"hey! i.. take it back uh.. let's not go to the haunted house.." i said as i looked at yedam
"why?" he asked
"just.."

you are going to die there..

yedam gets impaled by a sharp edged rod by accidently tripping on one of the wires.

"im scared" i said even though i dont get scared of haunted houses 
"really? what happened to all the 'im not a scardy cat talk'?" he asked
"i..."

gosh why is this so freaking hard..

"and what are you looking at on your phone anyway?" yedam asked

he's catching on..

"let's go to the bumping cars instead" i said and yedam looked at me, his face filled with suspicion
"why?"
"as i said.. i dont want to go to the haunted house"
"but why? you were the one who wanted to-"
"i dont want to now! im scared okay?" i said and i felt my face burn up from embarrassment for acting like im admitting that i hate scary stuff.
yedam stared at me for a while but then laughed and i pouted
"hey shut up.. pabo" i said and yedam laughed even more
"ahh lord okay geez alright.. i didnt think you'd admit to things like this" yedam said while smirking and i rolled my eyes

alright.. he's safe for now..

i checked with the fanfiction again just to make sure there was nothing that would kill yedam in the bumping car ride.

"oh damn.. this is crowded with more couples than childern" yedam said and i laughed
"it's almost nighttime so yeah im not surprised" i said 
we then went in the ring and picked a purple car and yedam let me drive first.
"fun fact i suck at driving" i said as i put on my seat belts 
"so we are dying together huh? how romantic" 
"very romantic indeed, now hold on tight or you will be the one dying alone" 
"yes ma'am" 

and we played around with the other couples and we are really good at bumping cars if i do say so myself.

"and that only means that you are a horrible driver.. because you bumped into everyone" yedam said 
"yah! let me just feel proud of myself for a moment will you?" i said and yedam laughed
"mhm, im proud of you" yedam said as he patted my head and that took me by surprise, i felt butterflies in my stomach.
"y-yeah! anyways! it's getting late.." i said and yedam looked at the sky which was now pitch black
"do you wanna go back?" he asked with disappointment written all over his face
"we can go for another ride if you want" i said and yedam immediately showed his gummy smile in approval and i giggled to myself at his cuteness
"where do you want to go?" i asked him
"there" yedam said as he pointed to something and i looked to where he was pointing to see the ferris wheel.
"ah.." i trailed off

is it dangerous? should i just pull out my phone and look it up..

"how about we go to the photobooth before that?" i asked and he looked at me confused again
"why?"
"yah! i want to take pictures with my bias, dont complain" i said and yedam laughed immediately
"i'm your bias?" he asked and i nodded
"of course you are! you are bang yedam after all" i said and he laughed even more
"do you want an autograph then?" he asked and i stopped on my tracks and looked at him.
"will you?" i asked and he smiled immediately
"of course! but let's take the picture first like you said" yedam said and i nodded. and just like that we went to the photo booth and took a few pictures together.

"you're so freaking cute" yedam said as he pointed at one of our pictures and i immediately blushed 
"d-dont say that" i said and yedam simply smiled at me
"a-anyway.. i dont have a pen" i said and yedam looked at me confused for a moment
"ah for the autograph?" he asked and i nodded
"i'll ask for a pen at the store then" he said and i simply nodded and he went over to a shop nearby 

damn how eventful could this day get?

i got to meet yedam.. go to an amusement park with him.. take pictures with him.. and an autograph now..

but all of this happened because of the fanfiction that i read..

the fanfiction..

wait-

i checked the fanfiction again and this time there was an extra paragraph.

i immediately ran into the shop and i spotted yedam who was asking the cashier for a pen.

"damie!" i said as i immediately back hugged him and the cashier looked at the both of us weird.
yedam didnt say anything but just borrowed the pen from the cashier and dragged me out of the shop.
"what was that all about?" he asked as soon as we were out.

he was going to get injected with drugs by the person who was standing a few feet behind him.

"i-i... missed you" i immediately felt myself going beet red after saying something like that out.
"really now? i legit just went to borrow a pen" he said while chuckling a little

that was such a stupid thing to say- what do i say now?

