"Bang bang bang!" I cheered.

I'm at the set watching Big Bang film their upcoming music video. Bang Bang Bang.

It's so dope!

I'm in it but at the very end, then again I doubt anyone will notice me. I'm just another 'back up dancer' I should say.

But whatever, I love this song!

Director: Cut! Ight that's a rap!

We all cheered.

Jiyong came straight to me.

I embraced him. "You guys never disappoint. I swear you guys work till you drop."

He chuckled. "Thanks. Glad you're here to show support. I'm gonna go wipe this makeup off and I'll be right back."

I nod. "Go on. Do what you gotta do." I smiled.

He smiled as he left.

I went ahead and went to the mini food table, I nibbled on almost everything. Just small portions. I'm so hungry.

-6 minutes later-

"Kat? Haha are you eating everything?"

I yelped as I turned around. "Oh crap.."

He giggled as he wiped off a substance from my lip. "Chocolate!" He said.

I laughed as I moved away. "Aigoo that's embarrassing.."

"It's adorable." He smiled.

My cheeks feel hot, my ears are burning, aigoo GD is too cute.

"So uhm.. congratulations on your new mv." I said.

"Yeah, I hope the fans love it. Do you like it?"

I nod. "Of course I do. The beat amd everything is just amazing. Definitely a new club song people will be playing."

He laughed. "Let me take you out."

My eyes widen. "What?"

"Let me take you out. Like a date."

Is he being serious?!

"Jiyong. I have a boy-"

"A boyfriend i know. But he's hardly ever around? And besides, it'll be more like a friend type of thing. What do you say?"

Hmm..

He's right about Mark hardly ever being around but it isn't his fault he's rising in his career. Besides I'm just as guilty with my busy schedule.

"Just as friends?" I said.

He nodded. "Just friends."

I sighed. "I suppose we could."

He smiled. "Excellent. I'll pick you up at 7."

"O-okay.."

He kissed my cheek and was on his way.

I'm blushing so hard..

I slightly caressed my cheek.

Wait.

Why am I feeling this way? Stop it!

Ugh.

-phone rings-

I yelped as I grabbed my phone.

'MARK♡'

I smiled and answered. "Heyy~"

"I'm not interrupting anything right?"

"Haha. No you're not babe. I was actually just thinking about you."

He sighed. "I miss you.."

"Me too.. but we'll see each other soon."

"Promise?"

"I promise."

"What are you doing tonight?"

"Wae?"

"I'm not doing anything and I figured if you're not busy we can video chat or something."

I giggled. "Aww that's so cute."

He chuckled. "So what do you say?"

"Uhm.. mianhae.. I'm actually busy tonight."

"With what?"

"Work..."

Why did I just lie?

"Oh...of course.." he said.

His tone got serious. Almost like he's giving a bad attitude.

"It isn't my fault." I said.

"I know. I'm not saying anything."

"Why do you sound upset?"

"Sometimes I ask why are we together if we hardly see each other. Like what's the point."

My heart stung...did he really just say that?

"Mark..I"

"Kat we're leaving the set." A staff member said.

"Oh okay....ahem. I gotta go." I said.

"Figures.. I'll just call some other time."

"Yeah.."

"K well.. annyeong.."

"Saranghaeyo.." I whispered.

-click-

He didn't say it back..he just hung up

Maybe he didn't hear me.

Yeah? He didn't hear me and hung up.

I took a deep breath.

Just stay positive Kat.

I grabbed my bag and began to collect my things.

》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》

-Mark POV-

What am I doing?

I can't be distracted all the time.

My career is at it's highest point, nothing is going to ruin that. Not even Kat.

I don't see us lasting any longer..

It's been a year and a few months, by now I figured we'd be beyond happy. But guess dating in the kpop industry just isn't easy. I haven't seen her in a months. And we don't talk at all. I just called her for the first time in months and it wasn't even that long of a conversation.

This feeling is just so unormal. It came so randomly. I suddenly feel so doubtful and cold hearted.

