Hi! I just want to warn you that this is a sensitive content i advise you to stop reading if you have a weak heart and may this content trigger something. This chapter contains suiciding, self harm, stress,blood,cursing, depression and violence

Senku

- its still going... My body is in pain, i cant take it anymore. All, this wounds keep coming back even if i try to tend it everytime. I can't take it anymore, i cant keep a smile anymore its just so, painful and hard to keep up with a fake smile i plaster on my face everyday. My mind is blank and my body is weak, i grabbed the blade and starts to cut, it might just end my life after the cut on my vein. A cut that will be my freedom, i cant fight anymore... I started to count the cuts. Both arms full of forever curse that will hold me back to live... 1...8...15...27...33...50 . Blood flowing through my arm and it just keep flowing. The blade on my right hand just fell and a pool of blood had formed on the cold tiles of my bathroom. I cant stand anymore neither live... I'm sorry senku i can't keep on living. Just as i was about to pass out i heard the door bang open. The last thing i remember is hearing a voice I'd be longing to hear for..
-senku panted as he saw his lover who is sitting on the corner of the tub holding a bloody blade. His eyes run through her left arm that is full of cuts some are old and there's a lot of news. His breathe hicked at the sight of his s/o."(NAME)!! (NAME)!! PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME!! I AM BEGGING YOU PLEASE!!"Senku rushed over to his s/o as he checked your heartbeat and pulse. He felt his eyes watering after hearing that its getting slower and weaker, he immediately called an ambulance and carried you out praying that you will survive no he believes that you will survive.

Gen

-I'm tired... I shouldn't have been borned, i am worthless and pathetic. I can't keep up with life anymore. I just wished i could just die and be free from all the pain. I let out a sigh and grabbed the rope. I tied it up and hang it on the balcony, i stood up from the chair attempting to die with such a beautiful view. I am sorry gen i failed you, i failed as a good girlfriend. I hang my head taking a deep breath and kicked the chair beneath me. I felt the rope tightens and cutting my airpath. I felt a large head ache and feeling suffocated. I felt my heart beating so loud and only my eyes are focusing on the lights of the city. Just as i was to blackout and completely not breath i felt myself getting lifted up and the rope that is on my neck being removed giving me a chance to breath. "(Name) you dummy how could you be so selfish? You didn't think how depressed i will be if you are gone... Tell me what's happening please. Open up for me, i can be here for you. I will give you hugs and i can become you human pillow that will hold your tears and give you warmth just tell me please don't end your life please" gen sobbed hardly as his tears fell down on your paled face that is slowly coming back to normal. "Gen... Love" i felt my throat dry and hurt its hard to speak after getting my throat crushed. Gen picked me up and grabbed a water bottle not dropping me once. He just holded me as if his life was depended on it, not once he didn't stopped crying and sobbing a mess. I felt the guilt rushed throat my body causing me to breakdown as he just held me tight comforting me.

Ukyo

-my life was really stressful. I just wanted to disappear and die. I can't anymore. No matter how hard i try, i can't be good enough. I sacrificed everything but still not good enough. I felt worthless and pathetic. I can't just depend my life on ukyo, he is busy too, he is also stressed and tired. I can't let him be more stressed on me when he is already working hard and putting a lot of effort on our relationship. I am scared, tired, numb and my anxiety just growed even more when i found out that i had failed the test. My parents will disown me and they will call me a failure, lazy, worthless, pathetic, bitch, whore, slut and even more names. I can't reach their expectations, i can't be the perfect daughter, i can't be the girl who will fulfill your prides. I haved been fighting over my depression, anxiety, mental health issues and anger issues. I just want to die. I looked up seeing the beautiful view from up the 70 floors building. I was about to jump when the door opened behind me revealing ukyo who is panting heavily and tears running on his face. "(NAME) BABY!!! PLEASE I AM BEGGING YOU WITH MY WHOLE LIFE DON'T JUMP PLEASE I- I DONT KNOW WHAT WILL I DO WITHOUT YOU!! THE FACT YOU GAVE ME SUCH A HAPPINESS THAT I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD FEEL. PLEASE LOVE DON'T DIE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH PLEASE (NAME)" ukyo shouted with all his heart out and then breaking down with his knees weakning. The sight was unbearable and (name) quickly jump down to give ukyo a hug. "I'm sorry ukyo. Please forgive me, I'm sorry that i made you feel this way I'm sorry that i made you worried I'm sorry that i hurted you" as (name) sobbed ukyo pulled her into a warm hug she'd been longing wanted to feel again. She did not hesitate to hug back and let out a loud cries and sobbing on ukyo, which ukyo did not care he just wanted to hold (name) and not let go.

Tsukasa

-he was my hero and he was the one who saved me from my suicidal attempts. He is there for me when the times i needed him the most, he gave me a soft comforting hug that i loved the most, and mostly he gave me the love i never felt. I have been abused by my family wanting me to be oh so perfect daughter. But the pressure they are giving are unbearable they will go "be like your sister! A beauty"" be like your brother! A genius!""be like your cousin! A great artist! "" be like your mother! A successful woman! " its all be like this and be like that. I dont understand why... I haved developed a depression but they made fun of it saying I'm dramatic and being silly but in reality i am fighting to live. However when they found out my boyfriend was tsukasa they hated him and banned him to communicate to me. He had no choice but to follow but on the other hand when we we're at school he would give me cuddles and have lunch with me. But that ended when my family found out he was also studying there. They moved me away from him and now here i am... In the middle of the road waiting to be killed. Just as about the truck hit me i was suddenly flying left and what shocks me that it was tsukasa who had dragged me out of the road and just held me close.