"i.. dont want to leave you after tonight" i said and yedam suddenly stopped smiling and looked at me
"why?" he asked
"why do you always ask why? is that why 'wayo' was your first single?" i asked and yedam laughed 
"i do ask a lot of 'why's huh? just a habit i guess" he said and i chuckled

"i dont want to leave you because.. i dont know if i'll ever see you again.. and maybe it's just the teume in me that i want to talk to you and spend time with you again but i also.. want to be real friends with you and not just a stranger you went out to an amusement park with today or a normal teume" i said and yedam didnt reply, he simply stared at me

"you know.. this was supposed to be the day i escaped reality" yedam said and i turned to look at him

"which meant.. the day im supposed to die" 

i immediately flinched hearing that.

"i wanted to kill myself but.. i couldn't.. i wished that i'd somehow get into an accident or.. get poisoned by someone or get stabbed by something or.. even get drugs injected into me by a random person.."

i cant believe what im hearing..

it's exactly everything that was there in the fanfiction..

"but i didnt.. and instead.."

yedam turned to look at me and i looked into his eyes which showed an emotion that i couldn't read.

"i found a reason to live" he said with a smile on his face now

"and.. what is it?" 

"you"

it was just a word with three letters in it.. but it held too many strong emotions into it. yedam found me, i was his reason.

"so.. i don't want to leave my reason behind either" he said 

and then i burst out into tears just by hearing yedam saying wayyy too many emotional stuff and when i say yedam panicked i mean he PANIK when he saw me crying.

"you can't just say emotional stuff like this and expect me to not cry" i argued and yedam laughed as he wiped away my tears and i leaned into his chest and he let me stay there.
"im sorry y/n.. but thanks" he said and i hit him in the chest 

"i was so scared that you might actually end it- you- you are really stupid! i know it's hard but you still have so much that you can do.. you- you are you! bang yedam! you were the symbol of positivity for the group! even if it was hard for you- you should have asked help from someone.. anyone.. the members, your mom and dad.. anyone- just- why would you-"

"it was too much for me and everyone else around me as well.. i cant go for help to someone who was already suffering"

"but- taking your life is- you- you cant just do that.. you are important to so many people and most of all you need yourself for facing a situation like that.. you cant let yourself go just like this.. i- i would have been devastated if i knew you died" 

yedam didn't say anything else and only hugged me instead, letting me sob and cry quietly.

"you good?" yedam asked once noticed that i stopped sobbing
"pabo" i mumbled as i lifted my head from his shirt to look at him and he smiled at me again
"i heard that you know"
"good to know because that's what you are" i said and yedam laughed
"im sorry, but not the bright side.. i have a reason now" he said and i simply just smiled and nodded
"im not going to let you die on everyone like that" 
"i wouldnt let myself die on you either" he said and i sighed in relief hearing that.

"so are you still up for the ferris wheel?" yedam asked and i nodded while laughing
"where is my autograph huh?" 
"oh yeah.. where do you want me to sign?" 
"anywhere?"
"what? on your forehead?"
"somewhere permanent idiot"
"how about i do it on your hoodie?" 
"inside my hoodie, because i like this hoodie"
"hey you could flex about getting my autograph if i did it outside"
"hell no! do it on the inside"
"alright.. i'll write something else with it as well" he said and i looked at him confused and i then tried to look at what he was writing but no avail
yedam then put the hoodie on me since he didnt trust me to put it on myself without looking at the inner side of the hoodie.

"alright now that's done! ferris wheel!" yedam said and i chuckled and i followed him to the ferris wheel.
we got on it as soon as we went there since it was pretty much near the closing time and we were pretty much the only ones there apart from some other people.
when the cart rose up slowly we got to see the city lights and buildings with many cars and buses running around.

"it's really pretty isn't it?" i asked and yedam nodded
"the sky is even more prettier.. look" yedam said as he pointed towards the sky which was filled with many stars.
"woah there are usually no stars at all here.." i said as i watched the stars in awe
"hey" i turned to look at yedam who was staring at me
"what?"
"can i hug you?" he suddenly asked and i felt my face heat up and my heart beat faster than ever.

gosh im probably blushing like a mad women now..