Why am I still with Kat?

Do I even love her anymore?

I don't know..

I need to have a serious talk with her.

Who knows when..

"Yo Mark!"

"Sup Jackson.." I sighed.

He sat beside me at the bench.

"You ight?" He asked.

I shrugged.

"What's up?" He said.

"Nothing.." I mumbled.

"You just shrugged and said nothing's wrong. How can I believe you? Come on bro what's the matter?"

I took a deep breath. "I'm gonna break up with Kat.."

He gasped. "Wae?! Wae?"

"Man all this shit is a bunch of bull!" I yelled as I rose up to my feet.

I leaned against the railing of the porch.

"Have you spoken to her about this?" He said.

"I just got off the phone with her."

"And?"

"Well I didn't say anything. I kinda wanted to video chat but as always she's busy."

"May i remind you... she's also a famous K-pop star? She has a schedule just as hectic as yours. And don't you think she wishes to see you often as well?"

"I know Jackson." I lock eyes with him. "I know. It's just..what's the point in being in a relationship with someone you hardly ever see anymore?!"

"The point is, you BOTH care about each other. If you BOTH truly want to be to together then the BOTH of you should fight. You guys should do whatever it takes to make this work. Tsk. Come on bro?! What's wrong with you?! I know you love her. Just the way you smile when you hear her name is enough for one to know you love her."

He's right.. but I'm still doubtful.

"Man I don't know.. I feel like we need to take a break."

"Mark. Don't do this. Follow your heart."

"Our careers are in the way right now. There's no way we can last any longer."

"Don't let the fame get in the way?"

"It's not the fame. It's the loneliness.."

"Are you fucking serious? You sound so ignorant. You're acting as if she doesn't feel the same exact way you do."

"Well she doesn't! She doesn't show it!"

"Obviously she wouldn't because she doesn't want you to worry!"

"You see her on broadcast!?"

"Yes I do Mark! But remember that's all just FOR SHOW!"

"WELL IT DOESN'T MATTER!"

"YES IT DOES DON'T YELL!"

"Why are you guys yelling?"

-silence-

Sunmi.

Jackson: Oh hey you..

Sunmi: Mark oppa..

I glared at and smiled. "Hey Sunmi.."

Jackson: What's up?

Sunmi: I heard you guys yelling...

...

Sunmi: ...

Jackson: I have to pee. Excuse me.

He shoved me aside and walked inside.

I sighed as I sat back down at the bench.

Sunmi soon sat beside me.

She rested her chin on my shoulder.

"You okay oppa?"

I nod. "I'm fine.."

"What's wrong? You know you can tell me anything."

She sat up.

I glared at her and searched her face.

Sunmi.

She's been there for me more than Kat has been. Then again Sunmi is my roommate, so obviously she's been there for me. But Sunmi has something that Kat doesn't. Which is a warm caring heart.

I mean don't get me wrong, Kat USED to have a warm caring heart. But ever since she debuted and rose to sky high, she's changed.

Not sure if anyone has noticed but I sure have, Kat is more blunt and cocky.

Then again, who's to blame?

Girl got talent.

The looks.

The body.

The voice.

Everything.

Meanwhile Sunmi here, she's just as beautiful, just as talented, but she's very.. humble.

Since she's been on the show she hasn't changed, I expected a change within her but she's the same girl I met a few months ago.

Thanks to her the show has become a huge hit, I really doubted the show would last. I really thought fans would bring her down.

But nope.

The fans love Sunmi so much they ship her with most of us ^-^

Such as.

Marmi (Sunmi and me) Jackmi (Jackson and Sunmi) and Sunyeom (Sunmi and Yugyeom)

Personally I think it's adorable.

And honestly I have thought about what it'd be like dating Sunmi.

On episode 8 was when fans started shipping us because we built a snowman together. Made hot cocoa and sat near the fire place. It was somewhat like a date. But that was the night I wanted to. ..Kiss her.

It was so strange. A feeling I never felt before, but I controlled myself.

