Plot : MC finds Jake after traveling for three days.
When I first saw him, once he opened the door of the motel room he is staying at, I was petrified. Not because of the fear or the judgment coming from him, but because I didn't know how he would react. He didn't know I was coming. Well... I guess he could have traced my phone but... Well... I guess it is fear after all. I was scared that he would either reject me and take me for a stupid girl for coming here, finding him. Maybe he would have thought I am stupid because someone could have followed me and that would have put him in danger. Or maybe he would have made it seem as if he didn't recognize me and just ignored me... Either way, both scared me and made me so nervous. It might have been pretty dumb thoughts, but they were literally running in my mind and making my heart race. Though, once I saw his face, I couldn't help but to forget for a moment those fears. It was just so... Fair. The features of his face were fine and mild. His dark messy hair falling loosely over his sweet face. His ocean eyes sparkling despite the black circles surrounding them by the lack of sleep. His lips looking so soft and so sweet. He just looked so... Perfect. I tried to imagine him several times but having him before me was so much better. And let's not talk about his height. I don't go above his chest. And that black hoodie looked slightly oversized even on him... I couldn't blink at that moment, scared it might all just be a dream. I didn't want him to vanish from my sight...
- "MC..." He calls me, his voice sounding as soft as silk. It's the first time I heard it without distortion. Him saying my name for the first time, without his computer thing, and in live just made my heart skip a beat before racing faster. "I knew you were smart, but I didn't know you had such courage to come find me." He says so softly, being so calm. Calm... He doesn't look mad to see me here...? I don't know why but I can't bring myself to talk. I guess... I guess I wasn't prepared for this reaction... Or I wasn't prepared enough for this meeting...? Jake lightly sighs as he puts his hands in his pockets. He seems so nervous and shy. "What are you doing here? Were you careful?" He gently asks me as I see him looking discretely above my head and around the surroundings. He's wondering if someone followed me...
- "I've been camouflaged like this for three days. I was extra careful. Nobody followed me, Jake." I suddenly managed to say, which made him stare at me. His eyes... At the sound of my voice, he looked as if he heard my voice for the first time. Well... It's not like we had lots of calls before either... I start smiling as I suddenly feel some heat warming my heart. He's really standing before me...! "Hi, Jake." I whisper softly as I nervously play with my sleeves. God, I must look like a child... The boy instantly smiles back at me while lowering his head to hide the pink shade coloring his cheeks.
- "Hello, MC" he whispers back, smiling just as bright as I did, forgetting the danger for a moment. Oh my God, that smile... It's a crime to hide it. Without thinking, I just step forward and snake my arms around his back, embracing him tightly. I've been wanting to do this for so long... Feeling him, being able to touch him and not just type on my screen to communicate with him... Just seeing him. The boy was surprised at first as he didn't see me coming. Oh...
- "Sorry... Maybe you don't like hugs. I shouldn't..." I begin to say as I step back from him. However, he rapidly stops me by wrapping his arms around me, blocking me from backing away. I feel him hiding his face in my neck while his long arms engulf me tightly against him. The warmth coming from this hug feels just so right.
- "I can't believe you actually looked for me... What were you thinking? You could have gotten hurt." He whispers in my neck, sounding like he doesn't understand me, yet, like he doesn't blame me either. Always worrying for me...
- "I just wanted to see you... To be with you... I'm... I needed to see you for real and not just through a screen... I needed more than exchanging messages. I know it's super selfish of me, especially since you're wanted, but... I'm so scared, Jake. I just..." I admit to the boy, whispering back to him with nervousness in my voice. Jake tightens his embrace even more as I get on my tiptoes to have a better hold onto him.
- "I'm so glad you're here, MC. Honestly. But you put yourself in great danger by coming here." He whispers to me, sounding worried for me. As always... But not for himself?
- "I don't care about the danger, Jake. I saw enough to face it... And I care more about you then I care for myself..." I whisper back sincerely.
