"to me, 
you're my everything"

-eclipse

minha's memories

"i'm sorry you always have to endure so much shit because of me," hyunsuk rubbed my hand.

i forced out a smile, "it's fine." it wasn't... my legs always had bruises, i would never dare to be alone in school and i could no longer focus in class. 

"this is going to be over soon yea," he placed a kiss on my forehead. it wouldn't, it would get worse the moment he debuted. 

"what about we take a break for a while?"

"what... what do you mean a break?"

i said softly, "let's just stay away from each other for a while? then maybe all this will start to subside." as much as i wanted to make our relationship known to everyone, and i wanted hyunsuk to fight for me, and i wanted us to be a normal couple, i knew all this wouldn't happen, for the fact that it would ruin his reputation and hence his chances to debut. 

"are you sure about this?"

"yes, let's just do that."

"is one month enough for you?" he started to tear up.

"let's see then."

-

"oi, why didn't you wait for me to go home," byunggon shouted as he ran to my side. 

"i thought you had training, so i just went home," i said as fast as possible and quickened my steps.

"hey, what's wrong?"

"i think we should walk separately..."

"you've been weird lately, is everything okay?"

i just stayed silent.

-

we all stared at the screen nervously as they were announcing the final lineup for mixnine one by one. the 4th place had already been announced and it was the 5th place now, i prayed so hard for him to get in but the announcer kept dragging it and delaying the announcement. and finally, when they announced 'choi hyunsuk' all of us stood up and cheered.

"that's my hyung," yedam pointed at the screen.

"no no no, that's the future of yg," woong smiled. 

"we still have byunggon, let's wait for him to be announced," seunghun said.

we then waited for his name to be called. he was not the 6th, not the 7th and not the 8th. it was the last spot now, please please please, i squeezed onto the soft toy i was holding. 

"lee byunggon" they announced. holy shit, this was happening. they are debuting, they are debuting!!! i watched the screen as hyunsuk ran from his position into byunggon arms, it was the two people i loved the most together. 

"they really have made us proud," noa fake teared.

"one day, we will be with them as well," seunghun smiled.

-

"bitch, you better stay away from hyunsuk," one of them kicked me.

"shut the fuck up. his name shouldn't come out from your mouth," i glared at them.

another scoffed, "what the hell did you do? he's debuting already yet he is so down these few days."

i just stayed silent.

"what? are you guilty?" she kicked me again. they just kept ganging up against me.

"slut, stop getting so close to them."

"don't put our hyunsuk in such a bad light."

"you don't deserve him."

-

minha pov

a month has passed since i had started avoiding hyunsuk and the handover was coming in a week. i would be hyunsuk's secretary alongside jaehyuk once mr hyunsik leaves the company, this meant that i had to regain my memories as soon as possible. i have been getting back pieces of my memories either in my dreams or triggered by familiar items. i found out that i dated hyunsuk and i knew all the silver boys. then why did they pretend not to know me at all. why did i just find out byunggon was supposed to debut? 

i regained some of my memories but i still did not know what caused hyunsuk to treat me like this now. i know we had a lot of problems in our relationship but i did not know what changed so much. and i did not know why i lost all my memories in the first place. 

i wanted to go back to my high school to see if there was anything that could trigger my memory, but i should only do that once hyunsuk had settled down being the ceo. right now, i could only focus on the handover procedures. 

-

the next day was the official handover. for the last month, everyday was the same, i woke up at 6am, prepared breakfast and left for work at 7am. i went back home around 3am and either slept or stayed up. when i stayed up, it was usually because i was scared to regaining more memories. 

by now, i had already remembered almost everything and i am able to piece all of them into pieces before i start asking byunggon about it. it was very hard for me to restrain myself from running into hyunsuk's arms and asking him all about it, because i was afraid of the truth from him. i wanted to find it out myself. 

tomorrow was the day he was becoming the head of the company and i wanted to do what a wife would do. 

-

"suk ah, wake up," i combed through his hair. 

he snuggled into the blanket and turned away, "no..."

"let's eat breakfast already, my love," i gave him a peck on his cheek. i really love him, and i realised how much memories we had together and right now, i just wanted us to be together.

with the realisation that i was waking him up, he turned back and slowly opened his eyes, "why is my princess still here? you didn't leave for work?"

