Nikiforov Viktor

I'm not really sure wether or not to return to skating next year. I've found my inspiration again because i have Yuuri back in my life, And we're even lovers again, but....  i cant help but still feel a little lost. I wonder if Isa has ever ice skated or seen any ice skaters? i mean, besides Yurio, Otabek, Phitchit, Chris, Yuuri, and myself. He just doesnt know about us being famous ice skaters, or does he? I wonder if Yurio and Otabek still skate now that Otabek is a teacher and the two have a child. Will Yuuri ever skate again?

I just need to find the motivation; find my theme... Ugh! i have nothing! i swear im so worthless and dumb if i cant even find an inspiration. I've got to surprise the media and my fans. Thats always my top skating priority. But what will surprise everyone that they dont already know about me or something? My mind is blank. Hell, what would my music even be? and where would i get it from?! i havent even figured out my free skate, goddamnit.

I kick the ice angrily and sheds of it go flying but not very far. "Hey now, dont take your anger out on the ice. It did nothing to you.", i look over to see Yurio with a smirk on his face. "Oh.. Hi, Yurio..", i say somewhat quietly; i think Yurio is still mad at me, i dont blame him honestly because if the same situation im in with Yuuri, happened to one of my closest friends with their lover, i'd still be pissed too. I truly fucked up. Hey! maybe my theme can be being a fuck up! no, that was stupid, what the fuck was i thinking?

"You want to see my free skate for this year?", he asks with a shy smile on his face; its the same face he had when he met Otabek. "Sure.", i say with a big smile as i glide off the ice and put my safe guards back on my skates while watching Yurio get into position as i stand on the outside of the rink; leaning on the edges. He starts by gliding around gracefully, then start to do a jump. He continues to skate with a few jumps and he seems to have gotten better on his jumps and doing toe loops. He sometimes used to fall when doing them.

"That was amazing, Yurio! You've gotten better at your jumps and toe loops!", i smile brightly at him as he skates over and takes a quick break; sipping his water bottle. "Thanks. Its kind of hard because im in a bit of pain, but not too much.", he chuckles slightly; i feel so good bonding with him-- wait-- pain? my eyes widen. "Did you-""SHUT UP OLD MAN!", he throws his water bottle at me with a bright red face as i laugh at his expression and his guess of what i was gonna ask.