One, because she's like what? 18 and two, I'm dating Kat.

I sighed.

What am I going to do?

"Oppa.."

"Huh? Oh.. sorry Sunmi."

"What's on your mind?"

"Just stuff.."

"Such as?"

I'm on broadcast..

"Hey? You want ice cream?"

"Don't change the subject. Seriously, whats going on in that big head of yours?"

I giggled. "Nothing serious.."

"Liar."

"What?"

"You heard me oppa."

I smiled as I flicked her forehead.

"Ah! Ya!" She exclaimed and hit my arm.

I laughed.

She giggled. "See? There's the smile I was looking for."

I blushed.

"You wanna know what my mom tells me when I'm feeling down?" She said.

"What?"

"Always remember that there's someone out there who's going through a much more worse struggle than you."

Kat..

"Mm.. that's true." I said.

She rested her head on my shoulder. "Ahhh~ tonight's there's more stars."

I looked up at the sky. "Heh.. I guess so."

"Twinkle twinkle little star, how I wonder what you are..."

Is she really singing this?

"Up above the world so high.."

She's so adorable.

"Like a diamond in the sky.." I sang with her.

She smiled. "Twinkle, twinkle, little star,

How I wonder what you are!"

She finished.

But that isn't the whole song.

I sang. "When the blazing sun is gone.."

She yelped. She smiled once she caught on. "When there's nothing he shines upon.." she sang.

We both sang. "Then you show your little light!"

We giggled. "Twinkle, twinkle, through the night."

I sang. " Twinkle, twinkle, little star, how I wonder what you are!"

She sang. "In the dark blue sky so deep, through my curtains often peep.."

I sang. "For you never close your eyes.. Til the morning sun does rise"

We both finished the song. " Twinkle, twinkle, little star..How I wonder what you are. Twinkle, twinkle, little star. How I wonder what you are.."

Silence.

We looked at each other.

"Bbahahahaha!" We laughed.

"Did we really just sing that?" She asked.

I giggled. "Yep! It was all caught on camera!"

She covered her face. "Aigoo! I'm so embarrassed!"

I moved her hands away from her face. "Wae? Don't be embarrassed. I sang it with you." I smiled.

"Aigoo.."

I chuckled as I put my arm around her and pulled her close. "Let's go inside with the others?"

She nods as she gets up.

I followed behind her.

As we walked inside I noticed everyone was pretty much doing their own thing.

Yugyeom, Youngjae and Bambam are playing video games. Jackson is on his phone. Jr is passed out on the couch and JB.

I don't know where JB is?

Bambam: Sunmi! Come play!

She went to sit beside them. "What game is this?"

Youngjae: A racing game. You wouldn't know anything about it? Would you?

Sunmi: Psshh you're talking to a chick who owns every gaming system.

Yugyeom: Oh yeah? Name them!

Sunmi: Xbox 360, Xbox One, Play Station 2&3, the Xbox KINECT! The Wii~ hmm.. what am I missing?

"What about a gaming device?" I asked.

Jackson raised an eyebrow as he glared at her.

Sunmi: Oh yeah! My gameboy color and Nintendo 3D DS.

Wow.

Impressive.

Bambam: LIAR!

Sunmi: I am not!

Jackson: There's no way you own all of that.

Sunmi: I promise I'll prove it!

I chuckled.

She's so cute.

JB popped up.

JB: Mark. A word.

??

What's his deal?

I excused myself and went to the private room where JB was.

"Close the door." He said.

I locked it.

"What's up?"

"Have a seat."

Okay.

"Sunmi might not be living with us much longer."

!!

"Wae?"

"The manager just called and.. well. We're gonna be very busy soon he sees no point in continuing the show."

"We can still continue? It isn't a hard task-"

"Mark. Do I look like that's what I'm concerned about?"

...?

"JB?"

"Mark. Listen. I'm trusting you to keep this a secret."

"What?"

"Sshhh." He put his finger over my lip.

I brushed it off.

