"Are you okay?" I asked Hyunsuk. He only kept his eyes on Junkyu as his face was filled with shock. Junkyu looked at my side and I shook my head.

"I-I am fine.....the glass just slipped from my hand." Hyunsuk said as he forced a smile. Junkyu smiled as he sat down next to me. "Then be careful next time."

"Since everyone is here, how about we order now?" I asked. I looked at Hyunsuk's side as he was cutting his fingers by his nails. "Hey?" I called and he replied with a short 'Huh?'

"Are you sure you are feeling okay?" I asked. I never thought that Hyunsuk would even slightly feel jealous, nor did I except him to be shocked. Is he related to Junkyu or what?

"I will have your same order." Hyunsuk said. "Then....what will you choose?" I asked Junkyu. "I would like to try some of these cakes here....." Junkyu replied. I turned to look at Hyunsuk, his eyes were glaring at me as he bit his lips. I only smiled. Even if he was shocked, a part of the plan was going on.

We called the servant to make our order as he also cleaned the broken glass and gave us new drinks. I held my glass as I talked with Junkyu then asked Hyunsuk sudden questions to force him join the conversation, I am not letting him escape.

"Hey, how do you two know each other?" Junkyu asked. I looked in Hyunsuk's direction. For once he acted normal as he took a sip and smiled. "We are just classmates." He said. "But we did encounter various missions together. Remember when we slept together at your room?" I asked loudly and Hyunsuk chocked. "Oh wow.......you two are closer than what I thought....." Junkyu forced a laugh. "How about the two of you, how did you meet?" Hyunsuk asked with a grin on his face. He wants to turn the tables around then? I am not letting him.......

"We met through a mutual friend." Junkyu said. Hyunsuk smiled slyly as he looked at me. "I see then......the two of you don't know each other well." Hyunsuk said. He suddenly got up and looked at the both of us. "Excuse me for a while, I need to go to the bathroom." He said and left.

I held my phone and opened it pretending to read some message. I then turned it off and looked at Junkyu. "I have to make a quick call, I will be back soon." I said. I quickly got up and walked away searching for Hyunsuk everywhere.

A hand suddenly pulled me to the corner and covered my mouth as I was now inside an old storage room. I turned around and saw Hyunsuk signaling me to shut up. "What are you doing!" I whispered. "Shhhhhhh! Look there!" He pointed at the small window showing a part of the café.

There was a man wearing all black looking around. He then cursed as he left. I opened my mouth widely as I glanced at Hyunsuk. "Was it....."

"Yeah, Mr. Choi is chasing after us." Hyunsuk said. "He probably wants revenge...."

"That's not the deal now! You sure like to insult and expose people like that? When were you going to say the truth?!" Hyunsuk asked furiously. "Truth? What do you mean??" I asked. "Don't play dumb, Y/N!" Hyunsuk cried loudly as he stepped toward me and I stepped back. I hit my back with the wall and he pinned me against it as he glared at me. "Hyunsuk!" I shouted as I glared at him. He smiled as he examined my face carefully.

"Based on your reaction....you know nothing." He said. He removed his hand and silently turned around. He was about to leave when I held his hand. "What was it that you just mentioned??" I asked. "It's none of your business." Hyunsuk said. "What do you mean by it's none of my business??? You just accused me of something that I don't know now!" I argued.

He sighed as he pulled my hand away. "Why? Why do you keep on bothering me all the time? You can never leave me at peace or remain silent?? Why do you keep on getting on my way, WHY?" Hyunsuk shouted. "Because I want your attention."

I am stupid. VERY STUPID.

Hyunsuk remained silent and only left. I sighed as I bent down and covered my face. "Way to go Y/N.....here you go Y/N...."

What Seungjoo said was right, I should have stopped before I fell hard, now it feels hopeless to step back. The same way Hyunjin broke my heart...Petite girl broke my heart.....Hyunsuk broke my heart...............

"Can't you stop being too damn annoying?" Hyunjin cried loudly as he threw the medal on the ground. "Can't you see I am far off better without you??" Hyunsuk shouted. "B-But.....you will be gone for a year....I thought this will help you to remember me...." I said as I looked at the ground.

"When will you get it, Park Y/N?? I don't love you! I will never love you and I will never see you as a woman!" Hyunjin shouted loudly. He got closer to me and I felt his warm breaths on my neck. "All you do is hide behind your father and brother backs.....you never do anything to help yourself. That's the loser you are Y/N." Hyunjin said. He sighed as he looked at the engagement ring on his finger. "If it wasn't for your dad's relationship with my father, none of this would have happened." Hyunjin said.

