(Y/N POV)
"Stop, okay? Just listen to me for a minute." River just slowly nods in response. I open my mouth to speak but no words come out and I soon realize I'm slightly panicking on the inside. I take a deep breathe hoping it would calm my nerves that seem to sprout out of no where and luckily for me a deep breathe of fresh air was all I needed because it soothed my nerves instantly. I open my mouth to speak again but unlike last time words are actually able to form.

"River I like you, I really do but I don't know if a relationship right now is the best idea. With everything that's going on with my training and recently being cheated on, a relationship on top of that would be too much for me to handle. I think we should take things slow and see what happens, if you're okay with that." He clearly was okay with it because he had the biggest smile I've ever seen plastered onto his face as he says,

"I'll do whatever I have too to make you happy, but what's your definition of taking things slow because I want to make sure we're on the same page."

I pause for a few seconds taking this time to ponder his question. What do I consider "taking things slow?" "Taking things slow" to me is going on dates, getting to know each other better, pretty much being girlfriend and boyfriend without the labels. I explained that to River and learned that's also what he thought, we also agreed it would be okay for one of us to ask the other to be their girlfriend or boyfriend but not until a month or so, it has to be a good time for both of us. On the way back to Polis we chatted about how our lives were like before we ever met, I told him all about being locked up and my life on the ark, River revealed to me how when he was little both his parents died to Azgeda and how he's basically been on his own since. During our conversation I forgot all about Bellamy coming to Polis with us and it was pure bliss until I caught sight of the back of his head.

We were probably five minutes away from arriving when River and I fell into a silence, it wasn't awkward at all, it was just us enjoying each others company even though we weren't talking at the moment. I used this sparse amount to think, I know I used to have feeling for Lucas but right now I can't see to find them its like they evaporated into thin air. But my feelings for River were a different story they were only getting stronger and bigger, consuming every inch of my body. But the odd thing is deep down I know there will always be a tiny part of me who will still feel something for Bellamy no matter how much I hate him and that pisses me off to no extent. I hate him with every bone in my body but that small part of me still doesn't seem to fade. Eventually Polis comes into view causing everyone from the group to split and go their different way except for Lexa, Bellamy, River, and I. "So are you ever going to tell me who the dipshit that cheated on you is?" River asks breaking the silence as we walk into the tower, luckily Lexa and Bellamy were so far ahead of us they didn't hear. I don't need Bellamy getting anymore curious about me and figuring out who I am just yet.

"Nope because I know you would make it your soul purpose to kill him, although I wouldn't mind him spontaneously dying. But still no." I answer while interlocking my hand with Rivers, to say that made him overjoyed would be considered an understatement. The smile that laced his face could easily light up any room he would enter, the blush splattered on his cheeks could be mistaken for smudged bright red paint, and not to mention the way he protectively gripped onto my hand showed how he would move time and space to insure I was safe and happy. We both were so consumed in our own little world we didn't take notice that Bellamy and Lexa turned around and were now making their way directly for us. It's a good thing I never took my hood off because when I finally snapped back into reality they were already standing in front of River and I, leaving me no time to put up my hood if it were to be down.

"River, Bellamy will be staying with you in your room. I don't trust him and don't want him having his own room, plus you'll be able to keep a constant eye on him without making it look suspicious. He will think all the other rooms are taken up and bunking with you is the only option available, am I clear?" Lexa asks directly the question to both of us, we just nod our heads "yes" as a reply. Even though I nodded I still wasn't on board with this idea, one reason being Bellamy my cheating ex-boyfriend and River my current love interest sharing a room for a couple days could only end up badly. There's a possibly Bellamy might start ranting or something and cause River to figure out Bellamy's the cheating bastard, resulting in what I can only imagine a blood bath to form. Theres many other dreadful possibilities but that one is most definitely the worst considering the tiny part of me that still manages to hold onto Bellamy wouldn't be to happy about him dropping dead, we also need him so we can make a deal with the sky people. Bellamy dying wouldn't benefit anyone.

"River show him to your room." Lexa instructs before spinning around on her heels and strutting off. I don't see a point in staying any longer since River has things to do so I decide to leave and go to my room but before I'm able to do so River lightly grabs my wrist indicating for me to stop.

"Can we do something tomorrow?" River asks with his puppy dog eyes practically begging me.

"Of course, we'll meet up at breakfast and figure out something to do." I answer while placing a light kiss on his cheek just before jogging off, not having to stay to see his reaction since I already can guess. He's probably frozen in place accompanied by his hand brushing over the spot where I kissed him all while grinning like a mad man. Just before I go to turn the corner I take a quick glance back at River just to be met with him behaving exactly how I predicted. When I arrive to my room I don't even bother with a shower considering it can wait till tomorrow morning , all I'm worried about at the moment it getting this stupid ass cloak off and going to bed. Snuggling into bed I start to ponder about what River and I could do tomorrow, I eventually drift off to sleep without the slightest idea for our "date."

Waking up is usually the hardest part of my day but for some odd reason I got up without the tiniest bit of drowsiness today. Before leaving to get breakfast I took a quick shower, got dressed, and made my h/c hair look presentable. I put a little bit more effort in my appearance then I usually but soon realize it was kinda pointless since I have to wear a cloak that covers pretty much my whole body and a hood that makes my face not visible. (Thats the cloak but act like it's black instead of dark green.)

I throw up my hood as I walk out my door incase I have an accidental run in with Bellamy and head in the direction of breakfast. When I got there it was still pretty early in the morning so not to many people were up yet, I find my way to my table with my food only to see neither Lexa or River are there yet instead Lucas is.

"Where did you go yesterday? I didn't see you at all after we left for the meeting." I ask him as I take the empty seat next to him.

Lucas glances up at me as he stops shoving food into his mouth and answers, "Last minute changes, Lexa wanted me to stay back instead." He then goes back to stuffing his face with food, as I begin tossing berries into my mouth one by one. By the time I'm done eating the dining hall has filled up with people but none of them being River or even Bellamy for that matter, I start to worry that this is Rivers way of telling me he's no longer interested.

"Y/n, training begins in 10 minutes, you should go warm up." Training had totally slipped my mind until Lexa brought it up. I nod knowing training is not up for negotiation with her.

I quickly clean up my leftover food and advance to to doors leaving the dining hall. Just as I'm about to pass through a tall figure collides into me so hard I could have mistaken them for a brick wall, this results in me getting knocked down onto my ass.

"What the fuck dude. Watch where you're going." I sharply say while heaving myself up, not even caring enough to look at the culprit who made me fall.

"Oh shit I'm so sorry." A way to familiar voice says.

"Oh fuck." I whisper to myself as I instantly remember who that voice belongs to. I take a peek at him praying to whatever gods are out there that I'm wrong but to my dismay I'm unfortunately right, It's the one and only person that I know feels like a brick wall when you collide into him.

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