"yeah"

and yedam came over to my side and carefully wrapped his arms around his waist and i wrapped my arms around his neck and buried my head into his chest.

"you are very warm.." he mumbled and if i wasn't blushing hard before then i am now, all i felt was butterflies in my stomach.
"your heart is beating fast" i said as i heard his heart beat and yedam chuckled
"is it strange?" 
"no.. because.. mine are beating fast as well" 

"can i.. kiss you then?"

and then i lost it right there.

"you dont have to ask me that pabo" i said as i lifted my head from his chest and looked at yedam and yedam immediately smirked as he came closer to my face and finally closed the gap by sealing a kiss.

it wasn't rushed. it was slow and passionate. 

it felt right.

yedam detached his lips from mine and looked at me.

"how was it?" he asked and i came back to my senses and hit him lightly 
"what do you mean how was it? was it some dish or something to ask me that?"
"hey im a man who takes feedbacks every now and then"
"way to ruin the mood"
"we can always get back into it ya know"
"aish bang yedam.." i said and yedam laughed
"you did like it didn't you?"
"yah stop it!"
"i didnt expect you to be a good kisser though.. you taste like the ice cream that we ate"
"bang yedam!"

and when we got outside the ferris wheel we both knew that this was the end of our night.

midnight.

wait-

i immediately took out my phone and looked for the fanfiction and.. it was gone..

the fanfiction was gone..

"i think we should go and catch the bus before it's too late" yedam said and i nodded feeling relieved that the fanfiction was gone but also sad that i have to let go of yedam now.
we both walked to the bus stop while having little chats as always and yedam gave me his number.. i got my bias' autograph, number and a photo!
we both waited around and once the bus arrived we went over and took our spots and we both rode the bus in silence.
once the bus stopped we immediately knew it was our stop and we both got out of the bus.

"do you want me to walk you home?" yedam asked as soon as we got out
"wait.. where do you live anyway?" i asked 
"a hotel room"
"ahh.. well you might want to get there i think.. we've had enough for today" i said and yedam pouted but he nodded
"i will be staying here for a few more days though since i also have summer vacation just like you so feel free to call me yeah?" he said and i chuckled
"we will meet up tomorrow then! i'll introduce you to my cousin and we can just have a lazy day tomorrow!"
"sounds fun, let's meet up then"
"yeah alright.. so.. see you?" i said and yedam simply stared at me and then pulled me by my hand and cupped my face and kissed me again.

this time was a bit more desperate than passionate but it still felt right.. i found myself wrapping my arms around him and he did the same.
he then let go of me after a while and looked into my eyes.

"we will meet tomorrow right?" he asked and i laughed at him
"geez of course we will! dont miss me too much eh?" i said as i moved away from him and he laughed
"i'll try not too"
"alright then.. im going for reals"
"mhm.. see you.. y/n" 

and that's how my day ended with meeting yedam and getting to kiss him.

damn it really does sound like it's out of a fanfiction doesnt it?

"your creator is such a tease my lord" i said as i held yedee in my arms and thought about all the times yedam teased me throughout the day.
"such an idiot.." i said as i looked at my posters filled with treasure memes and i looked at yedam's poster near my hanger which had the hoodie on it.

oh wait.. the hoodie..

i immediately dropped yedee and went over to grab my hoodie and i fliped it inside out to see what he wrote inside of it.

it was his signature on top and a message at the bottom.

"call me crazy but i'm falling for you.. thank you for being there with me today, i had loads of fun and im glad i met you! i hope to see you again..

-damie"

he's falling for me?

"DSHGFHSFJHJ YEDEE YOUR FATHER IS FALLING FOR ME" i yelled as i hugged yedee again and started fangirling all over again.
"did you see a cockroach?" my mom yelled for downstairs and i rolled my eyes
"saw something even better" i mumbled to myself as i continued to fangirl at the message

and that's now our chaotic story began with the weirdest most horrible fanfiction ever..