Tears formed in my eyes as I lowered my head. Hyunjin only chuckled as he left. I fell on my knees and grabbed the broken medal as I cried. All what I do is hopeless....no matter how hard I try, I can never win Hyunjin's heart.

I got up and wiped my tears as I ran away. ...Embarrassing ..........everyone saw how Hyunjin treated me. I placed my hand on the Sakura tree as I covered my mouth and cried silently. Is this what a heartbreak means? It sure hurts a lot....it feels like shit.....

"U-Unni?"

I turned around to see petite girl standing in shock.

"L-LEAVE NOW!! I am okay...." I cried. I failed as my voice cracked and now I cried loudly. I felt two pairs of hands warp around me as petite girl placed her head on my shoulder. "If unni cries....then the sky will be sad....."

"A-Aria......" I cried as I hugged her and she hugged me strongly. "Unni.....cry as much as you want." Aria said. "Can you sing me your lullaby?" I asked. She nodded her head and closed her eyes as she started humming. I lied my head on her shoulder as I closed my eyes.

My heart beats quickening and beating as I was beside her. Her voice giving peace to my mind.....

"Is unni feeling fine now?" Petite girl asked. "Yeah...that's because you helped me a lot." I said as I pated her head. She smiled at me and that sat butterflies in my stomach. I quickly got up and cleared my throat.

"Unni....what will you......well......" Aria hesitated.

"From this day on, I will never give a shit about fucking Hyunjin again! I can never forgive that scumbag for what he did!" I shouted loudly as I threw my ring on the ground. It rolled down and got lost between the petals of the Sakura.

"U-Unni!" Aria was shocked and I smiled at her. "Don't worry......You said you wanted me to meet your family, right?" I said. "U-Unni remembers!" She said in shock. "Yeah....so let's go and meet your father now." I said as I held Aria's hand and started running.

I held my hand as a tear slid down my face. I miss her so fucking a lot.

Late at night;

I sighed as I went out, it was 9 PM and Hyunjin asked me to meet him somewhere outside. I walked along the street until I reached a dead end where there was a stair leading to bench and some streets. A place where you can view Seoul city from.

"You are late." Hyunjin said as he saw me walking toward him. "What is it? I have other plans with my friends." I said. Hyunjin remained silent as he only stared at me. "What?" I shot a glare at his side.

"Is it fun to hang out with many guys to make me jealous? Or are you just doing it on purpose to pay back what I did to you in the past?" Hyunjin asked. "What?"

Hyunjin quickly walked toward me as he held my hand. "Quickly answer me!" He cried loudly. "What are you doing?? Let go of my hand this instant!" I said angrily. "Y/N......It hurts...." Hyunjin said in a shaky voice. My eyes widened as I looked at Hyunjin's face.

Tears gathered in his eyes as his lips trembled. "A-Are you crying?" I asked in shock. "Y-Y/N......I am sorry....I didn't know being this mean hurt your feelings....I am really sorry! I promise I will be better! I will love you more than ever so please....stay with me....." Hyunjin said. I was speechless. What was this guy saying? Is he serious??

I gently removed Hyunjin's hand as I glanced at him. "If this is all what you got to say, then I am leaving." I said. "Y/N!" Hyunjin called as he held my hand again. "Won't you give me another chance please??" He pleaded.

"You already wasted your chance! There is no other chance. Hwang Hyunjin! Do you how heart broken was I that day because of you? I don't want to go through that ever again, and I don't want to love you. Never again!" I said.

"Y-Y/N...."

"Have a happy new year." I said. I turned around and walked away. What the hell was wrong with this boy??

I checked my phone to see a couple of messages from Jennie. We were supposed to meet up in Kai's house to celebrate new year since some of her friends are coming too. Reaching there would take at least an hour.

I stopped a taxi and quickly got inside of it. I sighed as I sat down and looked outside the window. Snow was falling everywhere as people were out at the street celebrating together. Who believes it is already the end of the year?

My phone sent a notification and I checked it out to see a message from Hyunsuk. I sighed as I looked at it but ended up checking it out.

'Who was the person who introduced you to Kim Junkyu?'

Is this all what is on his mind? Right after those fucking words??

'Why do you care?'

I rolled my eyes but in fact I was waiting for him to reply.

