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"we're sorry, we tried everything"

those five words. those five words repeatedly kept in the boys' minds. like there was no end to it. it was like glass being shattered and the pieces are scattered on the floor, no way to fix it. that's how their hearts felt when they heard those five, heavy, dreadful words come out from nichkhun's lips.

they couldn't believe they would hang out anymore. to see each other ever. they couldn't believe that their beloved youngest, was gone. no more to hold in their arms when he was scared, to smile with when they were sad, no more nothing.

every one of them were taking this situation as the hardest struggle they've had in their lives. however wonpil was taking it the hardest. his best friend that he grew up with for years, his best friend that supported him in almost everything he did. is gone.

wonpil back was faced to the older boys.

"wo-wonpil?"

younghyun called out. he reached out his hand to turn wonpil. he did but felt guilty when he did. there they saw wonpil's tears continuously streaming down, his eyes very puffy and his nails were digging deeper and deeper through his skin.

"young-younghyun hyung"

wonpil cried out and ran to hug younghyun.

"i-i can't take this anymore... can we please go... i'll-i'll meet him when we lay him down already"

wonpil cried and tried to stop crying.

"sure"

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they all arrived in dowoon and wonpil's apartment. the older hyungs were going to sleep in the apartment until the burial and to make sure wonpil doesn't do anything careless.

"wonpil,we're going to buy some food for tonight. jae will be here with you until we come back!"

sungjin said, putting on his shoes with younghyun behind him.

"keurae"

wonpil shouted back. wonpil started to walk around the apartment and starts reminiscing the times with dowoon. those times were happy times, like they were in a never ending happy dream. and wonpil wants all this to be.

he wants to wake up and see dowoon beside him sleeping, seeing him safe is all he needed and do. but he failed.

he pushed dowoon too much causing him to die. wonpil tried to shake off the thought by singing.

I know it's been a while since our eyes last met
Too many words were left unsaid
Your head was poking out of the driver's seat
Eyes full of tears, I couldn't leave

No matter what I do,
I still feel you coming back to me
When I know that you never will
So before I say goodbye,
Would you do one last thing for me?
Be happy

And take, take her to the moon for me
Take her like you promised me
Say you love her every time like how you told me the last time

Someday I know we'll meet again
In heaven by the rainbow's end
And I only wish you happiness
Until we meet again

Wish I could stick around and fight back your tears
Tell you "My love, I'm still here"
Someday we'll understand why I had to leave
But for now I need you to set me free

No matter what I do,
I still feel you coming back to me
When I know that you never will
So before I say goodbye,
Would you do one last thing for me?
Be happy

wonpil then stopped, the lyrics were like their story. every life is a story and every story has it's ending. wonpil went to their bedroom and cried himself to sleep. not even getting up for dinner.

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