I fear that every thing  will take   south turn. I really want to live on right terms with myself. I want to live according to my values. Is it really possible to live like that ?

   The place where I born and brought up, women has to do alot to get possession of their own life. This society is obsessed with youngsters and women!! Knowingly or unknowingly Indian mothers are on mission to raise their daughters as super women. They want girls at 23-well educated- slim- fair- well mannered- polite - knows all kinds of arts but as hobby- to love house work- cooking- and ready to leave everything behind wherever family wants!!!
    I've chased this things in my teenage been people pleaser and tried really hard to fit in society.

I know lot of things about this super women cult.

I'm not best,I know. I can be Mediocre super women.

But I never wanted this thing I just wanted one thing that is freedom.

A guiltless freedom!
To get to choose what I want. To live according to my values.

'Values' simple yet heavy word. 
What are actually values?
Why do we give lot of importance to them?
Too many questions around it?
But for me this is quite simple.
'humanity' Just one word includes alot.

     Today am going to somewhere I dreamed of since teenage years. To find soulmate! To wonder on streets at night with no fear. To feel free and romantic!!

I'm finally going there just 15 hours.
I'll be in Paris!!

Maybe I'm expecting too much from a city, may it won't be that good, not that safe, but one thing I know it will be better than where I have lived.

Just some more time ashu just little...................

[is there any doctor on flight? There is a medical emergency. There any medical a professional]
I heard

I stand up and said "yes!!! I have a complete my degree recently. what kind of emergency it is?"
As I ask a woman in blue skirt and white shirt come to me, her body seems in rush but he expressions  are calm.

"There is a man in business class he suddenly fainted and..."

Before she complete what she was saying I headed towards it. what could it be MI? asthma? Hypoglycemia? Hypersensitivity?

"So did you check the vitals? what his TPRBP?"  I ask.
She didn't say anything.
So I just walk through the route.

We reach there. I saw a middle-aged man seems hyperventilating. I checked is carotid pulse, bp and ask for glucometer.  They do have emergency supplies but then why don't they keep a medical professional at flight? Live it I'll just get my job done.  Turned out his bsl is 45 might have taken medication in morning but forgotten to eat. I ask for IV fluids and IV set. Start it, when he got to normal state ,I Told them all the necessary instructions.
They  Thank me.
I felt good. One of the reasons why I choose this career. I likes it when I'm being useful in others lives.

Job satisfaction!!!

I was heading back I realized how different business class was from my section. Sudden wave of inferiority came and all that happiness gone in second.

Everything settled down. People eyes seem different than the beginning of flight. They are being nice and attentive. Unwanted attention!!
Uhhh i hate it most.
I'll just wear headphones and read my novel!! As always escapism worked.

I like to read. I prefer mostly female authors who talk about emotions ,dark world fantasy anything which explorer human mind and behavior. If my mother had allowed me then I'd have been a psychiatrist. I've  always been attracted to human behavior especially negative ones.

I like it when i face challenging thoughts they either give you new perspectives or make your old one more strong.

Right now I'm on last page of this book. I wanted to read it for a long time but as the name suggests I wanted to read on 'my year of rest and relaxation' .but I finished in few hours. I guess it won't be the year of rest.

I'm sleepy I should sleep. I look around what is going on why every one is panicking. Something seemed weird. I was going to ask the women aside me, suddenly I feel stretched in my head some one grabbed my hair, now dragging me to the front.

What is Happening?
I can't opposed his to strong. But why whose this man?

I stretched my hand toward a woman but she ignored it like i'm the only one who's experiencing this. I'm I hallucinating? Is this because of lack of sleep?

Finally it stopped I looked up. I see a man his face is covered with Black cloth, his eyes are burning with anger or may be hatred.

Headphones are still in my ear, I tried to remove them but his was faster than me he grab them and yank on floor.
I'm confused and angry what the hell is going on?

Before I do anything he grabbed my nake and start showing me as if I'm some kind of thing in market and his aggressively displaying me. I feel disgusted I have never Treated like this before.i tried to lossen his grip. It's useless I feel helpless. I hate this. I hate being helpless.

I want help, I'm crying for it but no ones there!
How funny is it people are first to criticize something cruel, but when it actually happens they choose to ignore it. Ignorance is more evil than cruelty.

Some one came from behind, there is something in his hands, it's a gun!!!
this is high jack.

And they are doing most expected thing removing people who can calm others. This guy is gonna kill me!!
He pointed gun at my temple. I don't know what to do .

Maybe this is my end.