next to him. Her twisted a curl between her fingers as her mouth gasped open. Fear inched her face.

I cleared my throat and grabbed onto the mic in front of me.

"Hello everyone." My voice shook and I tried to gain control by gripping onto shaft of the microphone holder.

I took a deep breath. "So I would like to say congratulations to our couple." I gestured towards Kelly and Barbara, who sat in the front, with a wave of my hand.

I tried to look at the couple who smiled and waved at the people clapping for them, but my eyes kept on snapping towards Cameron and my old best friend in the back, who slowly clapped his hands for the couple.

I almost felt sick.

Keep it together, keep it together.

Once everyone stopped clapping, I continued. "When they first came into my office, I could instantly see the chemistry between them." I said as I stared at Parker.

Why is he here?

Where was he?

I quickly blinked away the oncoming tears and continued my speech. "It's great to see so much love in a room." My eyes began to burn from unshed tears.

Why didn't he stay?

I could feel myself starting to break but I kept going.

"P-people who are this in love should stay that way. No matter, no matter w-what-" My voice cracked and tears finally came down.

I heard a loud gasp come out in the audience as I ran off the stage and away from the party.

My ears rung as I ran.

I didn't know where I was going, all I knew was that I had to get out of there.

Seeing him again made it hard to breathe. I've spent a long time getting over my feelings and learning to live again.

My short hair flew around me as I ran into the nearest building which seemed to be a gazebo.

I clasped onto the ground and weeped.

It was so unfair!

How could this happen to me?! I've done nothing, why must I be punished?!

Why must he show up when I was getting my life together?!

Why must he show up after everything he caused.

I almost had everything! Almost.

He tricked me that night into thinking that I had everything. He made me promise to stay his but he disappeared. Leaving me alone and worried, dying on the inside. I thought something happened to him, that he wanted to leave!

This is so unfair!

I don't want him back, I don't need him back!

My body shook violently as another wreak of emotions crashed into me.

"Polar Bear?" A familiar voice asked me.

"Go away Parker." I snapped at him.

God, why can't he just disappear!

"Okay I know I deserved that but Emmie, we need to talk." He tries to reason, but I don't want to hear him right now.

"No! No, we don't!"

"Emmie, just listen to me," he says placing him hand on my shoulder.

"Get off of me!" I shove his hand off my shoulder and stand up, facing him.

His lips are pulled into a worried frown. "Emmie, please." He reaches out towards me and I step back. Sadness overtakes his face.

He doesn't deserve to be sad!

"No! No!" I run my hair through my hair, yanking at it.

"Emmie, I'm sorry."

"No! No! You don't have any right!" I scream at him. "To come here! To show up and think I'm going to allow you to touch me!" I shake my head at him and let out a mirthless laugh. "No, Parker it is not okay! You've been gone for FIVE years! You're an asshole, okay? You are!"

Parker runs his hands through his hair. "I know-," he begins but I cut him off.

"No you don't! You don't know shit! You disappeared, you left me! Me!" I scream at him again, "you didn't even have the proper decency to say goodbye! You just packed up and left. You left everyone" My voice dies off and I whisper. "You left me."

"Emmie, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to. Okay, I just-," Parker tried to explain but was interrupted, again. Not by me but by Cameron, who stood behind Parker.

"Park, I think you need to leave." Her hard, icy voice echoed the gazebo.

"Cameron, this doesn't involve you." Cameron said, his eyes still on me.

"Yeah, I think it does. Emily Rose is my best friend and right now she is hurting and it's all because of you." Cameron crossed her hands across her chest. "You need to leave."

Parker's eyes scanned me, "let Emmie decide."

The hope that clouded Parker's eyes quickly died off as I pointed towards the door out of the gazebo and said. "Leave."

Parker downwards and cursed before looking back up at me. He gave me a sad smile before leaving and walking out of the gazebo.

Once I was certain Parker was gone, I clasped back onto the ground and cried.

Every conflicting emotions hit me all at once.

Cameron rushed over to me and pulled me into her arms. "It's okay, Emmie. It's okay." She softly chanted into my ear, none of it helped at all, everything was still in a wreak.

Then it finally came to me.

Nothing can be fixed when a hurricane like Parker runs through your life.

And I cried harder.

*****

The smell of bacon made its way to my nose and I smiled.

I knew exactly where I was.

I lived in a small 2 bedroom house. Nice and modest is how I wanted it.

I was wearing my pink silk nightgown. I didn't know how this appeared on my body but I didn't care.

I slowly got out of bed and walked my way to the bathroom.

Well damn! I thought as I looked at my face in the mirror.

My face was red and puff and had tear stains on my cheeks.

Everything from yesterday flashed through my mind and I ignored it.

That was just a dream. Just a dream, Parker Bowmen is not back. It's just my imagination.
If it was real, I would've remembered coming home last night.

I began to wash my face, trying to forget everything that happened in the last twenty-four hours.

Once I started to begin to look like an actual human, I brushed my teeth and left the bathroom.

I walked my into the kitchen to see my fiancé,
Tomas cooking, shirtless.

Well, isn't this a treat.

I made my way behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist before kissing his cheek. "Good morning."

Tomas smiled, "mornin'"

"Whatcha cooking?" I asked, putting my head on his shoulder.

"Eggs, bacon, and your personal favorite, blueberry pancakes." He asked before turning the stove off and turning his body around to face me.

He kissed my lips and slipped his hands onto my waist.

Tomas kiss lit a fire in me, burning me inside and out.

I smiled against his lips and Tomas pulled away.

"Well what was that for?" I asked.

"You just being you." He smiled at me.

I can't lose this.

Tomas frowned, "Are you okay? Cameron brought you home last night and you were passed out. Did something happen at the wedding?" He asked, concern transformed his face.

I knew I couldn't tell Tomas about Parker, he's always been self conscious about him. It took me a while before I finally convinced him that I loved him for him and not as a rebound for Parker.

"Nothing," I lied and shrugged. "I just missed you." I smiled at him and let my arms slip from his waist to his neck.

I pulled him close to me and kissed his lips.

As our kiss began to deepen I jumped up and wrapped my legs around Tomas' waist.

He walked backwards, slipping me onto the nearby counter.

Fireworks went off in my body as Tomas' hands slipped onto my thigh, drawing small circles.

His hands touched the end of my nightgown before the door rung.

Tomas pulled his lips from mine and leaned his head against my mine.

"It's your time to answer the door," he smiled at me.

I groaned. "Fine."

I pulled Tomas away from me and jumped off the counter.

He laughs at me. "It was your rule!" He tries to reach me but I back away and stick my tongue at him, causing him to laugh harder.

"Whatever," I waved him off and walked to the front door.

"Whoever is on the other side of the door better have a good reason to be here." I grumble under my breath as I reach towards the door knob and open the door.

I look up and a gasp comes out of my lips.

Standing in front of the door with a bouquet of white roses is Parker.

Oh my god.

Parker shoots me one of his award winning smiles, his eyes shinning.

"Can I come in?" He asks.

I was about to answer him but then Tomas' voice asks inside the house.

"Honey, who's at the door?"

Oh no.

*****

Hey guys!

Lying is very bad, Emily Rose! Problems show up!

The picture at the top is how looks Parker.

Surprisingly, I got this chapter done pretty quickly. I thought it would be harder, but whatever.

I'mma post it now...

Anyways, I hope you liked Chapter 5 of The Love That Is Parker Bowmen.

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