NOT LONG AFTER THE NEWS OF OUR LORD'S ENGAGEMENT WE FINALLY heard her majesty's name. It's Maximilian, or soon to be Maximilian Calypse. Honestly it's a beautiful name. I'm sure her majesty is a very beautiful woman herself. I mean Lord Riftan would never pick an unattractive woman.

Of course the idea of sir Riftan getting married to other woman makes my heart break and I can't hide it very well, but overall I'm very happy he finally found a woman, that might make him happy. If my Lord is happy, then I'm happy too. Or at least that's what i like to say.

Was I jealous? Yes, I was. Did I want to kill that woman and turn her into ashes? Maybe, but I would never do it. I only had two options in this scenario-get over it, or leave the castle and go on the streets again in order to avoid the noble lady for the rest of my life.

To get the idea of leaving the only home I got out of jealousy out of my head, I decided to take as much work as I can to avoid thinking about sir Riftan's future wife. And the only one, who knows how to keep me busy is Ruth, the magician of our castle.

Ruth can be an asshole most of the times, and he's pretty straightforward. He doesn't care, if there's a servant or a person from a higher rang, he'll still be very disrespectful. But this was just a small part of him. He can be much more than a rude magician.

Ruth is also very smart and caring. If it wasn't for him I would never learn how to read and write, or do basic math. I grew up on the streets and affording school was way out of my pocket. I had to think how to survive, school was my last priority. But thanks to Ruth I learned a lot of new things and I read many books about love, adventures and..knights.

Also, Ruth became one on my closest friends in the castle. I mean I was pretty close with everybody, but Ruth was like my brother. He knew everything about me. He was the first one to find out about my crush on sir Riftan. And he didn't though it was stupid. He told me that day, that we can't pick who we fall for, but we can choose, if we want to keep our feelings or move on, which makes a lot of sense.

He knows me so well, that's why when I offered him help with his work in the library Ruth immediately knew I was feeling down, because of the engagement news. He looked on me with that annoying face and chuckled at me, then he agreed on some help. He kept that face the whole time we were working and I felt like punching him in the face.

"Why are you grinning?", I finally looked at him, he was behind me looking for a book with earth spells. Ruth threw me a quick look and got back to his search.

"Because I find it so amusing, when you are all sad, because of Riftan", he explained to me and and finally pulled out the book he was searching for, "I knew you were serious about him, but I didn't think you'll take it this far".

"Ughhh, what should I do, Ruth?", I sat on the ground practically throwing myself on a bunch of books and I covered my face with my hands, "I can't get over him, I don't know why. Can't you do some magic tricks to stop my feelings?".

"Mmm...I'm afraid not, but I have a solution".

Ruth walks up to the desk in the centre of the library and pulls out a piece of paper, a feather and some ink. Then he looks at me and points at the seat next to him. I didn't know what he was thinking, but I followed his commands and sat on the chair. Ruth puts the paper in front of me and gave me the feather. I looked at him with visible confusion on my face.

"What's this for?", I asked him.

"Take it as a therapy session", Ruth began to explain and pointed at the paper, "I want you to write everything, that you're feeling towards his highness, I want you to tell him everything you want and how it makes you feel. Then I want you to put it in a envelope and give it to me. I'll burn it in a special fire. This will help you forget about Riftan Calypse".

"Are you sure this is going to work?".

"100%".

"Alright".

I looked down at the paper in front of me and took a deep breath. I felt like this was the only moment, that I can be honest. I want to tell him everything I feel. I wanted to tell him how he makes me fall only, when he looks at me, so I opened my eyes and started writing:

My dear Lord,

I'm sure you never expected a letter from a commoner and I'm sure you will not take it to heart, but let me be honest with you, sir.

I fell in love with you since the first time I saw your beautiful eyes. The day, that we met is a pretty big one for both you and me, but I'll not say more. You saved my life not only one time, but multiple by giving me everything, that I needed in life, which in thankful for.

The fact, that you made me part of you life is enough appreciation for me, but I have to be honest with you, or I might go crazy.

I heard, that you're already engaged, I'm so happy for you. But the truth is, that deep down I cannot accept her. I cannot accept her, because I am in love with you. I've been in love with you for the past couple of years, I've been in love with you every day and I'll probably be for the rest of my life.

I hope, that your future wife and the mother of your children will make you very happy. I can't wait to meet them one day and be able to serve for them, to watch over them. I don't expect you to write me back. I just want you to know, that there's someone loving you deeply.

I didn't sign the letter, because I knew Ruth was going to burn it. So I thought there was no point in signing it. I fold it into two and I put it inside the envelope, then Ruth pressed the print of our kingdom on top of it.

"I'll go and burn it now. Be right back", Ruth got it from my hands and put it between a couple of books he was caring. I smiled at him as he was leaving the library.

I sat back in the chair and I let my head rest for a little bit. I took a deep breath and I smiled at myself. Wow, Ruth was right. I really feel a little bit better. I might do it everyday. I stood up and was ready to go back to work, when suddenly the doors flew open and none other than Lord Riftan walks in the library.

I froze on the spot and as he was walking up to me I felt a drop of sweat going down from my forehead to my cheek. He looks at me with those scary looking eyes and I knew he was mad of something. Oh, my Lord..

"Eleanor, where have you been till now? Do you know how many times I tried to call for you?", sir Riftan stood in front of me and he puts his hands on his hips, "What are you doing here anyway? Does Ruth makes you do his work again?", he asked me.

"My lord..", I tried to calm him down.

"Seriously, you need to stop being so kind, the rest of the servants are using you", he didn't hear me at all and continued to talk fast.

"My lord, listen..".

"When he comes back I'll teach him a lesson, this bastard is slacking off again. I can't believe him! He has everything he wants, why does he keep bothering you?".

"RIFTAN!", I shouted his name and he finally shuts up, looks at me and calms down. I move to him and I put my hands on his gently, he puts his right hand on top of mine. This is what we do every time he's getting stressed, "Please, calm down, my Lord, everything is okay".

His eyes fell on my face and I could see a small smile appearing on his rough face. I put my other hand on his cheek and I let it stay there for awhile. Just to rest. When he was fully calm, I step back.

"You sure know how to calm a man down, Eleanor", his majesty chuckled a little and then put his arm on top of my head, "what would I've done without you, huh?", he asked.

"This kingdom would be on fire", I giggled.

"True", he chuckled again and then turn his back at me to walk away, "I want you to get the horses and the knight ready for tomorrow, we are going to Livadon", he explained.

When I heard that my heart almost dropped on the floor. Livadon is pretty far away from Anatol, they have around 10 days travelling with the horses. In this cold weather they might get in trouble. But..I don't dare to tell lord Riftan what he should do.