into the wilderness i seep, into the woods i went,

when the wind landed on my feet,

i thought they brought a letter you sent.

and there i spun around, like a ballerina in a spotlight,

preyed on by your memories-

i ran blindly, like a deer caught in the headlights.

there i went right in, right into the disco lights,

i was ever so restless, danced away into the night.

and when the tiles shifted, in the very slightest

i saw your silhouette in the gradient hues,

and just to lose sight of the shadow of you's,

i went to dance beneath the light that was the brightest.

and then i was up, floating in the sky,

swimming in the clouds, with my head up high,

and the lingering smell of the smoke i left

from the fire i set, right before i went bereft

caught up to me and i was gray and frozen

i wonder how longer, the matters of my heart 

will stay suppressed and unspoken.

how much longer will i run?

from some (or any) sight of you?

and everything that i've done-

this grief was well long overdue

a/n: don't get heartbroken when you're on vacation cuz 1) you can't do shit about it and 2) it ruins your mood & vacation soooo

WHEW it's been a hot minute huh? i went some place that literally HEALED me. adventure of a lifetime, y'all. word of advice: please take an extra pair of clothes when you go kayaking. 

thanks for reading, stay tuned! and if you want, check out my book "Librium Kiss". however, i'll warn you: it is pretty dark.

adios for now <3