"I like Sunmi." He said.

My eyes widen.

"No actually.. I love her." He rephrased.

!!!!

"Whoa.." I mumbled.

"Yeah. Whoa. I know!"

"S-since when?"

"Since the day I layed eyes on her."

...

He sighed. "And then we got to know her and.. I couldn't help but fall fucking hard."

Guess my chances with her are gone.

Aish Mark what are you thinking?

"Well.. what are you gonna do?" I asked.

"I was actually..kinda..thinking of confessing to her before she'll have to leave."

"How will you guys work out when the shows over? Thats IF her feelings are mutual."

"Hmm.. well. I could make out a schedule on when to go see her.?"

"Not a bad idea...but, what if she doesn't feel the same way?"

"That's why I also need your help."

What? Me?

"With what.."

"Since she's a lot closer to you. Do you think you could.. well. Figure out who she likes?"

No.

"Uhm..how will I do that?"

"Get her alone. When there's NO cameras around and. I dunno interrogate her? Dig in deep. Find out anything that'll can help."

I took a deep breath. "JB i have a lot of-"

"Jebal.?! Pleeasseee!"

I'm going to regret this.

"Ugh. Fine!"

"Yes!" He hugged me.

I chuckled as I pulled away.

"I'm counting on you man."

Oh boy..

》》》

Jiyong picked me up at the exact time. I love how sharp and sophisticated he carries himself. So mature and manly like.

He took me to a lovely private restaurant where we shared our thoughts and ideas for future promotions. And we also shared some embarrassing stories while filming music videos.

Jiyong is so down to earth.

I never saw this side of him before.

Sure I imagined him being this way but now that I'm acting seeing it. It's a much more better feeling.

"So have you heard from Mark?" He asked as he took a sip of his drink.

"Who?"

"Your boyfriend?"

"Oh! Right.. no I haven't."

Why do I keep lying?!

"Hm. Fool."

"Excuse me?"

"Not to you. Him. I'm sorry Kat. But a beautiful girl like yourself should be shown off and treated like a queen.. Shit. If you were my girl the whole world would know by now."

Mark does show me off? I mean he DID announce our relationship on live television.

It isn't our fault we're both busy.

"Jiyong.. aren't you like.. private with your relationships?" I asked.

"For you it's worth showing it off."

I blushed.

He placed his hand on top of mine.

My heart skipped a beat.

"If you give me a chance.. I won't ever treat you the way Mark does. Don't you see? A girl like you needs a man."

A girl like me?

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"Exactly what it's supposed to mean? You're a strong independent young lady who needs a just as strong and independent man beside you."

But Mark is strong.

He hasn't given up on me yet.

"I appreciate your kind words Jiyong but.. I love Mark. He's everything to me."

He rolled his eyes.

...

"Has he even tried to see you?" He asked.

"No.. well yes.! I mean.. well not exactly.. but-"

"I don't see what you see in him. Sure he's talented and handsome. But personally I don't think he was ever ready to be in a relationship in the first place...no offense."

"None taken."

What if Jiyong is right? What if this whole time Mark just played an act?

No.. he couldn't have... we made love.

But then again we haven't spoken.. nor have I been truthful to him lately.. man why am I realizing all of this now?

Aigoo..

What if I'm losing him?

"I think we should go now." He said.

I nodded.

We got in his car and drove off.

It was quiet.

He played some music.

BTS Fun Boys played.

Jiyong bobbed his head a little.

I looked out the window.

What could Mark be doing right now?

I feel like I should've stayed home and video chatted with him. Why do I NOW realize how much I've been pushing Mark aside.

At this point he must be so out of it.

I have to fix this before I lose him forever.

"Kat?"

"Mm?"

"If you were single. Would you ever give me a chance?"

..well obviously he's G-DRAGON!

"It depends."

"On what?"

"Who you are as a person."

"Hm. Okay? Well you know me pretty well now. How am I?"

I chuckled. "Pretty awesome.."

He laughed. "Ahh Gamsahabnida."

