I remember once when I was having a bad day and I was crying in my room this is when my mom was still around and I was doing an Elmont Ontario. Excuse the spelling I'm using the microphone again anyways my father opened his big mouth again as per usual and I was having my period.
As we all know two things big mouth and PMs do not get along very well so I ended up going and screaming at them this is when I do not know how to control my temper very well. And then I stormed upstairs in my bedroom which was a very tiny room but it was enough to keep me quiet and then my mom said to me that I was special and that I had to know that for a fact. I didn't know that until I actually found one thing at after another about myself in a good way not in a diagnosis or bad way.
My friends if I had friends other than Karen knew that there was something charismatic about me. And that I was extremely bright very intelligent I liked rap music a lot. I've always grown up with rap music as I may have mentioned the other books. Rap music was the one thing that was keeping me from trying to go off on someone by that I mean go and do something stupid to someone that I know I would regret because the rappers would say things like what they have done in their in life experience and that they've had to go through the trials and tribulations of their troubles and that they are not just wrapping to make money unlike the new rappers these days. I think there's better topics to rap about other than sex or drinking or partying there's other things to talk about when you're rapping. One of them is that you have to build tolerance towards other people another is that in life experience as well as teaching people the hard truth the easy way without having to them to go through it themselves as well it's very important nowadays I just rap about money and sex and partying and stupid stuff that really doesn't mean very much. That drives me nuts are like the old school rappers that help me get back on my feet after a bad day. My influences other than Insane Clown Posse were Missy Elliot Miss Dynamite and Nate Dogg not nephew but Nate Dog and other things I had to try and do rap when I was younger but never really succeeded because of my voice problems particularly I used to have an infections in my throat from my torture in Romania. So I would always have a raspy horrible voice and it wasn't a raspy in a good way and I always had strep throat. I don't know how many times I've been on antibiotics for my throat and voice box. So I decided that I was going to wait until I was older then I learned how to sing properly with the help of Amanda Jordan and I found out right away that I was able to sing and not just play the guitar that I had the voice of an Angel and then the raspy voice came back in the form of covid-19 now this is what bugs me the most was that I can't sing worth a shit anymore and I have to use simply saying just to help me get my voice box back in order until then I am wrapping and stuff wrap as in rap music. Not as in wrapping presents but wrapping Rhymes and rhythms and stuff that are going to teach people a good lesson in life that you had to learn the hard way. I might say that it's a very educational genre of music if you treat it correctly.
Like I rap about what I've gone through as a child want stupid stuff I've pulled as a kid that you shouldn't pull in the consequences that you my face if you do the same stupid stunts that I've pulled I can lift off the soup stupid stunts but you have to go on my Spotify which is sufy's frog about my stuff and I'm also hoping to go on to as the bands that I had with my friend Christopher the name of the band is strawberry trees and the first album is tattoos and coffee. Some two things that I like. And I tell the truth when I rap as you can tell even when I do fictional stories like my stories I tell the truth about what's going on in my life through fictional stories as well this is why I do rap in the first place as well it's like now like what Shakespeare is to be in the Elizabethan era and that it's a fine art if you have the right experience in your life the right problems the right issues and the right know-how and how to get your Rhythm and speed up. As well as you have to have a good voice to do so which I developed through covid-19 when I was in February 2022. Which was just this year. Will I get it again the damn covet I don't know for all I know I might say for shizzle mine is or something I don't know but I might start learning different techniques and wrapping if I get it again and I don't want to get it again because it was a pain in the throat and a pain in the neck. I was trying to be a decent singer when I had the covid but my voice was too raspy and stuff so I ended up rapping instead and rapping I did. And I found out it was a bunch of fun and it was easy to tell the truth that way without offending people although you do use foul language at times when you rap. Do I suggest that you do it yes I highly suggested if you have any kind of in life experience be it mental illness mental disability or just playing bad experience in Life or have face consequences that you didn't exactly enjoy that I highly recommend that you rap your Rhymes to people that to help you me you again. It's a recovery thing for me to help it's also a coping mechanism. Some people with PTSD or other whatever is going on in their life drink do drugs smoke or whatever but what I do is I do rap music instead and I love rap with a passion since I was 12 years old and I heard get your freak on by Missy Elliott. That's when Wonder had a bad day and I heard the song Get Your Freak On by Missy Elliott and it was so interesting and funny and entertaining and it was very ear popping that I just saw it I was going to listen to Missy Elliott religiously then I ended up hearing it takes more from Miss Dynamite. And there was a couple of other female rappers at my time that I enjoyed like Lil Kim and stuff that said a little Kim said a real mob board show love and spread love and not violence. There's other stuff goodies that they have said and then I also listen to G-Unit they usually wrapped for money they don't usually rap for the sake of the art but anyway I've listened to them but 50 Cent raps because he has been through there crap or a couple of times in his life he's been shot about 99 times I believe and that could cause PTSD and he ended up wrapping about what nearly happened to him which was his death nearly. When I started strawberry truth I decided to dedicate one song to my mother which was called thank you. Because I have nothing but a thanks for her she was the good one where's my father sometimes was the iffy one at times. Was he a good parent to me yes but was he a good parent to my brothers no he wasn't so I have to say he wasn't that great of a parent or he was iffy. So the Thank You song was more or less to my mother because she was not if he was a wonderful mother and had helped me through life in life experiences and stuff and I may have hated her sometimes I may have loved her sometimes but damn it I'm glad that God created her or else I would be up a creek without a paddle. There are some fun facts about me that you probably don't want to know about my past other than that I was tortured by Al-Qaeda. One is at my mother was a victim of a government sanction rape and I was a product of said rape hoping that she would produce a boy for the intelligence services but instead she produced a girl me and ended up having to leave me for Dad and I nearly did die for almost 2 years of my life almost like 50 Cent I tell about half the stuff that I've gone through whether it be the stuff in Romania or how I deal with the stuff that happened in Romania or what goes on in Catholic schools and stuff that are not very savory. Or just in life experience with my own personal issues I rap about. I consider myself either the female Eminem or the female 50 Cent either way I'm very truthful and very honest when I say my Rhymes and spill them. I was called a Fireball by Christopher because I was just on fire one night and I was full of scales how did I get these skills I don't know but all I know is I just ended up having covid in the next thing you know I ended up having the right voice to rap where is before I couldn't have the right voice I'd have to alter my voice which would hurt even worse than having the disease itself. I have to give the novel coronavirus for some credit for my voice because I now can rap. I'm able to speak my mind with the right voice do I have the man flu yes but I am no man I'm just female like every I'm just female meaning I was naturally a female obviously if my mother had to throw me away because I wasn't a cyst boy. Sis means that you've been assigned that gender at Birth. So I'm just female. Instead of just boy if I was assist boy I would have been in deeper shit because I would still have been in Romania.
