Hah
I got triggered yesterday
I'm not talking about the joke triggers, I legit do have a trigger that makes me have a full on panic attack.
Tbh mine is probably reasonable...
When someone close to me or whom I care for deelly starts yelling in a serious tone, which does not have to be directed at me, I get a panic attack.
Example,
Bf gets into a fight.
T r i g g e r e d
As for why I have this trigger, its a long story and I rlly need to get it off my chest so bear with me.
Pretty much started when I was younger, elementary age.
I grew up without my dad in my life, he was only home for a couple of weeks then gone for a couple of months.
So me and my mother never got along, I was highly timid and shy when I was little. I couldn't stand large crowds or loud noises. I used to cry a lot as well, but my mother wouldn't let me.
Whenever I cried she'd start yelling at me, and or would break someing or even hit me at times.
This happened all throughout my childhood, exept when my dad was around.
I know my childhood probably isn't as bad as others, but I didn't have anyone to go to.
I was scared to go to anyone for help, because they'd leave...
So yeah.
So nice to finally get that out
Tbh like i said i couldn't go to anyone, so i dont really talk about my childhood to people.
THAT'S ALL