Did you ever regret agreeing to something so much you wish you could go back and change your decision?

Well that's EXACTLY how I feel right now.

This can't be happening. This ISN'T happening! Is this some kind of sick joke? I'm making a complaint.

Taehyung: Oh! Mark! Yayyy!

Mark smiled at Taehyung. "Excuse me.."

I moved out of the way and let him through.

He didn't even say hi to me.

Keep your cool Kat. You're surrounded by cameras.

Mark: Oh wow! I'm not very well.. known around you guys. Hi. I'm Mark from GOT7

Lay: A pleasure to you.

Boram: Hey~

Tiffany: Come here! (Hugs)

Bitch.?

You KNOW what happened between him and me but this is how you act?

GD: Hello Mark.

...

Mark: Hi..

The awkward tension, I hate this awkward tension!

Taehyung: Well! Now that we're all here, I'd like to introduce myself. (Bows) hello my name's Taehyung, Kim Taehyung, aka V from BTS.

Boram: Oh you're such a cutie~

Taehyung: *blushes*

Lay: Ahem. Well hello everyone, I'm Lay from EXO.

The hot sexy group.

Tiffany: I'm from Girls Generation, Tiffany.. heh.

GD: Well you guys know who I am.

*rolls eyes*

They all looked at me.

??

"What?"

Taehyung: Aren't ya gonna introduce yourself?

Oh right.

"Hey..I'm..Kat..only solo artist here..."

I really am.

Boram: I love your music.

I smiled. "Thanks.."

Lay: My boys and I think you're really pretty ^-^

I blushed.

Taehyung: Hobie hyung and I know all your dances.

I giggled.

They all waited for Mark to say something.

Mark: .....

Mark didn't even look at me, he scrolled through his phone. It's like I'm not here.

GD: Mark.

Mark: hhm?

Tiffany: Don't you have anything to say?

Mark: No?

He got up and went to the kitchen.

Fucking dick.

I hate you.

Boram: Well hello! I'm Boram, from T-ara.

We all kindly greeted her.

I know I'm not the only one that feels awkward. I apologize to everyone t-t

Taehyung: Now that we're all here..let's celebrate ^-^

Boram: That's a great idea.

GD: Ok. And what may you have in mind?

Taehyung: hmm..a barbeque? Or.. like.. a welcoming dinner.. molla.

Tiffany: You're so adorable. I'm in!

Fake.

Soo fake.

I hate it here already.

Without a word I went to my room to make a call while they discussed.

"Hello?"

"Johnny..hey.."

"Oh hey..is everything..ok?"

"No."

"Aigoo..Kat."

"Johnny I can't do this."

"But you just got there."

"Mark is here."

....

"Mark?"

"Mhm. He's here and he's acting like I'm invisible."

"Shouldn't you have expected that?"

-_-

"What are you saying?"

"Kat. Mark's your ex. Of course he would ignore you, I bet if you had broken up with him, you would do the same thing."

"Are you on my side or his?"

"Of course I'm on your side. I'm only telling you not to get worked over something that SHOULD be expected. Ok?"

I sighed. "Ok. You're right."

"I'm sorry."

"No no. You're right. I'll call you some other time.."

-click-

I'm so stupid, I guess Mark has a right to treat me that way..guess he's still holding a grudge on it.

-hours later-

Taehyung, Boram, Lay and I went together to the grocery store to get what we needed for the welcoming dinner.

I had a lot of fun

All thanks to Taehyung, I'm not really comfortable around Boram or Lay yet. But Taehyung gave off that easy going vibe. He's definitely a social butterfly, he acted as if we were his best friends. And his smile is so sincere.

Lay and Taehyung were preparing some dishes while I helped Boram with a few more. We decided to prepare a traditional Korean dinner.

Taehyung: How much salt do I put?

Lay: about a pinch of salt.

Taehyung: What if I add too much .-.?

Boram: Here, lemme help you.

I giggled, Taehyung really doesn't know what he's doing but I can tell he tries.

Tiffany walked in with Mark laughing.

Just ignore them Kat.

Tiffany: Kat, Mark was just telling me the funniest joke! You want-

"No, I don't want to hear it."

...

Mark: She wouldn't find it funny anyways.

I turned around and glared at him. "You don't know that, so i suggest you keep your mouth shut before you go blabbing about things you don't know."

