João

"are you coming home tomorrow or soon?"

i said asked once again Magui, through the phone.

only to be responded with a "no, my boss is making me work out of the city for an extended time."

of fucking course.

"you know what, just forget it." i said hanging up the call.

as much as i wanted to not believe it. i've come to the conclusion that Magui, did in fact, forget about my birthday.

i didn't want to be like "so you coming for my birthday?" i wanted to see if after dating for so much time, she'll remember, like any partner would.

but i guess not.

is like i don't have a space in her mind anymore.

i rubbed my hands in my face in frustration.

i need to get some air and try to forget my dying relationship.

>>

it was evening, so the sun was starting to set.

i loved just driving around the city with no actual destination.
it just makes me less stressed.

while slowly driving, i saw a woman walking in the most defeated way ever.

she had heels on too, which explains it.
as i moved further i got to see her face.

ain't no way.

how do i always end up seeing her everywhere?
she didn't notice my car since she looked lost in her head with her headphones in.

i'm confused.

i honked to catch her attention, just how i like it.

she angrily looked my way, realizing it was me.

"i don't think exercising with heels on is the best idea." i said with the window down smirking.

she, on the other hand, looked mad, like genuinely.

someone's having a bad day...

"can you leave me alone? i'm clearly not in the mood for your jokes right now."

clearly, but she knows damn well i won't leave her alone.

"well what happened, why are you walking like a zombie at 5pm?"

"if i tell you would you leave me alone?"

i nod. obviously lying.

"my phone died so i couldn't call a uber and i had nobody to help me. happy?"

why am i not surprised? of course she's stupid enough to not bring a charger with her.

i feel nice right now though, so i'll be her superman today.

"lucky for you, i'm willing to help."

"you said you were going to leave me alone.."

this girl just can't be grateful i'm taking time off my day to help her?

"seriously Amelie, i'm offering you my help, take it or don't, i doubt you're going to make it through with those heels."

"alright, if you insist."
i knew she was going to eventually agree. i mean who wouldn't?

"see? it's that easy, i love doing charity work."

she lazily pulled me the middle finger while getting in.

>>

i honestly didn't want to make her already shit day worse, so i didn't bother her for most of the ride..
but i had the urge to ask her something.

"so..."
i started, immediately hearing a sigh from her.

"i heard you got a boyfriend, is it true?"

i'm just curious. that's it.

she took some time to answer so i looked at her to see her struggling to answer. almost confused.

"we're just talking." she finally responded.

that's it? all that thinking for that?
i don't buy it.

"why him though? he doesn't seem like your type."
i suddenly said. i didn't mean to actually say it out loud.

"what's that's supposed to mean?"

"i don't know, it's... i guess..surprising?"

"oh so you don't think i could pull someone like him?"

"the opposite actually."

i would never say it out loud but Amelie seems too good for him.
i don't fully trust the kid.

one time we played together ended up in an almost very physical fight after the game.
i dislike his whole personality.

and Amelie, is just her.
she's can do so much better.

on top of that, she's too pretty for him, talk about having low standards.

"not because you're too pretty or anything, i'm just saying because you are difficult to deal with, that's all."

yeah sure João.

"well it seems that he can handle me just fine."

"i've actually met him a couple times, he's alright, i don't see nothing special to be honest."

"what are you? rating how good he is for me or something?"

yeah kinda.

"just my opinion you know?"

"talking about partners, how are you and your blondie? want me to sign an autograph for her too?"

of course she'd bring that up.

"we're uh, fine, i think." we're not fine at all, everyday i contemplate if i should break up or not.

"João, full offense to this, but you're really fucking dumb."

what did she say?

"excuse me?"

"you're kissing someone's ass after they cheated on you repeatedly, that's already enough to break up with them, don't you think?"

for some reason, that got me really enraged. she has no right to talk about my relationship like that .

"you're clearly jealous, she loves me, she hasn't cheated in a while, and she won't, she's changed."

Amelie looked at me confused.
it was the truth!

"are you hearing yourself? once a cheater always a cheater João, no girl that claims to love you would cheat over an over, just saying."

at this point i wasn't even thinking in what i was saying, words came out of my mouth like fire.

"why are you even talking, every guy you've ever dated has never been interested in you, they just want a picture with your brother."
i said, suddenly seeing a change in her face.
was that...hurt?

shit, i messed up.

"João, just drop me here."

"huh?"

"just let me get out here, i don't need your help, unlock the fucking door."

i truly felt bad.
i didn't know that would've sting her that much.

"Amelie, you know what i mea-"

"yes i know exactly what you mean, now leave me alone, your girlfriend must be wondering where you are."

i unlocked the door, knowing if i didn't, the problem would be worse.

before i could say anything to her, she shut i'm the door in my face.

i watched her figure slowly disappear from my view.

what a fucking dumbass am i.

>>

Amelie

don't fucking cry, don't you dare cry Amelie.

all my head kept repeating since i left his car.

i'm not about to drop tears over what a man said. no. i won't.

all of that was suddenly shut down by a small string of water coming from one of my eyes.

shit.

what's wrong with me?
why do i care what he thinks? i could give two flying fucks about him.

gosh Amelie, gather yourself, this is embarrassing.
i wiped my tear in front of the mirror and took a deep breath.

focus on the good things.