- "We should go inside." He suggests to me, interrupting me. I didn't reply back and simply nodded as I pulled away from him. The two of us walked inside the motel room before Jake closed and locked the door behind us. Safety first. Inside it's... Kind of as I expected. A little messy, but very geeky and boyish. The bed isn't done, the shutters are shut, his computer stuff is all set up and the kitchen sink is half full with throw away food. Well, at least, the room has a very small kitchen... "I apologize for the mess... I didn't know you were coming and... Well, I don't usually receive people so..." He tells me nervously as he begins to clean a bit to make some room.
- "It's okay, Jake. It's just a room." I reply to him with a soft smile as the mess is honestly the last thing I worry about. The boy nods before he moves towards his bed. I watch him making it a bit before he points at it.
- "I don't have any chair left, so if you want to make yourself comfortable..." He tells me with a rather shy tone. I smile and thank him before taking a seat on his bed. Honestly... I'm still not sure why I'm really here. I mean besides the fear, what is my reason? Jake...
- "Jake?" He looks at me, humming softly. I don't know why, but I have this feeling as if we've known each other for years. It's just simple and natural. Yes, we're a little nervous but it's not... Uncomfortable or embarrassing. "I think there's a lot that we need to talk about... Hannah, Richy, the group, the theories, those guys after you... Us", I tell the boy with seriousness despite the shy tone heard in my voice. I don't know why I became so shy suddenly. Why am I being this shy? We talked together for months, we care about each other like we've known each other forever... And I feel more than comfortable with him so why this sudden shyness? The geeky boy weakly nods understandingly even though I can tell it was a reluctant nod. Safety first, I know... But I deserve answers too. Jake sits on the floor before me as he lets a small sigh out. Though, it wasn't an annoyed one. It sounded nervous...
Believe it or not, we spent the whole night talking together. First, it was about the group, Hannah, and Richy. It was harsh because I felt all kinds of emotions as I recalled the attack on Jessy, Dan having an accident, Phil getting arrested, Richy dying in front of me... And more. However, it quickly drifted to us when he saw that I was still having a hard time talking about all of this. I asked him questions to know a little more about him like What is his favorite color? What is his favorite thing to do besides computers? What animal does he like best?... Random questions. But I didn't want to ask anything concerning him being wanted. I know I probably should have, but I finally have Jake before me. I can touch him and talk to him, hear his beautiful and soothing voice... I was scared he might not like it and just throw me out... What if he did throw me out, and I got somewhere to rest for the night and when I came back here the next day, he would have been gone? I would have been devastated. Really. I'm not sure Jake realizes how much he means to me. This idiot became absolutely everything to me even though we met under odd circumstances and unexpectedly. I like to think he chose me... That's how we got in contact. But then, I remember that he actually managed to get in contact with me because I apparently know Hannah. Anyway, while having small talk with Jake, I joined him on the floor. I let my back rest against the bed to face him. I wish he could... Oh! Jake moves closer and comes sitting next to me. He's so close... I look up at him, needing to lift my head despite sitting down. His eyes are incredibly blue... It's a crime to have such mesmerizing eyes and not be able to show it to the world. I smile at the boy, feeling warm, comfortable, at ease... At home. I feel at home with him next to me. Jake smiles back at me as his eyes fall on my lips. Oh, don't do that... My heart! I look at his lips as well as I feel the tension coming in between us. He's hesitant... He seems unsure. Suddenly, Jake lowers his head and gently grabs my hand into his. At first, he was delicately stroking the palm of my hand before he interlocked our fingers together. He gives a firm hold before I watch him lifting my hand toward his face. He places a kiss on the back of my hand, making my heart skip a bit before racing. He's making me go crazy by this simple gesture...
Three days later
Jake and I are in front of his computer, looking for more answers and clues. Honestly, this is gibberish to me. I watch him do his stuff but I don't understand a single thing. But let me tell you one thing... It looks incredibly cool!
I am on my phone, communicating with the group in Duskwood. Thomas and Jessy are fine, thank God! I was honestly worried sick! I think Jake could tell because of how much I talked and paced around in the room... Well, we all deal with fear and stress differently.