All: oohh~

Mark: Some people are bad.

-_-

"Some people are cruel."

Mark: How so?

Why isn't anyone stopping us? It's like they want to see an argument against two ex's.

"I don't need to explain myself. You are just cruel in general."

Mark: Oh I'm cruel?

"Yeah. You are, you give up too easily."

All: ohh~

Mark: I'm not one to stand around waiting for a miracle to happen.

"And I'm not one to take shit from people."

Jiyong stepped in.

GD: Ok! What are we having tonight?

Mark: Neither am I.

GD: What?

"Because you give up."

Mark: I do not.

"Yes you do!" I dropped the plate I held and it shattered to the ground.

Everyone gasped.

Mark: See what you do?

"You see what you do! Ugh why did I have interest in you! You're the worst thing that's EVER happened to me!" I charged at him but Taehyung and Tiffany held me back.

Mark: Oh I'm the worst fucking thing?! Huh?! Speak for yourself! You cheating-

Lay and Boram held him back.

"Come at me! Say what you gotta say!"

Mark: I already said what I had to say to you A YEAR AGO!

I gasped.

He dares bring that up?

I groaned. "I hate you!"

GD: Kat relax! Stop!

I began to squirm my way out of their grip to try and hit Mark.

At this point I don't care if all of this is being filmed, everyone has a right to know who truly is the bad guy.

Mark and I cursed at each other.

But after a while we did stop and calmed ourselves down. I walked out to the backyard and cried.

This reality show turned too real way too fast.

Jiyong stepped out.

I sighed and turned around.

Don't talk to me.

"Kat.."

"Are you here to humiliate me or console me?"

"Kat I wanna know if you're okay.."

"What do you care? I bet you're happy this is happening to me."

"No Kat. I'm not happy."

"Then what? You're full of joy?"

"Ani.."

"Go away Jiyong."

"No."

I sighed.

"I can only imagine how hard and awkward this must be for you. Having to live with an ex for who knows how long.. but you got me."

"Pfft..yeah right."

"Hey, don't be so hard on yourself."

...

"I'm trying to remind you that I'm also your friend Kat, regardless of what happened between us. I'm still here for you."

He has a point..

And I guess I do need someone to talk some sense into me.

I nodded. "Ok oppa..I'm sorry for acting immature about all of this."

He smiled. "That's alright."

We hugged.

Taehyung stepped out. "Is Kat ok?"

I turned to face him, I smiled warmly. "Yes, Kat is fine."

He smiled. "Ok.!"

GD: Is dinner ready yet?

Taehyung: Oh just a few more minutes hyung.

GD: Let's go inside.

I held his hand. "Ok.."

》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》

-3 weeks Later-

I barged into my room and curled into a ball on my bed.

This is all too much.

I can't continue living here.

Mark disrespects me too much.

What gives him the right?!

The fans have gone on a rampage, they want us both off the show. Supposedly we don't make it fun to watch. I totally agree!

But the producers are getting a heck of a lot of money off of our arguments. It's so cruel!

The fans have even made team names. #TeamKat and #TeamMark.

It's terrible.

The rest of the roommates sorta avoid me, all except Taehyung. I can honestly say he's the only one who actually cares!

Jiyong left the show last week.

Due to his busy schedule he couldn't afford to waste time here. I'm all alone now.

Tiffany for sure is #TeamMark -_-

Boram and Lay are doing their own thing.

Like I said Taehyung cares for me but he does his own thing as well.

There's no point for me to continue to stay while Mark disrespects me so much.

Ugh. I hate him.

I covered my face and began to cry.

Why did I ever become an idol?

I seriously regret it.

This whole idol thing just isn't for me, I've gone through so much. I was forced to lie about certain things, I been judged to the fullest. I was formed into someone I'm not. I wish I had known what was coming to me before I even applied for an audition.

I should've gone home the DAY I got rejected by YG, then JYP would've never seen me.

I miss my old life.

My privacy.

My innocence.

My dignity.

It's like this world took it all from me.

Starting with Mark.

My only love, yet my worst enemy.

How did I ever fan girl over him?

He's nothing but an inconsiderate jerk.

His playful personality is just for show.

Mark recked the allusion I had for him. I see who he truly is now. I'm so disappointed in him and myself.

