Louis' POV

I go into my room after watching Harry walk down the hallway and into his room. I go into the bathroom and look in the cupboard to see that Harry's blade is gone. I go up to the others to see if they have seen but what I say comes across a little suspicious when I ask "Have you guys seen a silver blade by any chance?" They give me a few weird looks and then Zayn says

"Louis what do you mean, why are you looking for a blade, come here let me see your arms!" I walk towards Zayn and lift up the sleeves on my shirt, then he tilts his head towards my stomach and I lift up my shirt.

"Ok, are we good now?" I say.

"Yes, we are ok now," Zayn says. "Why are you looking for a silver blade?" Liam asks.

"It's not really anyone's business, really I'm not supposed to know," I say looking at the ground. I walk out of the room and run into harry. He has a small cut on his face. "Hey, may I ask why you have a razor in your room? And why won't you show me your wrists?"

He sighs and just rolls up the sleeves of his jumper. Apart from his tattoos, he is clean, nothing. "And the reason why I have a razor in my is that Lou asked me to shave my face a bit after I started getting stubble to look younger than the rest of you like how it's supposed to be. And I didn't show you my arms because I wasn't able to roll up my sleeves because my new tattoo would hurt more and. I was already in a ton," he says looking annoyed.

"I'm sorry. I'm just worried about you. You seem a bit distant and I wanted to check up on you. I'm sorry." I say looking him straight in the eyes. He looks away and just kinda pushed past me. At least he's ok.

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I get up and quickly get ready. I smell something delicious wafting from downstairs so i quickly hop downstairs.

I already see Harry up and making breakfast for all of us. His pancakes are legendary. Grabbing my plate I sit down at the bench and grab a few and piled them onto my plate.

Liam walks down the stairs with Zayn and Niall behind him. The boys grab the rest of the pancakes asking if Harry wanted any but he said no because he has already eaten. I smile at the other boys as they take a seat next to me." How'd you sleep, lads?" I say stuffing more of Harry's pancakes into my mouth. Man, they were delicious.

"Meh, not great but it was sleep," Harry says as he is flipping more pancakes.

The other lads and I except for Harry look at each other then back at Harry and back at each other.

"Do you guys want any more pancakes?!" I hear Harry say and I swipe my head back to Harry and say no with a full mouth of food so it made it hard for Harry to understand so he just nodded and turned off the stove and went to put all the dishes in the sink.

The lads and I are all sitting and eating when my phone rings and I pull it out of my pocket to see that it was Simon. I groaned and rolled my eyes before answering the call with...

" Hi Simon, it's Louis, how are you on this fine day?" I look at the others and they are all trying to keep in a laugh.

"Hi Louis, I know it's you because I called you. Now get the others together and put the phone on speaker this is for all of you to hear." After he says that, we all move to the couch and I put the phone on speaker as he asked.

" Ok, what do you want?" I say with a bored tone and a bored expression on my face.

" Lads today you have a lot on today and so I need you ready and outside the house in five minutes. Also, Louis, as you have a slightly different contract to the rest of the boys you are to fly over to me tomorrow. I already have gotten paul to book it, so don't worry. Now get on with it you dicks." and he hung up.

"Great chat I mutter into the phone. "Ok, you heard him lets get outside," Liam says grabbing his phone that was lying face down on the bench. "Simon isn't that bad don't you think. I mean yeah he comes across rude but he just gets things done and he helped get us this far." Niall says walking out the door. I look around and just see harry freeze a bit looks like he's about to cry but then tries to compose himself. Trying being the keyword.

By the time we are all out the door, Niall is trying to get back inside for some more food, zayn is looking at himself in his phone camera and Liam is talking to harry about something. Honestly, we are all just a bunch of middle school boys.

AU TW: suicide and bad things

hey. I'm back. I had to take a break from writing this. I'm not going to apologise as I have nothing to be sorry for. this may come across as harsh but I'm more important than the story so if I don't update for a while you just going to have to suck it up. the reason why I was away was that i fell back into a dark phase again. it got so bad that I tried to kill myself. 

However i am now getting better and I'm not trying that again. i love you guys and will start to write more now. bye :)

also I'm now 14 wooooo