So thank God I ended up being assist female cisgender female and that is who I am natural female and that's who I am but I do have a case of the man flu now because of covid-19 I even got called a man by some girl named Anna Whitby or something I can't remember her name but she was really rude about it she could have said you have the man flew on my YouTube channel and leave it at that but then that's not me from going on YouTube so I decide I was just not going to go on YouTube anymore except to say something that I need to say or stuff but I can say that easily on wartpad.  
So I'd rather write or rap to tell the truth. Sometimes I tell the truth the usual Way by just being honest to people. But that is beside the point that was how I was raised but I was also raised to be honest when I do my other stuff as well my creative stuff. You will never find a scammer in me or a cheater or a hustler or anything of that matter I am nothing more than honest 100% sometimes to the point where I'm brutally honest and I get in shit.
For example in my group home I told one worker who was nothing but good to me and I told to shut the fuck up.    As you can tell I ended up learning a lesson very quickly and very fast if the person is good to you you don't have to start swearing at them but if they're going to be a pain in the ass to begin with then go let her wrap or if they try to make a fool out of your friends or yourself and make sure that they are knowing that they have done so but if they're good people good and meaningful people then you should swear at them. I ended up with instant remorse right away after I got told what I was sad. I am too honest with my emotions at times sometimes even though they're mixed. I decided that day I was mad for some odd reason I don't know why and I just took it out on the poor woman. This woman taught me the basics of makeup and I was able to do goth makeup because of her.   And she even gave me a lucky tea one day which was very good the key that was the colors of the Romanian flag what you would think to me wouldn't be too lucky but it was I remember finding everything that I wanted to find whenever I wore that key. So that's important so I have to keep that in mind before I let a rip on someone. Unless they're picking on my friends at the group home or they're picking on the workers also my friends I'm not going to let a rip cuz I'm not going to start swearing just for the sake of it. I only swear to tell the truth and the only truth that I know is what I experienced and sometimes it's effing good or effing bad. Never in the middle I have been told that I was a black and white person not mulatto but just playing either it's this way or the other way there was no grays. But that was a pile of bull crap as this woman is Cassandra has been nothing but pain my ass and she's been nothing more than that. She was the one that was trying to assimilate me when I was just 20 years old because I was Eastern oriented. And of Eastern DNA meaning Middle Eastern and Asian and South Asian and Central Asian so I decided that she was the enemy right there Cassandra thompson. And then she went on about how certain people in the Holocaust had it coming with the live autopsies and stuff and I my jaw just dropped and I want to smack her so bad. I wanted her out of my life right then and there so I may very clear that she was not welcome in my life anymore now she's never allowed to talk to me anymore because of that comment she said about Mengele. You do not want to bench in that guy with me unless you want to start a real Rumble. Why because he autopsied Asians in Muslims as well as he also experimented on Jewish twins I don't really give a shit what kind of person is it human that's what I just see hominid or a human I don't find that there's anything of difference unless you're Sasquatch then that's a difference but other than that forget it. 
I don't see orientation religion or race or anything of that matter I just see you home a minute a human excuse me I meant hominid. Which means a human being for Christ's sake so that's why I despise people like mangala and people who are also like Cassandra Thompson who are who are big fans of Josh's mangala who are nothing more than pains in my asses and white supremacists. I don't like mentioning this too much but anyway I have Himalayan and Muslim Asian particularly Buddhist Hindu and Muslim Central Asian and Himalayan and South Asian and some East Asian uihgur as well.      Do I believe that am I inferior to anyone no but I'm not Superior to anyone else not because I'm flexible and strong and dominative of size but I'm not any better or worse than anyone else. I'm imperfect like everyone else that's about it but yes I do have some special qualities to myself like the flexibility and the strength. As well as I have an artistic streak and I create tattoos for myself and I also go around wrapping. About my experiences. What I do is I just say what I have to say to draw what I have to draw and then be done with it I don't bother if anyone's going to like it or not if someone likes it that's fine if they don't that's their damn problem not mine. It is the same thing with being Auto romantic. You're either going to like it or you're going to hate it so some people like me are an acquired taste for a human brain whatever a human brain is in my opinion I don't find that it's very useful for most humans like Cassandra or mangalay or any of those shitheads.   I just think that some people have zero brains and I have this Theory called The Invisible brain Theory where it is my PTSD and my brain are real but what about your brain is it real or you just acting a fucking fool.

-T.M.