"His probably listening right now and pissin his pants."

You grit your teeth and drag yourself off the bed, Sanji panicking and putting his hands up to stop you, "y/n you shouldnt be-", you put your hand on his chest and glance at up at him with a serious expression.

He sighs and drops his hands once your determined eyes burn into him, he knew that trying to stop you would only harm you further because you wouldn't give up without a fight.

Your feet meet with the wooden floors, it was cold and sent a shiver up throughout your body, your legs were weak because of the lack of use but you stood tall and stepped forward.

Frustration and bitter anger fueling your steps, your hand grabbing onto the door frame, gulping down the nervousness before you glance out of the door

Idiot.

His back was turned to you, you could tell that he was panicked and conflicted on which way to run because of the way his head bobbled back and forth to each exit route.

"Monkey D. LUFFY.", your voice held a hostility that made him flinch and then freeze.

Your jaw clenched even further upon seeing him so keen on escaping you.

Why?

Your lower lip pulls up and then trembles.

I hate it.

You hated that even though your heart was bursting with bitter confusion and anger, a part of it was excited and you knew that part was strong enough to snuff out the anger in an instant if he were to apologize right then and there.

You hated that while he was conflicted on which way to take to leave you, you were conflicted on whether or not you were even angry at all now that you see him.

You stood there, a million questions swirling around but it blurts out.

"Am I so hard to look at? That you had to call for Sanji..?", the hostility was gone and replaced with pure and raw hurt.

"Wha.. No!", was his response, you could tell that he wasn't expecting that, but what was he expecting?

"No...", he repeats a lot less confused and a bit more convincingly but you scoff because even now, he still had his back turned.

"Luffy, you can't even look at me right now.", you heard his sigh as you said this, your heart aching a bit at how the air was filled with silence and not him denying your words.

"Yeah... I can't look at you.", he admits frustratedly and this time your heart does more than just ache, it drops. It drops right down to your feet in an instant and splatters pathetically.

How the hell do you even respond to that?

Your eyes glossed over and looked down at your feet, trying your best to ignore the growing lump in the back of your throat while biting back the sudden and overwhelming urge to start wailing like a child.

"Why..?", you ask softly because if it were any louder, he'd be able to tell you were moments away from bursting into tears.

It was pathetic that you wanted an explanation even after hearing his words, it was obvious he wanted nothing to do with you any longer.

"I'm scared."

Your eyes widen, fear had been the last thing you expected from him but you'd be lying if his words didn't ease the ache in your tensed muscles. His back still turned to you as he shamefully admits.

"Scared..?", you push him to elaborate on what the hell he meant by this. It was out of character of Luffy to be scared or cowardly in any aspect.

"what if..", the straw hat hesitates but sighs, you saw his hand lift to his face, it was that mannerism of him ruffling his front hair frustratedly when his brain was thinking hard for too long.

Usually that small habit made you smile but now it bothered and intensified the anxiety within you.

"What if when I look at you, your eyes don't look as happy as they do when you're looking at Sanji.?"

His words lingered and then stuck to every corner of your mind like it had no intention of dissappearing.

Your eyes burning into the back of his head, asking a million question and demanding answers for all of them but your mouth was dry.

The way your heart reacted to his words angered you.

Stop that.

You scream at yourself when you felt the small flutter of a hopeful heart.

Your tongue was left completely numb off of his words.

But you needed to be strong, you couldnt allow your anger to melt away.

"So what?.. Are you just never going to look at me again", you question in disbelief.

You could've chosen to comfort and reassure him but even though his words meant everything to you, it didn't erase how lonely he made you feel.

How unwanted he made you feel.

"you make it sound dumb when you say it like that but .. It's.. It made sense in my head.", he sounded frustrated because he was struggling to explain his thought process.

"Because it is dumb. You're dumb!", you shout back, immediately wincing and grabbing your side when you feel the stab in your ribcage.