- "Jessy and Thomas are okay. They had the biggest fear of their life but they're okay." I inform Jake with a happy smile before looking at him. Oh... The boy is resting completely on his chair, staring at me with a smile. I'm not sure if he is in deep thoughts or... Daydreaming, maybe? Or...? How long has he been staring at me this way? "Jake? You're staring" I say with a playful and soft laugh as I see his eyes devouring my face. They're sparkling.
- "I know, MC." He answers as he plays with his chair, slowly going left to right. My smile grows wider as I feel my cheeks burning. "Am I not allowed to stare at your fair face?" He says so gently and charmingly. Oh... Someone is opening up a little more to me. I look back up at him, letting a chuckle out. He makes me so nervous...
- "Of course, you can." I answer as all I feel right now is the need to feel his lips onto mine. I don't know what they taste like. I don't know how soft they are. All I know is how warm his hugs feel. But I'm so scared to make the first move... "Well... I think I'm going to get some juice. Want something?" I tell him while standing up. I am just trying to get away from this nervous moment before my heart gives up and my face melts from the blush.
- "No, I'm good. Thank you, MC." He replies with that same splendid smile. I nod and go to the kitchen.
I leave his side and go to the mini fridge. Well, since we're in a motel room, everything is in the same room. In my back, I feel Jake's eyes burning me. I grab the multivitamin juice and go to the cabinet above the sink. Jake did the dishes last night... I opened it and... Where are the two glasses? I close it and open the second one. Empty... What? Frowning confused, I open both doors and take a step back. Are you kidding me? The glasses are on the very top shelf, where I cannot reach them. I slowly turn my head on the left as I hear a chuckle. This idiot... Jake is still playing on his chair, having his head title on the side while smiling. Stop being this cute, oh my God...! I smile and shake my head negatively.
- "Are you underestimating me, Jake? Watch me." I tell him playfully as I approach the sink. I carefully climb on it, get on my knees and stretch my arms to grab the two glasses. Alright... I put them on the lowest shelf before carefully getting down. I take a glass and finally close the cabinet before pouring myself a juice. I close the bottle and turn around to go put it back in the fridge when I suddenly collide into something... Someone. Jake is standing before me, looking down at me with soft eyes. What...? He takes the bottle from my hand and puts it next to the sink. At the same time, he pushes my glass a little bit on the side. God, he is so near me... "Jake, what are you doing?" I ask him in a whisper. The boy doesn't answer. Instead, he just bends over a little while wrapping his arms around me. So tight... I snake my arms around him as well, resting my head into the crook of his neck. I close my eyes, enjoying and loving this feeling.
- "How do you do this, MC?" He asks me in a whisper, sounding confused. Do... What?
- "What do you mean?" I ask him, unsure and confused. Though, I don't get any answer from him again. Jake pulls away slowly, this hesitation seen in his eyes again. "You're okay?" I demand him, which makes him look away. What...? What happened? Why is he suddenly acting this way? "Jake, did something happen? Did the government locate you? Did I say...?" I didn't have time to finish talking when I got cut abruptly... But softly. Jake has his hands cupping my face as he crashes his lips onto mine. Oh God... How do I breathe again? It's a simple kiss, but God, it's so soft and meaningful. Jake pulls away, keeping his face closed to mine. No... I get on my tiptoes, cup the back of his neck with my hands, pulling him back for a kiss. The boy was surprised but he instantly melted. Jake answers to my kiss, our lips moving in synch. They match perfectly. With his body he pushes me until I collide on the small counter next to the kitchen sink. He slowly bends down, never breaking the kiss before feeling him lifting me up. He places me on the counter as the kiss shares our mutual love for each other. After a long moment, we pull away from the kiss, catching our breath, our head resting on each other's shoulder.
- "I never want you to leave, MC. I know I'm nil when it comes to expressing my feelings but... I just..." he whispers seriously and sincerely, feeling his lips delicately brushing my neck. He seems to struggle to say what he wants to say.
- "I don't want to leave, Jake. I want to stay with you. I want to be with you." I whisper back sincerely.