It got quiet.

"Hey Kat?"

"Mm?" I turned my head to face him.

"I have a song I want you to listen to."

??

"Why don't I take you back to my place and let you have a listen?"

....

Nothing will happen.

I nodded. "Sure."

We got his house.

I sat at the chair once I arrived in his mini studio.

He took out a CD and pressed play.

A sweet guitar melody played.

Ohh~

GD's singing voice is so soothing.

Ah! Now he's rapping.

I bobbed my head as the music played.

Jiyong remained serious as he sat with his arms crossed.

The song was over.

"What'd you think?" He asked.

"It's beautiful. Why isn't this on the radio?!"

He chuckled. "Because I just produced it."

"Well do you have any intentions in-"

"It's a song I wrote for you, Kat."

!!

Wh-what?

He got up and replayed the song.

"Oppa.. what are you-"

He reached his hand out to me. "Dance with me?"

What is this..

I shyly grasped his hand and he pulled me up to my feet pulling me close to him.

His face was just inches from mine.

"You're beautiful~" he sang as the song played.

My hearts throbbing.

This can't be happening.

" dangsin-i jeoege dangsin-ui ma-eum-eul jumyeon naneun dangsin-ege segyeleul boyeojul su" ( I could show you the world if you give me your heart~) he sang in my ear.

I felt goosebumps all over my body.

He stared right into my eyes

Those bright brown eyes.. that glare..

He kissed me.

!!

I pushed him away immediately.

He seemed surprised at my reaction.

He scratched his head. "Mianhae.. I.. I couldn't control myself."

"I think I'll be going now."

"Kat wait"

I dashed out of the room and began running down the stairs.

"Kat!"

He chased after me.

As I opened the door of the entrance he grabbed my wrist. "Don't go.."

"I have somewhere to be."

"You're running to Mark aren't you?"

"Who else? He IS my boyfriend."

"Kat don't go. You'll get hurt."

I yanked my arm away. "How would you know? Just because he doesn't see me often or hardly communicate with me doesn't mean he's a bad person. You don't know him like I do."

"It's best if you just go on home..or stay?"

"If paparazzi see me coming out of here tomorrow morning what would they think?"

"You won't have to leave in the morning."

"It doesn't matter Jiyong. I'm going now. Thank you for tonight."

"Kat.."

I slammed the door shut.

I heard it open, I quickly looked back

Ugh just leave me alone.

"Kat let me take you home, it's late."

"That's okay I'll take a cab or something."

"Kat please."

"It's fine Jiyong. No need to."

He grabbed my wrist again.

"I took you out tonight so it's only right that I take you home. Please, I insist."

I sighed and pulled my arm away. "Arasso."

The ride home was completely quiet.

I can't wait to get home.

He parked right outside my house.

"Kat-"

I barged out of the car and walked to my door step. He's not driving off so I KNOW he's watching me. Don't look back.

I slammed my dorm shut.

As soon as I got to my room I plunged myself on the bed.

I cried I cried I cried I cried.

Mark..where are you?

I need you..

I never felt more stupid.

Mark has dealt with all my shit.

Starting with all the guys who had eyes on me, Jr, Kikwang, Alan, and now Jiyong.

I sighed.

Then with my tragedy that occurred, and then getting transferred to YG.

It was all too much for him.

Why hasn't he given up?!

I bet he's at his breaking point..

Before I went to bed I switched on the tv.

"You are my everything~"

Oh my god.. my music video is on.

It's the music video Mark filmed with me.

Look at us, that was the best day ever.

My eyes are watery.

I shut the TV off.

I know what to do.

》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》

I parked right outside GOT7's house.

It was literally an hour drive away from my place. I don't see why I don't visit them often on my free time. I guess I've gotten so caught up with my own career I literally.. in a way took Mark for granted.

I stepped out of my car and walked towards the door step.

Before I rang the bell I stopped.

What if this was a bad idea?

No. Suck it up Kat.

-ding dong-

-door opens-

!!