"today is the day, let's go already," i tried pulling him up.

he gave me a sloppy kiss and headed to the bathroom to wash up. it did not take him long to come over to the dining table, "wow, it's all my favourites. you even remember this now?"

"yeah, eat up," i scooped up some of the japchae and placed it on his plate. 

"it's good," he chewed and took some of the egg rolls and scooped up the rice cake soup, "you should eat too."

he then fed me a piece of egg roll, "it's good as always."

he then looked at me, "anyways, the handover is today. can we eat out together? you asked me to wait till the handover."

"sure," i replied and we continued with our meal.

once we were done with the meal, i helped him wear his suit and tied on the tie for him, "good luck."

"i already know i can do this," he chuckled.

"of course, you are choi hyunsuk," i grabbed the gel to start gelling his hair.

as i combed back his hair to have a slick back, he said, "you know, you would always do this for me back then."

"i remember, i still miss your green hair the most."

"that colour was so loud though,' he laughed.

"that was what you were, i missed it alot," i continued combing his hair.

-

as we all saw hyunsuk succeeding mr hyunsik, everyone put their hands together to congratulate hyunsuk. 

"wow, being in charge of a big company at such a young age?" seunghun put his arm around hyunsuk.

with his eyes wide open, "oh my god, why are you here?" hyunsuk then gave seunghun a hug.

"we all are," byunggon walked in with the whole group of silver boys. i started to tell byunggon that i remembered what happened in the past was going to confront hyunsuk about it soon.

midam then spoke up, "our sister-in-law invited us here."

hyunsuk then walked to my side and gave me a peck on my forehead, "thank you princess."

"eww... don't do this in front of me," byunggon separated us.

"you finally succeeded the company yea," woong pat hyunsuk head.

"yea, you're so capable, i wonder when i'll be able to achieve something i want as well," junkyu said. after their unsuccessful debut, junkyu became an actor and has been starring in many hit dramas, but he was always the second lead. no matter how much his fans wanted him to be the main lead, no director has ever heard their voices.

hyunsuk sighed, "i may be the ceo in name but many of them are trying to bring me down. i still need to work hard to prove my worth."

"don't worry, you have minha and me beside to help you, even though i think i'm not needed," raesung joked. being like this, reminded me of the olden days, where we would joke around and always talk about what they would be like once they debuted.

"let's just go eat first, we can talk at the same time," seunghun dragged woong and midam by the arm.

hyunsuk pouted and whispered, "i thought it would just be the both of us."

"come on, we see each other everyday, let's spend this day with them," i intertwined our fingers together.

byunggon shouted for everyone to hear, "what do yall want to eat?"

"HAMBURGER," they all shouted back and laughed after.

-

hyunsuk pov

during dinner, i suddenly realised minha was no longer around. at first i thought she went to the toilet or maybe needed some fresh air, but she did not come back for long.

"hey, have you seen minha?" i asked around but half of them were drunk like a skunk. i poked jihoon's forehead, "have you seen minha?"

"haha... minha? she's my childhood friend and i really liked her. but hyunsuk stole her away from me hahahhaha," he continued rambling on. stupid jihoon, i just pressed his head back down.

"doyoung ah, have you seen minha?"

he pointed to the door, "she left far far away, very far. she carried her bag," and then continued resting his head on yedam's head. where did she go though, this late at night?

i tried finding someone who was sober, and byunggon was walking back from the toilet. ah, the most trustable brother.

"minha disappeared, do you know where she went?"

"i'm not sure, but i know she has been wanting to go back to the old high school for quite a while."

"huh? for what?"

he shrugged his shoulders, "i can help you find her as well."

i looked around and saw 6 sleeping boys, 2 drunks getting into a childish fight about whose hair was nicer, 1 staring into blank space and the sober byunggon. 

"it's fine, i think you need to take care of them first, especially them if they get into a cat fight," i eyed raesung and woong, "my house is the nearest, just let them stay there."

byunggon just nodded his head, "got it, let me know once you found my sis."

"aight, i'll go first," i grabbed my bag and ran towards the car.

a/n: please rmb to vote... yes i freaking love hyunsuk in green hair uwu he really looks so so good in it!! i'm actually waiting for him to be in red hair too... 

also my chapters are getting slightly longer compared to when i first started... i hope it's okay! it's d-3 to the debut too!!