I'm calling it off.

My life as an idol is over.

I can't.

I began to pack up my belongings.

I cried as I did so.

Sorry Kittens, it's what's best.

"Kat? Hey..what are you doing?"

I sniffled. "Just packing up Taehyung."

"Wae?" He sat at my bed.

"I'm going home."

His eyes widen. "No! Wae? You're leaving me?"

"I'm sorry Tae..but a lot has been going on, you should know."

"Yeah but..you're strong. You can overcome this.."

"Nope. I'm out."

"You can't leave.."

I stopped what I was doing and embraced him. "I'll never forget you Taehyung, even if we hardly know each other..you are considered one of the loyalists people I've come to know." I forced a smile.

"Please don't go.."

I really wish Mark would say that.

"I'm leaving.."

He sighed. "Then I'll leave too.."

I giggled. "Go ahead. I'm doing this for myself Taehyung, I can't continue living here."

"But...you can't.."

I zipped up my luggage bag. "I can."

I went to pack other things.

"So..is this goodbye then?"

"Yep..I know you'll remember me." I smiled.

"I don't want you to leave.."

"Taehyung, please."

He pouted.

After I grabbed other stuff to pack I began to put on my jacket.

Taehyung watched me in disbelief.

Done.

Now's the time to say goodbye.

I grabbed my bag.

"Wait..lemme do that for you." Taehyung said as he grabbed my bag for me."

"Ha..Gamsahabnida.."

I follwed behind him as we made our way to the exit.

Lay: Whoa! What are you kids doing?

Taehyung: KAT'S LEAVING!

-_-

Lay: *-* What?

Boram walked in.

Boram: Did I just hear you're leaving?

I nodded. "It's whats best for you guys.. the show.. and most importantly, myself."

Boram: But..you can't go? Kat you're a strong girl.

"Hey..don't take it personal."

Lay: She's right Kat. You can't go, you've gone through so much and you never gave up. Don't do it now.

All these words..why isn't Mark saying anything? Did I really fuck up that bad?

Mark stepped in and was in shock, but he tried his best to maintain a straight face.

Mark: W-whats going on?

Taehyung: Kat's leaving.

Boram: Please, say something.

....

Mark: ....

Lay: Kat don't go. Please, I'm sorry if we treated you a certain way you felt unwanted.

My lips quivered. I just want to cry, but I'm done crying.

"I-I'm sorry..I'll miss you guys.."

Boram immediately embraced me.

Lay joined.

Taehyung joined as well.

Tiffany: Hey..what's with the hugging?

Boram: Our friend here is leaving..

Tiffany: What?

Mark: ....

Tiffany: Kat..

"Goodbye guys."

Tiffany: No wait!

Mark: aish just let her go. It's best for everyone.

Asshole.

Fucking asshole.

That's it, that's all it took for me to officially want to drop myself from this horrible world.

I left without another word.

I didn't even look back, nor did I let Tiffany catch up to me. I got into the cab and drove to YG.

》》》》

-At YG-

Mr. YG: So..you feel it's best you cut your contract with us?

"Yes. I'll give in all my money to do so."

"Heh. You know..you'll practically be broke if you cut our contract."

"I have a person savings account anyways."

"Hm..well what can I say? I'm very displeased with this..I thought you were stronger than this."

"I am strong sir, it's taking a lot of courage to let go of the fame. It's what's best for me."

He sighed. "Very well then..sign here."

I signed willingly.

"That's it..you're done." He stretched out his hand to me. "It was good working with you while it lasted."

I shaked his hand. "Thank you so much sir."

"Good luck."

I bowed one last time and walked out of the building.

I'm free.

No more Kat.

No more hectic schedules.

No more exposing myself.

No more damn drama.

I'm going home..where I belong.

》》 TO BE CONTINUED 》》

A/N: Heads up! The next chapter may be the last one. Not sure yet. But I'm thankful for all of you who've been reading since day one ^-^

Thankful for those who just started reading, and thankful for those who added this to their reading list. It really makes me happy and only motivates me to become a better author and get more creative with my stories.

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Feel free to check out my second BTS Jimin fanfic (: called "My Personal Trainer" I'm hoping my supporters love it just as much as they loved my first Jimin fanfic "Irreplaceable" (:

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