We got to the restaurant and got seated.

"I'm going to the washroom." I said and stood up. The boys nodded and I left to the washroom.

When the door closed to the washroom I burst out crying. He doesn't recognise me.

Of course he wouldn't recognise you! He doesn't know you!

The voice in my head screamed.

"Shut up shut up shut up!" I whisper screamed.

Why should I you're just a failure, your parents didn't want you, the Foster home didn't want you, Andy will never accept you.

"Shut up." I held my hands to my head and slid down to the ground. I slid my bag off my back and opened it in a hurry. I pulled out my schizophrenia pills and took one. I swallowed the pill with a a handful of water from the tap.

The pill made me numb and the voice disappeared from my head. I looked in the mirror and sighed. My eyes were red and puffy from crying. I grabbed eyeliner, concealer and contacts from my bag. I put the concealer around my eyes to take the redness away from my eyes, then I put the the icy blue contacts in to cover the rest of the redness in my eyes, then finally I put the eyeliner around my eyes. When I finally looked like myself again I put everything back in my bag and walked slowly back to the table.

I sat in the seat next to Tony and put my bag on the ground under the table.

"You okay Nemo?" Tony asked me quietly. I nodded in response and looked around. "I ordered your regular." Tony told me.

"Thanks Flounder."I whispered.

"What did you call him?" Dahvie asked.

"Flounder." I said and smiled.

"What did you call her?" Dahvie asked Tony.

"Nemo." Tony told him

"You call each other fish names from movies?" Ashley asked. Tony and I looked at each other and smiled.

"The Little Mermaid is his favorite movie." I explained.

"Finding Nemo is her favorite movie." Tony explained.

"Ohhhh." All the boys who didn't know the explanation of our nicknames said.

"Ya they're weird like that." Dryden said

Andy got a call on his phone and answered it, he put it on speaker when he realized it was Austin our tour manager.

"OK guys." Austin started. "Apparently we didn't get enough buses."

"How many did we get?" Jacky asked.

"3." Austin answered. "Two bands will have to share. I'm thinking since Blood On The Dance Floor only has 2 people they can share with one of the bigger bands."

"BOTDF is sharing with Forget The Past." Ryan said quickly.

"Why us?" I asked. "It's not like I don't like you to but I don't want to live with 6 boys on a small cramped tour bus for 8 months."

"It's settled BOTDF will share with FTP." Austin said and hung up before we could say another word.

"Stupid fucking tour manager never fucking listens, acts like I don't fucking exist, I hate his stupid fucking slutty ass." I muttered and dug my nails into my wrist to keep from calling Austin back and screaming at him.

"As you probably tell Snow doesn't like Austin very much." Beck said while laughing at my insults towards Austin.

"How could I like Austin. He thinks all women are only good for 3 things. Cooking, Cleaning and Sex." I muttered.

"Women are only good for that." I heard Ashley mutter. I looked up at him and gave him my best death glare. He gulped and moved closer to Andy.

"I'm not gonna protect you man, you brought this one yourself." Andy pushed Ashley back up and backed away.

"And apparently men are good for everything else. Hunting, working, driving, and everything else. But women do the cleaning, the cooking and have to satisfy the men's needs whenever the men want." I wiped my eyes with my hands and leaned back. "I hate men." With that I stormed out the restaurant and sat on the curb.