Today was the last day of his tour. The last day with his 3 lads. He wasn't ready to part. He never is. They've done shorter breaks, and they always got to him.

A year long break was something Niall couldn't take alone. Last they tried to have a break, Nialls parents split. To say he went down easy. Is false.

He went into a depression. Not like "awe I'm sad give me attention" definitely not. He'd like to call it a deep depression, the ones the fans would go into when going through old band moments or when they first find out who the band is and they close off finding out who we are.

Yeah everyone should know what that feels like. It's hard to deal with.

That is exactly what Niall felt going through photos, videos, and let alone being in the same room as them arguing who gets what. But the simple words of, "You let him go to the X Factor!"

The sounds left his mouth without him meaning to. They weren't words coming out. Let's just say it's sounds, painful sounds.

He didn't give it a second thought before heading to the nearest bar and pulling out the nearest stool.

"Strongest thing you got."

"Bad day?"

"Always"

That's the last thing he remembered before he woke up in Simon's flat. He didn't care why he was there as long as he knew he was safe.

A new tour fired up faster then he could blink. Tour dates coming up out of the ground. He announced the world wide stadium tour. Smiles filed the air. His band was a little frustrated until they heard about what happen.

Pity filed the air. Actually who am I kidding. No one cared. The fans didn't know unless the searched something on his parents.

The 2014 tour went well. Simon thought that if he was being active he wouldn't think about it as much. He had gym memberships. He was losing weight like there was no tomorrow. Not one person noticed, not one person cared still.

He was thin. He was dying. You can say people have their own body type. Sure. Zayn was a body type. Losing weight is not.

So to say this year long break is needed, Yeah? They extended it on him thinking he'd pull through. Thinking,"Nialls found his Lucky Charms; he'll be fine!"

"You think cereal will last me two years!?" He barely remembers yelling.

So I stepped in as a box of cereal.