Taylor's p.o.v

Shame. Guilt. Remorse. Hate towards myself. That's all I can feel right now as I opened my eyes and saw a body with curves as sharp as knives stabbing me in the back. I thought the love I felt was going to come back after last night. But......

It didn't. My heart was broken. Not because of her but because of my own fears eating away my heart. I love him now. My heart ached thinking about him. I felt disgusted with myself as I stared at the sleeping body next to me. Another mistake I thought would fix the rest. Ended up burning me.

As I heard a distant ringing, I slowly pried away her arms that were tangled up around my waist and tiptoed slowly towards my house phone. Praying along the way, hoping she wont wake up.

I froze in front of the ringing phone as I saw the caller ID. My heart broke into a million pieces and my heart started to thump louder than the ringing phone.

"Harry." Called out a broken whisper that stood behind me. Didn't notice she crept up until it was too late to stop this mess that's now scattered all around me.

I debated with myself in my mind trying to decide whether I should turn and face her or pick up the phone and delay this problem awhile.

With shaking hands I grabbed the house phone and pressed the answer button. I quickly excused myself from the living room and rushed into my bedroom.

As soon as I picked up my mind went blank...

What am I gonna say...

Or do..

Harry's p.o.v.

As I sat on my couch, I thought about making 'us' official... Taylor and I ... I just still can't believe she took me back. The Happiness I'm feeling right now, its something I haven't felt for a long while...

So I decided to call her.

After a few rings when she still haven't picked up got me worried... She never delayed picking up her phone. I got worried and waited still. After awhile, she picked up. "Hello. Tay? Is something wrong?" I asked thoroughly worried. I heard her sighing on the other line and with a shaky breath she answered"Hey. Harry. No. Nothings wrong. I'm fine. Umm... Why'd you called?" .

I relaxed a bit although not buying one bit of her answer " Okay. Good. Just wanted to ask if you wanna go out to the park today?".

She waited a few wary second before replying "Yeah sure. Does 2.00pm sound good?" . "Yeah. Alright. See you then." Then I hung up.

I feel really nervous as I got off the phone with her. My mind roamed with curiosity and worry. As I took off my clothes and went in the shower and started getting ready for our date.

Taylor's p.o.v.

I returned to the living room and saw that it was empty. I didn't bother calling out for her as I figured she would've left to fix herself. My heart became bitter at the thought of what I've done and I tried to mentally prepare myself for my date this evening... I can't see him yet. If I see his face, I'm terrified that I might breakdown. He doesn't deserve this.

It has ended before it even started.

I shivered at the thought of losing him when I just got him back.
Being with him is safe and comfortable and what I need.

I can't lose this.

I heard ruffling sounds in my belcony and jumped a bit when I saw her standing at the belcony frame with red puffy eyes clearly she's been crying.
She stared straight into my eyes, searching for something. Even a slight emotion but I gave her nothing . I stared back not losing our gaze and I can see how much she' s breaking. Everything I tried to keep her away from but in the end, I'm the one causing it.
I can see that I'm causing her too much pain. Even if my feelings are slowly fading, she still means something to me. And seeing her this ways ticks off something in me.

"wtfuck Taylor. I thought we made up? I thought you said you loved me?. What the fuck was that? We just had sex and you decided to go out with someone else when you just banged a girl? Why do you keep doing this to me?!!!!!!! Why wouldn't you just admit and we can be together.... Because i fucking love you! I thught about evrything and risked coming here....Did the sex mean nothing to you ? And why are you treating me like a damned whore...." She cried out . Her words left me speechless. She stood there waiting for me to answer and when I showed no sign of doing so, she gave up and walked out the door crying.

But I still love you Karlie. We just can't be together.
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A/N
its getting nowhere and becoming worse and worse ....
Please comment if u want me to delete this... I'm giving up....