"fu—", you slump over and put a hand on your knee to stablise yourself, the stab your raised voice inflicted upon you only fueling your anger as you grunted in frustration of the situation more than because of the pain in your ribs.

"Are you okay!?", your cursing was cut short by hands wrapped around either side of both your arms and a panicked voice.

His panicked voice.

Your eyes were shut and your head was down, afraid to open them and see blue eyes again instead of black.

The voice you heard was enough confirmation that it was who you wanted it to be but you've been hurt by expectations to many times to be hopeful.

"Answer me y/n!", you felt his grip tighten before he began to shake you gently, your paralysed silence only scaring him further.

You sigh and open your eyes, your head moving up and meeting his.

And sure enough, they were his beautiful black eyes. The thick, black ink in them moments away from being spilt onto paper to write a million words and you had a feeling that your name was the start to each and every one of those sentences.

You realized that you were holding your breath only once your chest tightened.

"What happened to not looking at me ever again?", he doesn't even flinch when you say this, his eyes still locked on yours like you were some oasis in a dessert.

"Did I really say that?" he questions almost breathlessly like what happened before he looked in your eyes was simply non-existent, like you were crazy to even suggest he'd ever be able to even say that.

He looked like he was in some kind of trance when he lifted his hand in the direction of your face, your eyes shutting out of nervousness alone but the touch you were expecting never came.

You saw his chest only a centimeter away from you, he was so close that you could smell the earthy scent of soil mixed with the soft smell of the lemongrass fabric softener nami used on the boys laundry from time to time.

He was leaning over you, causing a confusion that slipped into your eyebrows and created a baffled expression.

It was only when you heard a click that you realized he had locked the door you had come out of and the same room Sanji was still in.

What?

You gulp, your mind wandering to what he could be thinking, your heart suddenly stringing around wildly at the possibilities.

He leans back to his original stance, only this time he was a bit closer and visibly tenser.

Your eyes travel from his chest and back up to his eyes, the intensity of his eyes immediately intimidating and sending your heart into orbit yet you wouldn't look away.

"I'm... Suddenly starving haha...", is what came out of your mouth before you could think, your eyes lowering to your feet before you take step back with an awkward smile, his piercing eyes becoming too much to handle for your heart.

"Well I'm not.", his hand took yours, not pulling you toward him but you felt the tightness of his grip, it sent electric sparks that blew a surge into your heart and even your thoughts came out in a nervous stutter.

You never would of thought those words would ever leave his mouth, Luffy not letting food take over a conversation was a sign that the world was ending.

Or that his world slightly shifted.

"I have so much to say to you", he willfully admits as he takes a step forward to close the distance before he continued.

"But I've never been good at words", A crease formed between his eyebrows to show the frustration he felt. You simply nod in response because your words were stuck in your throat.

Both of you were similar in that aspect I guess...

"Y/n, I still don't know why the hell I feel like this or what the hell this is but..", he shakes his head,"I'm not going to fight it anymore."

You look up at him, blinking with widened eyes.

Was this it?... There's no way...

You gulped as the blood came rushing up to your face, being mostly terrified of what would come next as the butterflies set off in your stomach made it's may to the rest of your body.

"That's all I wanted to say. I won't fight it anymore.", Luffy let's out a goofy chuckle before pulling you into a hug and sighing immediately once his hands wrap around you.

"I'm so relieved now that that's out of the way."

Your face scrunched up in confusion and then disappointment... Before acceptance finally washes over you.

Simply deciding that you should just be grateful his holding you like this.

Right. There was no way.

A soft and amused sigh follows after your hands move to his back, holding the fabric of his shirt.

"I missed you", you decide to admit in the warmth of his tight arms without overthinking it for once.

"Yeah", his hands grip onto you a bit tighter. "It's pretty obvious I missed you more y/n", you feel the vibration of the little laugh he let's out, your knees almost buckling as you hide the stupid grin forming on your face in his chest.

This is dangerous.

A/N POV
Hi my loves, hope u enjoyed. I'm entering exams though so idk how often I'll be able to update :(
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