IF ONLY...

A DARK LOVE STORY

Here I am...yes I've fallen in love. The thing I feared the most. Love was just not for me, truly I dint believe in LOVE, for me it was just an illusion but, HE made me fall in love and trust me now I don't want to fall in love I want to rise in love...I wonder why do people say they have fallen in love I want to proudly say that I have risen in love. When I saw him for the first time, there was a sparkle on my face, as though he made me shine...yes but were we comapatible?ahh no not at all..He was a complete flirty pack and I was shish...Every moment I spent with him was like magic...even those when we fought...BUT I know what I am doing is WRONG! Yes...I know we have no future, but I don't want to stop myself by thinking about future, as one of friend has correctly said "if you have a pen and it's your favourite, will you throw it away thinking that its ink will get over someday, rather you would use it until it dries up, so why do you want to leave him thinking about the future, everything is destined and it's all in the hands of God, so leave it up to him" these words of my friend gives me strength to live with him, but will he stand by me??I wish If only we were in a different world, if only we were in different situations, If only were in OUR DREAM WORLD, where what we dreamt could come true...TRUST ME LOVING SOMEONE IS EASY BUT BEING IN LOVE ISN'T...But the worst part is I'm not sure whether I am in love or is it just infatuation..Yes I'm not at all sure...but whatever this feeling is, it's great, its magical it makes me drool...the way he makes me feel nobody does...Yes! He makes me fall for him every day, sometimes I adore him even when we are fighting. It all started with the Kashmir trip...Yes 2 years earlier...