I sat there, letting the tears flow down my face. I still love Finnick. But I need to get over him. I silently cried for thirty minutes before going to Finnick's room. Not to make up with him. He's still my mentor. I softly knocked on his door and walked in.
"Finnick"
"Don't come here to apologize"
"I know. I wasn't. I was coming to ask you a question. You're still my uh mentor right"
"Of course what's your question love"
"Finnick..."
"Oh right. Sorry i um forgot. Just a mentor"
"Yeah... Anyway my question is do you know the um names of the girl from one and the boy from two?"
"Brandon and Maia why?"
"Oh um no reason."
"Brooke what did you do?"
"Um I may have made myself a big target in front of them at the tribute parade" I'm talking really fast. Then Finnick got mad.
"What the hell.
"Hey were not friends. You're just my mentor. That's it. That's all it will ever be. It's best that way. That way none of us gets attached when I die. But if you want me to have a chance you should shut up and mentor me"
"Oh. That's fine. I thought maybe after the games we could settle down and...
"Finnick! Stop! That's not gonna happen. You're just my mentor and I thought I made that clear."
I felt the tears stream down my face. I started crying harder. I sat down on his bed and he sat down and hugged me. He hugged me. I really needed a hug.
"Brooke I love you. I love you so much. I don't think I could live if you left me.
"Finnick I ... love you too. But we can't be together.
"Why not?"
"Because as much as I want to keep my promise I'm not sure if I can. There's a slim chance I can win and I don't want to hurt you."
"Brooke we can work this out we can..."
"No Finnick we can't. There are plenty of girls who would love to be with you. It's just not me. As much as you think you can't survive you'll get over me fast. Just another dead tribute right?"
I tried to hold in my tears.
"Even when I die, I want you to know that I love you. And soon I'll be saying goodbye." I planted a small peck on his lips. This is the last time I'll ever do that. I looked back to see him letting a few tears out. I smiled and walked back to my room. Only a little longer till the end.