'Just tell me quickly!'

I sighed in defeat as my fingers slowly typed on the phone.

'A female friend of mine and one of the SM family members lover.'

'Can I know her name?'

What does he have to do with Jennie anyways? I sighed as I typed her name.

'Kim Jennie.'

Seen, but no reply. What a scumbag.

I got off the taxi and walked toward the huge house at the end of the street. So here is where another member of the SM family is living.

I entered inside and saw many different people. Normal people and mafia members. Some of them looked familiar as I saw them in other mafia gatherings from before. There is Ryujin, Irene, Karina.....many other people.

"Let me check your card." A guard said as he stopped me. "But I was just invited?" I said. "Wait! She is with me, you don't need to check up on her." I smiled as I saw Jennie. The guard bowed and moved aside and I walked toward her as I gave her a hug.

"Damn girl...." I said. Jennie smiled but her smile dropped as she saw me. "You look....tired and sad." She said. "Well, don't worry! I had a mission before I came her. If I have few drinks, then I will be fine." I said. "Then let's go!" Jennie held my hand and started pulling me away with her.

"By the way, you met Junkyu, right?" Jennie said. "Ah yes......he is handsome." I said. "You have to forget about that scumbag and get yourself a fine man. Did you know that he belongs to the big three?" She said. "Big three?" Wait....so Junkyu is a part of the three big mafia gangs?? Is that why Hyunsuk was shocked when he saw him?

"That's cool." I said. The two of us entered a huge room where there were other people thrown on the ground already drunk. Jennie walked toward three girl and they waved at me.

"Y/N, meet my bandmates. Together with them we will form a new gang sub-unit." Jennie said. "Really? Then you are becoming a big family member!" I said. "Yeah, but not for SM." She said. Then YG?

"This is Lisa, Rosé and Jisoo." Jennie said. I smiled at the girls as I introduced myself. We then sat down having some drinks as we talked and laughed.

"So....you are the fiancée of the JYP heir?" Lisa said drunkly as she warped her hand around my neck. "N-No....we broke up almost two years ago!" I said as I grabbed a bottle and drank it. "T-Then....cheers to our single sister!" Jisoo said loudly as she raised her cup.

I laughed as I raised my cup too. It was few moments until everyone collapsed and went to sleep on the ground as Jennie just went somewhere with her boyfriend.

I yawned as my vision was a bit blurry and I was very drunk. My phone rang and I saw Seungjoo's name on the screen. I walked outside the room and walked toward a balcony. I called Seungjoo again. "Y/N?" His voice was filled with worry.

"Hm...." I replied. "Are you drunk?" He asked. "No....I am fine." I said. Well, I started to get a bit sober now. "Where are you?" He asked. "At a party." I said. "Did you go alone?"

I remained silent. "Y/N! What if you get hurt! You know you can't go alone!" Seungjoo scolded me and I only chuckled. "You know nothing bad will happen." I said. "I am not sure about this......" Seungjoo sighed.

"Why did you call me anyways?" I asked. "Oh...I thought I had to tell you this. I know that you have lost your father and brother and now you are all alone.....running a mafia as a teenage girl is so hard." Seungjoo said. "So what are you throwing for?" I asked. "Me and Duri and you have been friends for a very long time.....we will help you out. There is Hyunjin too....."

"Please don't mention him..." I pleaded. "Y/N, we are graduating high school soon." Seungjoo said. "I know, and what about it?" I asked. "Currently....you are unstable. How about you clear your mind and take some rest for few years?" Seungjoo asked. "What do you mean?"

"In the crime world, you are a mafia member. In the everyday life, you are the next CEO for a small trading company. You need to study business. Study it in the US for four years. During that time, me and Duri will manage your gang until you come back." Seungjoo said.

"I refuse your offer. I don't want to do it." I said. "Y/N! Please wait! Before you reject my offer....think about it and talk to me later, okay? Make sure you go back home  and have fun." Seungjoo said.

He ended the call and I sighed as I returned the phone back to my small bag and walked downstairs. My mind was occupied by a lot of stuff and I needed to clear it out. I decided to go out for a walk in the huge garden Kai owned, and for my luck no one was there.

This day reminds me of the day I met petite girl and all the events we went through.......

"A-Aria...." I sighed as I followed her. "Here we are!" She said happily as she pointed at the house. Her house was on top of the hill where we had to climb many stairs.

I forced my legs to walk as I followed her and entered inside.