"Kat?!"

"Hey!"

Before I opened my arms out to him he stepped out and shut the door.

....

"What are you doing here?" He asked as he crossed his arms.

"I came to see you-"

"Wae?"

"Because I missed you.."

"Since when?"

...

"What's wrong? Aren't you happy to see me?"

He sighed and put his hands in pockets.

I don't know why he's acting this way..I'm beginning to regret coming here.

"Kat..there's something I need to tell you."

My hearts racing.

"But first.. are you happy with me?"

Why is he asking?

"O-of course I'm happy with you? Why would you ask such a thing? Mark I love you."

"Then why haven't you made time for me? Why did you put me aside? You hardly ever text me cute things. I'm always texting you, always trying to get in contact with you. I always make time for you but.. you seem to not give a fuck anymore."

What he just said broke my heart.

"Mark.. I'm sorry. I know I've been very distant with you. But tonight when I went out with Jiyong, I realized-"

"What? Hold up. You were on a date with Jiyong? As in.. G-dragon?"

Fuck..that slipped out.

I gulped. "Uh.. yeah. But-"

"So you lied to me? Wow! Aha! Here I am thinking you don't have time for me due to work but really you're just a cheater."

"What?! No! Mark it wasn't-"

"I'm done hearing anything else you have to say. You just helped me make up my mind."

No!

"Mark!"

"No. Kat, it's over. I'm done. Just leave me alone."

My breathing became heavy and quick "Mark! Please.." I grabbed his arm before he went inside.

He glared at me.

"Mark please just let me explain. I'm sorry I've been such a bad girlfriend.. I'm sorry.. I'm sorry!"

He yanked away. "Stop apologizing."

*gasp* "KAT!"

Bambam

"Oh.. hey."

Don't cry Kat.

Mark: She was just leav-

Bambam: Move! :D

He shoved Mark outta the way and hugged me.

Bambam: Oh Kat! I've missed you! Look at you! New hair color huh?

I nodded. "Heh..yeah." i looked at Mark.

He remained serious.

"Why is.. *gasp*"

Sigh

"KAT!"

Jackson embraced me hard.

I yelped. "Jackson..I can't..breath.."

He let go. "Sorry. I'm just so excited to see you!"

I forced a smile.

Soon the rest of them stepped out and were very happy to see me.

"Aigoo! Kat ^-^"

"Oh hey Sunmi. Haha..look at you girl."

I hugged her.

Mark rolled his eyes and walked inside.

Not only did my Mark break my heart, he took it with him. And for sure he'll burn in and shred it to pieces. I take all the blame. I did HIM wrong. I could never be forgiven.

Jackson seemed to have noticed Mark's attitude and followed behind him.

Youngjae: Can you stay? Please! Sleepover!

I chuckled. "I really wish i could..but I can't. I need to head back. I just had a little time on my hands and came to see you guys. Glad you're all doing okay..

Sunmi: You're always welcomed here. (Smiles)

I smiled back.

She's so lucky to be here with them.

Yugyeom: But you just got here.

To have my heart ripped out of my chest.

"I know. Sorry to just come through without warning.."

JB: Nonsense you're our friend.

Jr: My best friend to be exact. (Winks)

I giggled.

"Well I'm leaving now. Hope to see you all soon.."

All: Bye Kat! Later unnie! Annyeong!

I got back in my car and drived home.

I cried hysterically in the car.

Now I'm on my own. Literally.

This is too much, I can't cope with this.

I can't.

》》 TO BE CONTINUED 》》

A/N: Okay so sorry if this was long, I got really into writing it haha. Also, get prepared for a huge twist in this story. Honestly I don't really feel like making this story much longer.. I actually thought of deleting it at some point. But I did that before to another story and I felt really bad. So I swore never to do that again. I'm going to finish this story until the very end! And I sincerely apologize if some chapters were shitty. I wasn't really putting much effort :/

Thank you to all those who are still reading this story! You guys are awesome. I will try my best to continue with this story.

♡misshobie