I COULDN'T SLEEP AT ALL THAT NIGHT. THE FEAR, THAT a spider might crawl straight into my ear and just have babies in my brain scared the life out of me. I woke up in the middle of the night, because I thought I felt something on my skin. I think I was getting a little bit paranoid.

But when I opened my eyes I saw his huge strong muscular arm around my body and I turn my head a little bit to see his face buried in my back, his eyes closed. Riftan looked so peaceful, when he sleeps. I felt my cheeks heat up and my body was getting hotter too. His abs pressed on my back, I feel every inch.

I turn around to face him. I was trying to be as careful as possible to not wake him up. I slowly raise my hand and I gently rub his cheek. He's like a baby, when he sleeps, I thought to myself and I smiled to myself. But sudden movement made me remove my hand immediately. Riftan opened his eyes slowly and they met mine.

He rubbed his green-ish eyes and then a small sleepy smile appeared on his face. I see his upper body raising up and he placed his hand on the side of his head to support it. Then his eyes fell on mine again, still smiling.

"You can't sleep, huh?", his sleepy husky voice sounded like a music to my ears. I tried to keep my distance, but if I move even the slightest bit I'll fall off the bed.

"Sorry, that I woke you up, my Lord", I said and I covered my upper body, because my robe was way too revealing for my taste, "I forgot, that we are in the same bed", that has to be the stupidest excuse ever coming out of my mouth.

"It's okay, but now I'm fully awake too, so if you wanna sleep..I can't let you", he chuckled and his eyes moved from mine to my lips and then he licked his, "you got to do something to get me tired again, Eleanor", Riftan almost moans my name and left me in shook.

"SIR, PLEASE!", I pushed him back out of embarrassment and Riftan fell out of the bed, I quickly got up to check on him, but when I move to his side I see him laughing.

"Eleanor, you're so innocent. It's like you're a little girl in her early teens", he laughed yet again at me and finally stood up, "why are you getting so embarrassed every time, when I tease you about sex? Is it that weird for you".

It's not weird, it's just coming from you. Of course it's going to make me feel embarrassed, Ruftan. And we are going to ignore the fact, that I'm still a virgin. Even tho I lived on the streets for so long, I've never in my life been with a man in the same bed. Expect now.

"I am not innocent", I crossed my arms and look him straight in the eyes lying like a witch, "you're my Lord, I can never accept such behaviour", I stated proudly.

"Not innocent, huh?", Riftan moves closer to me and I started making a step back, until I fell on the bed again. Riftan hovers above me and his hands were on the side of my face, "prove it to me then. Lose control", he said.

My cheeks were burning once again. But now I have a reason to be embarrassed. Riftan, the love of my life, was right in front of me. His body only millimetres away and with only one reach..I can touch it. His eyes fell on my neck and then slowly moved to my chest. This was the first time I'm seeing him like that.

I observed his face and he looked serious. At first I took it as a joke, or more of his teasing, but after I chuckled at him..he didn't move a muscle. He stood there like he was waiting for me to say, or do something.

"R-Riftan..I..", I began saying, but the words didn't want to come out. Seeing his face and his body like that makes me feel excited..in so many ways. I wanted to see how far he can go from now, and to be honest..I wanted him to reach the end. I wanted to feel him.

"Just admit your innocence and let's end it right here before it escalates", Riftan said and pinned my hands to the bed. My robe slide to the side, because of the sudden movement and it uncovered my breasts a little. I see his eyes following every move my body makes.

"What, if I don't..?", I asked him and I looked at his eyes with those pleading eyes. Riftan's face turns red a little bit and I knew right now I was the one in charge, even tho he doesn't realise it just yet.

"Fuck, Eleanor!", he cusses at me and lets go of my hands. Then he stood up from the bed leaving me on it and walks fast to the chair to grab is shirt, put it on and walked out of the bedroom immediately.

I was standing there just staring in silence, I didn't quite understand what happened, but I was sure I had to forget about it.

Riftan's pov:
I walk as fast as I can to run as far as I can from that room. If I stay a minute more with her, I'll do something that I might regret. I escape to the back yard, where there were mostly trees and I punch one of them as hard as I can.

My frustration and the heat in my body was too much to handle. My pants were so tight and I knew I had a blue balls now, because of her. I can't blame Eleanor for this, I'm the horny bastard who wished to have her.

"I can't wait for this trip to be over, so I can go back home and get my mind out of Eleanor", I said to myself hoping there was no one around to hear me, "how did I end up..falling for you, Eleanor? How did I end up..here?".

Eleanor would never see me as more than her Lord and someone, who's just her boss. She's always so formal with me, so sucked up, while she's joking around and having fun with the other knights and that damn Ruth.

One part of the reason why I brought her here is to create the same relationship with her, that she has with the other knights. I don't know why she's so reserved, when she's around me, but I wanna change that. And that letter..I was really hoping she's the one, who wrote it. But I guess there's no point..in searching anymore.

"Riftan, collect yourself for God's sake! She's your advisor and long time friend. She couldn't never write you a love letter", I continued to talk to myself like I was completely mental and I was walking around in circles, "Plus, you can't be with her. You're engaged, remember?".

Yeah, to a woman I don't love..Eleanor is the one, that I want. She has always been. I only agreed on marrying that rich Croix, because I could see Eleanor was not interested in me. I don't care about stopping the war, I only care about Anatol and her..my Eleanor.

UNEDITED