"WHO THE FUCK IS IT??" The old man cried. "I-It's me....d-dad...." Aria said in a quite voice. "Aria?" He got up and walked toward us but stopped when he saw me. "Who is this?" He asked. He was a short chubby man that looked jobless. He was drunk as in his hand was a bottle of beer.

"M-My friend! I told you I am not delusional!" Aria said. The man laughed. "It must be the drinks effect...." He said. "No, I am real. And I am your daughters friend." I said. Aria smiled as she looked at me. "Why would someone like you befriend my daughter? Pity? You must really feel bad for her. She is good for nothing and so no one. NO ONE, loves her." The man said. He laughed as he left. Just what the hell was his problem??

I looked at Aria. Tears were in her eyes. "U-Unni....sorry to bother you..." Aria apologized. "What are you talking about? It's okay....don't listen to what he said, it's not true." I said. "S-Sorry..." Aria cried and ran outside. "Shit..." I quickly started running after her. "Aria, WAIT!" I called.

Although she had short legs, she was still so fast wtf!! She ran toward a park and I entered it as I chased after her. My heart was breaking into pieces as I remembered the harsh words her fucking father said. Why was I angry too?

I stopped as Arai stopped to take in some air. She panted heavily and I walked toward her as I placed my hand on her shoulder. "A-Aria....."

"U-Unni.....what dad said was true.....I am ...useless.....I shouldn't dare to talk to you...." Aria cried. "Aria.....look into my eyes." I said. Petite girl rose her head and I smiled at her. "You might not know it but....you are a precious person to me so don't you ever think that you are a burden to me....I love you." I said as I patted on her head.

"U-Unni...." She cried as she hugged me. "I love unni too! I love her so much! But......she doesn't love me the same way I do....." Petite girl said. "What do y-"

I was cut off as Aria's lips were connected on my lips. My eyes widened as she parted. "I am sorry.....but that's the way I love unni......but I know unni isn't like this....so....."

I held her hand and pulled her closer to me as I kissed her back.

"Aria.....I love you back."

I smiled as the memories ran through my mind. I can still feel the warmth of her lips every time she used to kiss me. I sighed as I continued walking until I reached a gate that lead to another small garden.

I walked there as I admired all the flowers around assigned in color patterns. As I reached the end, I saw two people there. I gasped as I saw Hyunsuk and hid behind one of the bushes.

"This will be the last." Nayeon said. "N-Noona...." Hyunsuk sighed. "Fine." He added.

What the hell are they doing??? The both closed their eyes as they leaned closer to each other and their lips touched.

I couldn't control the tears streaming down my face. I quickly ran outside and held to one of the chairs. The fucking pain I felt around my chest was no joke......it is happening again for the third time.

I can't stand it. I can't help it. It hurts way too much.......

I took out my phone and dialed Seungjoo's phone number.

"H-Hey.....I thought about it and...I will do it....."

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"Hey!!!" I sighed as I tried to run as fast as possible to keep up with him. "Look who is too slow to do anything....Are you sure you are even a match to me??"

"Yah! Park Jihoon!! Just because you are soon to be a mafia leader doesn't give you the right to treat me like this!" I sighed. "Well....you have to live with it, Hyunsuk." Jihoon said as he walked toward the sakura tree and sat down there with his back against the tree. I walked toward him but stopped when I saw something shiny from the distance.

"What is that?" I wondered as I bent down and picked up the shiny metal. It was a golden ring with a diamond, shit! Where the fuck did it come from??!

"Can you show me?" Jihoon asked. I handed it to him and he examined it then his mouth opened a little. "Well....."

"It belongs to my little sister." Jihoon said. "Why would your little sister throw something as precious as this? Are you rich af or what?" I asked. "Well you see.....this is her engagement ring.....she probably had another argument with her Hyunjin." Jihoon said. "Is he her fiancée?" I asked and Jihoon nodded his head. "He is such a scumbag so he probably broke her heart into pieces. I have to check up on her." Jihoon said. "Then beat up that jerk too." I said. "I will....oh....if in chance they break up....want me to introduce you to my sister? She is really beautiful..." Jihoon said. "N-No....you know who I already like!" I blushed and Jihoon laughed.

"Then I will get going now." Jihoon said. He ran away and waved at me. "Take care!" I said loudly. "You too, Hyunsuk."

I wish I hadn't let him go that day. If I stopped him, or remained to his side.......

He wouldn't be dead now.

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