Feelings are like Drugs

Few Years Back
Oxford University Campus
Oxford
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Someone's POV


Ahh! finally the new term has commenced after summer vacation. This is the last chance for me to tell her about my feelings.


Yes! those feelings which i have been suppressing within my heart since a while. I can't stay like this forever. I need to let her know about my feelings, my love.


A stunning velvety red Audi A8 just halted near the university campus gate. The man in uniform, probably their driver went out of the car and opened the rear door for his madam to get off.


There she is, in all her glory and glamour! One of the hottest and richest girls of this campus. Her black halter neck short dress just ended above her knees. Her flawless skin has been glistening as if she just came out of the spa. Her hair is wavy and slightly burgundy, maybe she has dyed them cause as far as I know, most of the Indians have black hair. Her eyes are covered with a ray-ban. I know for sure that She's hiding her doveshaped eyes, beautiful brows and Her special winged eyeliners. I love that slight eye makeup on her.


She pulled her hair to her left shoulder making her bare back flaunt shamelessly. Yeah! Shameless, that's the right word that can go with her personality. Shameless, Reckless and Heartless!


There are at least 50% of students in this term, who have approached her and got dismissed on their face. She uses them like tissue paper, just as her rave party partners, night stands, disco partners, ramp partners. But She never goes beyond the limit with them. Her latest date lasted for about two hours.


No! I have not tried to have my chance. Cause, for me, Love is worship. You just need to love selflessly without expecting anything from your love. I just want her to have a good life. She's a nice girl. She goes to church every Sunday. She's religious though She's Hindu. I saw her attending mass carol. I saw her going to the temple also. I saw her supporting poor students with their school stuffs. However, please don't think am stalking her. She's my classmate and neighbor also.


But She doesn't know that. She hardly notices me. She hardly notices any other guy in fact except that special and lucky guy for the day! Oh, I forgot to say.. am a nerd. Thats what my friends call. My black rimmed glass and oversized jackets never allow anyone to see the real me.
My newly built body, toned muscles and my blue eyes. I hide these from the world's eye. These are for my girl. for my love. for my Anika..Anika Mittal, the only heir of famous Indian business house Mittal Groups.
Anika.. She is as beautiful as her sweet name. She comes in my dreams, She stays in my thoughts. I like her, and I know I love her.


But its upto her, if she will accept me or not. am not like that guy. Her 24/7 friend. So called friend actually.


I don't know if he studies with us cause I never saw him attending any class. He just meets her after every class in the lobby.
She hugs him. and in turn, he holds her close, almost sweeping her off the ground. The guy is tall dark and very good looking.
Should I be aware of their closeness? Should I feel jealous? Yeah, i feel. but still at the end of the day, when sitting in the table at the side row, I notices her laugh at that guy's silly jokes, I too cant stop grinning.


Thats how my love is.


One day, I heard the students of our class were gossiping about their relationship. They were saying that Anika has been getting courted by that guy. They are rumorely dating. Both of them are Indian and there has to be a lot of chances that after graduating, they will be hitched together.


No..I can't let her do that. It's not that I love her but that I know something which she doesn't know. I cant let her suffer. That rumored boyfriend of Anika is not the right person for her.


I have been collecting information about that guy since the last month. He..he is a druggist. He..he is a playboy. He..he is just after many girls and even had sex with many of them.


Currently, Anika has been in the class. And that guy is waiting for her in the corridor.
I missed this class as i came late. Good for me! I will get chance to talk with him.


"hello, this is Smith" I started.(I intentionally lied, this is not my name).
"Hey, nice to meet you" He greeted me with a friendly smile.


"What's your name, dude? you are standing here since a while, umm.. waiting for someone?" I asked directly, though i know his name.


He avoided that. "yeah! for my rumored girlfriend, Anika."


I was surprised hearing that from him. Rumored girlfriend? He is aware of that rumor?


"Rumored? I thought you guys are actually seeing each other." I can't help but ask.


He smiled heartily. "That's what people think. Its not necessary to be the truth what people imagine. We are not dating, that's truth."


I gasped in wonder. What does he mean? I myself investigated.


"Oh! I didn't know that. by the way, it never seems like that since you two are really close" I raised one eyebrow as i always do in curiosity.


He again smirked. I just don't like that.
He sighed then said, wrapping his big arms over my shoulders. "Look brother, We both are Indian and childhood friends. Maybe that's why you feel that way. We are really close anyway."


He shrugged his shoulders, then scrunching his nose, he smelt something.


"by the way, She's here. Thanks dude for this chat. bye" He went towards the classroom. yeah! There were so many questions revolving in my mind that I forgot to hear the ringing bell.


The class is over!


I suddenly heard whispering from my back. John the notorious guy in the college, famous for changing his girlfriends like dresses. He and his gang!


"Whatta  figure! imagine, how soft her skin will be felt once she will be on my mattress. This Valentine's night. Remember guys?" John said to his boy gang, with a lopsided grin. I follow his gaze. Anika.


They are planning something bad. No! I can't let that happen.


I went straight to him. "John, do you have math copy? I just forget that in my room"


He chuckled nastily, "look who's saying? the nerd. No boy. We dont study, we fuck."
His gang broke in a laughter.


That's it. I smiled and turned back. then suddenly turned towards him and smacked hard on his nose.


He couldn't keep his balance and fell on the ground. All the students looked at me in awe. I heard few of them even gasp.


Why not? You have just seen a part of Regan Smith. Am a book, not a chapter.
I would never bear if anyone tries to harm my lady.
She's mine, even if She doesn't accept me. I dont care. I will not claim her. I will not. But will stay afar and love her unconditionally.
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Ok, am sorry guys for being late! This is from the flashback.
It is important to know these parts. it will be needed in future of this story.
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