- "I want to be with you too... So much... For so long." He whispers as he pulls his head up to look at me. His arms are still holding me as if he is scared someone will rip me from him. "I don't just want us to work together anymore. Even if I shouldn't because that'll put you in danger... But I want more. Ever since I started talking with you. I want more of you. I apologize for my selfishness, MC..." He whispers to me sincerely, sticking his forehead over mine. His voice is so soft even when he whispers.
- "Jake..." I call him as I place my hand on his cheek. "My battles became yours the day you entered my life. You're always there to help me. Let me do the same for you. You know I'm strong. You know I can deal with lots of things. You know I want to help you and be with you. And you know I love you." Jake pulls his head away to look into my eyes. "I know you don't want me in danger and I know you don't want me involved in those things." I watch him lower his head as he frowns sadly. "But I'll always be there for you. I might not know much about all of this, but I'll learn. For you. I am willing to go through anything just to be with you, Jake. If we're together, we're safe." I gently whisper to the boy, noticing how unsure he still is. I just want to make sure he feels alright with this, and not constantly scared for me.
- "It doesn't just work like this, MC. I don't want to steal a peaceful life you could have..." He says with the same serious and sincere voice, always sounding so soft. He sounds so sad all of a sudden... I open my eyes and, even with his forehead sticking to mine, I notice that his are closed.
- "I think it's kind of up to me to choose which life I want to live." I replied to the boy. Jake nods, knowing he has no power over my will this time. He lets a small sigh out, powerless. "I made my choice. I choose to be with you. Now it's yours. If you want me to stay, I'll stay. But if you don't, then, I promise I'll be gone tomorrow morning." I whisper to him, my heart beginning to race. I frown sadly and with fear as Jake stays silent before me. I know that I placed him in a delicate position. But I can't force him to have a relationship with me if he feels stuck because of him being wanted. Uncertain, Jake passes his hand through his hair while looking away. Why do I feel like I'm losing him all of a sudden? It was going so well... "Jake..." I call him softly, fear heard in my voice. Fear to lose him...
- "Do you promise to always be there? That... If we have to leave in only a minute, you'll follow me? That you can live like a criminal, needing to constantly hide? To live and carry a secret with you forever? Accepting to move around often?" He asks me nervously, frowning with seriousness. He sounds so hesitant and nervous.
- "Of course, I know what it means if I'm with you. I told you..." I began to tell him.
- "MC... There is no going back after that." He whispers while shaking his head negatively, his ocean eyes plunged into mines.
- "I know... I know, Jake. But stop trying. You won't scare me away." I whisper while nodding. The two of us share a long glance, showing him my seriousness from the choice I already made. He nods as well before taking my hand into his. His are much bigger than mine. He comes back closer to me and kisses me once again. The kiss is just so full of passion and love. It was delicate at first, but then, the pressure that he puts in the kiss makes our feelings deepen. Jake suddenly lifts me up from the counter and I circle my legs around his waist. He makes his way to the bed and lays me down gently as he gets above me. The kiss never broke. I run one of my hands in his hair, messing it, while the other one is running in his back on top of his hoodie. He pulls away from the kiss and goes down my jaw and neck. Our breathings get quickly heavier due to the tension from the moment we share together. I know I am not in his mind or heart, but the way he shows me his love through the kisses, the hugs, and the touch is enough to read him and his feelings. It's another side of Jake that I didn't know.
Jake showers me with lovely kisses before we lay down side by side. His arm is around my shoulders and mine is around his waist, my hand under his hoodie and shirt. I softly run my thumb over his skin. My head is lying on his chest, listening to his heart beating. It's so soothing to hear.
I know it's not going to be easy. I know we'll face tough moments. I know there are high risks that we might get caught. He might get caught... But I love him to a point that I need to be there for him, to protect him, to love him. And I need him with me as well. I can't deny that. If he can do it alone, we can do it as a couple.
Heyy guys!! How are you? 😁 Thank you for reading this first part of this first one shot! 😁 I hope you liked it! I apologize for the mistakes!