Crushed by the force of it, my words crawl back into my throat before
I have a chance to tell you goodbye.
So I ran away from the path that leads to forgetting and jogged all the way
up north to you.

Although you exist entirely in my head it does stop me from thinking about you,
fighting for the heartbeat that tears through my chest.
The untamed storms run bone deep and I always get lost in it while searching for you.

My mind is dealing with a death blow to the reality that you were never waiting for me.
It's a wrecking ball thrown at my chest and still, years later I struggle to breathe.