~yeona~

i was feeling more and more miserable everyday, i finally gathered up the courage to officially quit the dance company but instead of feeling happy i feel worse, and not because of the dancing but because of how everyone reacted. they didn't fail in making me feel the worst i've ever felt.

my teacher also decided to contact my parents to tell them the big sin i had committed, they shouted at me for hours, telling me they were going to cut me off, that i was their biggest disappointment. all the things they said were true, i am nothing.

i feel tired, tired of everything.

the only good thing in my life is heeseung, but i know that it won't last long. nothing does. the worst thing is that i think i have feelings for him, i don't want to hurt him. i should keep my distance but i can't, every time i try it seems like the universe tries everything in its power to bring us back together. i really don't deserve someone as amazing as him. he should be with someone happy, someone cheerful who can make him smile even in the worst times, not some depressed pathetic little girl like me.

i really don't want to hurt him, but sometimes we can't help but to hurt the people we love.