Chrome

-i felt my breath stopping from all the anxiety building up. All the insecurities are eating me. All those words that hurt me and breaks my heart are running through my head nonstop. I just wished to bury myself alive and die for freedom. I can't take it anymore and i certainly cannot ignore it due to my anxiety. I was planning to drink all this pills so i can just stop the pain. I took a sleeping pill and cannot stop myself from drinking it all again. As i almost finished the whole bottle i blacked out and feeling nothing. Chrome came with such a worried look and he felt his heart stop from what is he seeing. He knew this is serious and he looked at the bottle that you we're holding and felt himself burst into tears. He immediately called an ambulance and hugged your unconscious body. He felt his world breaking apart and his eyes that we're once sparkly, it was now dull and colorless.

Hyoga

-those words stabbed me on my heart. Those painful kicks and punches I'd receive every time my college class ends. Those tears id shed but bottle it up. The anxiety id been feeling and fearing. It was nonstop, the stress and depression isn't helping either. I can't fight anymore. I am giving up, the thread of my life is cutted. Just like i cut my skin like paper, just like how my mind breaks as i we're used to it. Just like the drugs I'd been taking. A pain killer would do. It will stop the pain temporaryly but at least i wont feel it. I would numb everything to keep a fake smile that everyone will be fooled of. I grabbed the knife and was about to push it on my heart  when it was suddenly flied somewhere. I opened my eyes seeing him. My boyfriend who had a widened eyes. Tears are about to spill out. "Please don't continue what you're planning (name)" he said and pulled me into a hug letting me cry on his chest.

Kinro

-i dont feel worthy at all. Why did someone had to love an imperfect bitch like me. I had the worst attitude and everyone hates me. I am not smart as others and not brave as others. I just noone. I am not pretty. I just felt like not existing anymore. I saw a needle and grabbed a bleach. And man this is scary but if i want to be free from a cruel world like this i have to do it. I have to, sacrifice myself to be free, i grabbed the needle that has bleach on it. I push it on my skin but suddenly the door was broken and kinro who was holding a baseball bat. (NAME) GET IT OUT OF YOU I DONT WANNA LOSE YOU PLEASE I MAY BE A TSUNDERE BUT PLEASE I DENY THAT YOU WILL DIE! JUST TELL ME EVERYTHING AND WE WILL FIX THIS ALL PLEASE STOP! " Kinro cried and grabbed the needle that is inside your skin and removed it carefully not wanting to press that stick. He hugged you and kissed your forehead letting you break down on him.

Ginro

- its painful. I cannot smile anymore. I cannot pretend anymore. I have been bullied after knowing that i have such a marks on the back of my knees and my arms. To be exact I've been really insecure on my body. Due to my bones being large than a normal teen i have been bullied and calling me names like pig, fattie and ugly. I have been different from others since i was borned. My metabolism is slow and i like to eat. My family are forcing me to go on a diet which i did but ended up having weak body and cannot stand at all. I felt weak and pathetic. I just wanted to end all the pain with just a peace of blade it will end. Countless cuts that has been on my body and countless bruises snd wounds. I was about to slice my neck when ginro came in crying with his eyes out. "(NAME) MY LOVE PLEASE STOP I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU!!! YOU ALWAYS CHEER ME UP  WHEN I WAS SAD BUT PLEASE THIS TIME LET ME BE THE ONE TO MAKE YOU FEEL HAPPY!!!! I LOVE YOU PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME" Kinro shouted and hugged you like a koala he letted you cry on him and petted you.

Ryuusui

-everything is taken away from me. My money, love ones, stability and place. I felt my world drop as i was replaced as top 2 on the list where the smartest came. Everyone was expecting me to be the first again but i disappointed everyone. Its been like this for years and only him comforted me. But i cannot take the pressure and my body. I was weak and scared of what is gonna happen at home. If i come back I'm pretty sure mom and dad is gonna beat me up near to death but why not just die? After all everyone is gonna leave me after using me. I looked at the gas and a lighter. I should burn myself so i can let out this emotions. I grabbed the gas and poured it around me. I grabbed the lighter snd was about to fall when he came. "(NAME) DONT DO THIS. YOU DONT KNOW HOW SAD I WILL BE!! PLEASE LET'S TALK THIS OUT!!! YOU CAN LIVE WITH ME AND NOT LET ANY HARM COME NEAR YOU!!! JUST PLEASE DON'T DO THIS THROW THAT LIGHTER AWAY!!!! I LOVR YOU (NAME) PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU" ryuusui panicked at the sight and runs to you. He hugged you and drag you out of the barn you've been hiding. He lets you cry on his shoulder as he tries to stop his tears but it kept flowing.

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