Just a random thought in my head.
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Isn't it wonderful? To stare at the moon with shining stars with your bestfriend?
Siguro kayo iniisip niyo na normal lang yan na gawain ng mag bestfriend. Na normal lang mag star gazing with your bestfriend and she's holding your hand or minsan nakayakap sayo.
Well for me it's not, i can't help but bigyan ng malisya ang mga bagay na ganon. I can't help to think na "does she like me? " or "is this still a friendly gesture or something else."
I promise you you would think that way too...
If you're inlove with your bestfriend.
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"yeah i remember"she's laughing like crazy right now while im here naka simangot. "cause you were like 'ahhhh holy mother of chickens’."
Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. "paka tawa mo na baka last mo na yan."
"aww wag ka na sumimangot. You're so cute kaya that time. " ngiting ngiting sabi niya sabay halik sa pisngi ko.
Inirapan ko siya para maitago ang pamumula ng pisngi ko. “pasalamat ka mahal kita.”
We are just here looking at the dark sky of the night. Naka upo sa hood ng kotse ko at masayang nag aasaran. Typical hang out with your bestfriend.
But...
I can't help but to think na this is a date. Every time we go out im hoping that someday i can call it a date. But that'll never happen dahil bestfriend niya lang ako. And she's straight.
"lalim ah." pansin niya. "what are you thinking?"
"im thinking how to get rid of you." i looked at her poker faced.
Binatukan ako. "tigilan moko sipain kita dyan eh." sinimangutan ko nalang. Ngumiti siya ng mapaglaro. "you love me that much di moko kayang i-dispatsa."
"edi wow"
She was right though. Like who wouldn't fall for her. She's beautiful, a captain cheerleader, sexy and hot as hell. And Ofcoures she's my bestfriend.
"boring na"
"di. Kasama kita eh." kaagad na napatingin ako sakanya but she'slooking at the sky while smiling.
This is a nice veiw napagmamasdan ko ang mukha niya ng maayos ng di ako napapahiya.
Then she suddenly look at me too but i can't seem to take my eyes off of her. She's very beautiful.
"i know."she said and may kinakalkal sa bag niya. "Mag pa sound nalang tayo."
I averted my eyes and i feel my cheeks getting hot.
"damn"
Then a song started playing.
"oh god please no."
'You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do'
"God, i love this song." she said while smiling.
Napapikit nalang ako dahil iba ang naiisip ko sa kanta. Nakakarelate ako in a way. Hayst taylor swift.
'I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do'
Napatingin naman ako sa langit.
"But she wears short skirts
I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain, and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time" pag sabay ko sa kanta.
It's true she always wear heels and skirts while i wear baggy clothes. She's fashionable, while me well im just me.
I remember the times na naglalaway siya sa mga varsty player dati. Hmp ang papangit naman dugyot pa na pawisan. Ewan ba bakit patay na patay siya sa mga yun.
And i remember too nung niloko siya ng mga naging ex niya. I dont know bakit pa nila siya niloloko like she's a whole package tapos lolokohin lang nila.
Bakit kasi di niya makitang nandito lang ako nag hihintay lang na mahalin niya.
"If you could see that I'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So, why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me"
Yeah she belong with me kahit nasa utak ko lang. Di ko magawang maamin sakanya dahil alam ko naman na wala akong pag asa and i dont want to risk our friendship. Sapat na sakin na magkaibigan lang kami.
Mamahalin ko siya ng palihim hanggang sa mawala na ang feelings ko.
"If you could see that I'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So, why can't you see?
You belong with me"sabay namin pagkanta.
Ngiting ngiti siya habang kumakanta at naka tingin sa kalangitan. Tila damang dama ang kanta.
"Oh, I remember you driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're 'bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me 'bout your dreams" we are singing this line at the same time.
But napahinto siya dahil mas nilakasan ko ang boses ko.
"Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me"
Sinabi ko ang line na yon habang naka tingin sakanyang mata dahil napatingin din siya sakin.
"Can't you see that I'm the one,
Who understands you?"
Sa mga times na may problema siya ako ang takbuhan niya at ako ang comfort zone niya. Napapaisip nalang ako kahit kelan ba or isa sa mga araw na yon di siya na in love sakin?
"Been here all along
So, why can't you see?"
Why can't you see na nandito ako para mahalin ka. Na hindi mo kailangan ng lalaki sa buhay mo kung hindi ako lang. Magapapasaya sayo kahit na isa din akong babae.
"You belong with me"
Sa puso't isip ko nakatatak na sa akin ka nararapat.
'Standing by and waiting at your backdoor
All this time how could you not know, baby?
You belong with me
You belong with me'
Mag ka titigan lang kami habang patuloy lang ang kanta. Me looking at her adoringly.And she's looking at me as if she's confuse.
I cant talk about my feelings for her so i let my eyes to deliver my message. My feelings. For her.
Naalala ko grabe na pala ang pag ka inlove ko sa babaeng toh. To the point na humarap ako sa magulang niya to ask for her hand. Na kung maiinlove din saakin itong si alli, ay hindi nila kami tututulan. Buti nalang at open minded sila, at may tiwala daw sila saakin. Wohh nakuha ko na ang blessings ng parents niya and alam na nila na mahal ko ang anak nila while yung gusto ko mismong tao ay di niya alam.
"have you ever thought that maybe?" madamdamin kong pagkanta while looking at her eyes. I made sure na kitang kita niya ang pag manahal ko sakanya. "you belong with me."
We're staring at each other's eyes for a long five minutes straight. Then she suddenly laugh which made me confuse.
"if im not your best friend i would probably think that you're inlove with me." she said still laughing.
Tinignan ko siya ng seryoso. "but i am."
She stopped laughing almost immediately. "w-what do you mean? "
"i am inlove with you since i dont know when. Basta na realize ko nalang na mahal na kita." napayuko ako kasi alam ko na may magbabago. Pwedeng ireject or layuan niya ako. And im ready if that happened dahil i should face the consequences of admitting my feelings for my straight bestfriend.
"you're joking right?"
"no I'm not."
"yes you are."
"i said im not."
"then i love you too."
"i said no- wait what? "
Mabilis nanapatingin ako sakanya and i saw her smiling. Nag ha hallucinate ba ako?
"i just said i love you too. "
"look i dont love you as a best friend-"
"i know and i love you too,"pag putol niya sakin. "romantically."
I look at her looking if she's serious. Honestly i dont know what to say like matagal ko nang pinangarap na mang yari toh na mahalin niya din ako pero bakit wala kong masabi ngayon.
Im just looking at her in awe when she suddenly pull my colar and kiss me.
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko na naka tingin sa mata niyang nakapikit na tila ninanamnam ang sandaling ito.
Kalaunan ay pumikit na rin ako at inenjoy ang halik ng babaeng matagal ko ng minamahal.
Grabe ang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko. Ganito ang laging nangyayari tuwing kasama ko siya or makita ko man lang siya bumubilis na ang tibok ng puso ko. Sa ganitong moment pa kaya.
Nag hiwalay ang labi namin upang sumagap ng hininga. "is this for real? That you love me too? "
Natawa naman siya. "yes,silly. I love you."
Then i hug her tight dahil sobrang saya ko.
Takot na takot ako umamin noon dahil akala ko walang chance na magustuhan niya din ako. But thanks to this night and that song now we're finally together.
We enjoyed this night together not as bestfriends but official lovers. Now i can finally shout to the world that she belong with me.
"You belong with me, Alli."
"And you belong with me too, Eunice."
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