I cried so much, I was scared my eyes were going to fall out. My heart was stabbed a thousand times that day. The next day came, and I tried to talk to Ethan but got cold shoulders from him. I did not give up; I plan to try my best to explain to him what really happened that day, no matter what it takes.

I am waiting at the door of his lecture hall. I finished my classes earlier than him today, so I have enough time to spare. Ethan and I might be studying the same major, but we still have different minors, so all our classes are not together. The clock hits five, and his class is over. I wait eagerly and nervously to talk to him.

"Ethan," I say, trying to stop him before he leaves like always. He does not answer and keeps walking. I increase my pace and step in front of him to block his path. "Ethan, please hear me out," I say, praying that he agrees. He tries to walk past me, but I block his way. He does it again, and so do I.

"Get out of my way," Ethan says with anger laced in his voice.

"Please just give me a minute to..." I don't get to finish my sentence because Ethan grabs my arms in a firm hold and brings his face close to mine.

"Explain yourself; I don't fucking want your explanation. Just leave me alone," Ethan says, shaking my body and shouting in my face. He releases my body with a lot of force, causing me to fall. He walks past me like I don't matter, and now I know I genuinely don't. I remain on the floor and cry my heart out as I realise there is truly no hope for me to explain things to Ethan.

Spring break is in full swing, and I couldn't be happier to be getting a little break from school, but I am not. With school on hold, my mind has not stopped thinking about Ethan day and night. I feel my heartbreak more every day without him. I miss him more than anything in the world. I really wish we could work things out one day.

I am on my way home after visiting the mall to get a few clothes for myself. I needed a little bit of distraction from thinking about him. I decided to visit the mall to fill my mind with picking out clothes to buy. I arrive home to see Khloe getting ready to step out. Khloe did not go home for spring break because of me. She said she could not leave me alone in the state I was in. I told her I was fine and she could go home, but she insisted on staying with me for the break.

"Where are you going?" I set my bags down on the floor.

"For the party, I told you about last night, or do you need me to stay with you? I don't have to go to the party if you need me. " Khloe says being the supportive friend she is, but I don't want to be the reason she won't go out and have fun.

"Oh, I am sorry I forgot, but I am totally fine. You can go to the party. "

"Are you sure? Because I can stay at home with you. I don't really have to go to the party. "

"Yeah am sure, go and have fun",

"Alright, I will go, but if you feel like you need me, I am just a call away. I will try my best not to drink too much tonight, so I will be available whenever you need me. "

"You don't have to do that for me. You should enjoy yourself at the party tonight. "

"If I can't do that for you, what good am I as a friend," Khloe says with a soft smile.

"I love you," I say with a little smile. I can't remember the last time I smiled.

"I love you too and see you when I get back," She says, walking out the door.

Once she leaves, I decide to call Amina to find out how she and the boys are doing. It rings for a few seconds before she finally answers the FaceTime call. She is looking beautiful as ever with her son beside her.

"Auntie Adina!" The cutest boy to me in the world says with the most innocent smile on his face. I lighten up once I see him. My nephew makes me feel better anytime I see him.

"How are you doing, my baby?" I returned Hassan's smile.

"I'm a wonderful auntie, and how about you?"

"I am also doing fine, so tell me about school today."

"I did not go to school today; we are on Easter break," Hassan says, and I remembered that it's almost Easter, so all the schools in Nigeria are having a little break.

"Oh, that's true, my love."

"Yes, and Auntie Adina, why do you look sad? I don't like it when you are sad. It makes me sad too," Hassan says, sounding down. I am about to reply when Amina finally speaks

"Hassan, why don't you go and play with daddy while I talk to Auntie Adina," Amina says

"Alright mummy, auntie Adina Please don't be sad, because it makes me sad. I love you, Byee," Hassan says as he walks towards his father.

"Thank you," I say to Amina, for saving me from a breakdown in front of my nephew. Any time someone asks me about my appearance or about Ethan, I always break down into tears. I could not do that in front of my nephew.

"You don't have to thank me, and how are you doing, like how are you really doing?" Amina says, with a lot of concern about me.

"I'm doing better than yesterday," I replied honestly.

"Alhamdulillah, and I hope you are not thinking about him too much."

"I am trying not to," I say with a sad smile.

"I never knew he meant this much to you. I wish I could explain to him what happened so he can realise you are innocent. "

"Amina, I never knew myself until this happened. I can't believe I was going to break up with him that day. The pain I feel from not having him anymore is so horrible. I can't even explain the feeling, but my heart feels like a part of it is gone," I say, feeling myself on the verge of tears.

"I am so sorry you are going through such. In Shaa Allah with time, you will feel better."

"Ameen and I will call you later. I'm feeling a little sleepy."

"No problem. Bye."

"Bye," I say hanging up.

I walk to my room to catch some sleep before later waking up to pray Isha.

Once I woke up, I prayed and received a call from Khloe. She is feeling a bit tired and too drunk to drive. She needs me to come and pick her up. I put on my veil and walk out of our house to be on my way. I am about to start the car when all my blood leaves my body. I asked Khloe to send the address, and I couldn't believe it had to be his place out of all the places in the world. I don't think Khloe realizes it's his place; if she did, she wouldn't be asking me to pick her up. I have not been there since the whole incident happened. Will I be able to step inside without breaking down in tears? I can't even believe he is throwing a party with all that is happening between us. I am about to call Khloe and tell her I won't be able to pick her up. I can't bear meeting him after what happened last time, but she beats me to it.

"Adina, please, where are you? Some guy here is creeping me out. Please hurry" Khloe says, sounding a bit scared.

"I will be there soon," I say forgetting that I was just about to call her and cancel. The way she sounded made me change my mind in a heartbeat. I hope I am not making a big mistake by going to his house. I quickly start the car and drive towards Ethan's house.