Hi Again,

Two updates on same day.

At the end of this chapter few may search tissue and few search knife to kill me after reading this chapter. But do mention what you searched in comments box.

And next chapter will be the last one again with little drama and then both Manan's alone time in his guest house ends.

I have updated 38 and 39, make sure you read in order.

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"Like I wanted to become astronaut, my appa's ambition, and dream is to become a collector. He was adamant not marry till he become a collector but my grandfather's last wish to see my appa getting married before he die. Abi's appa who is younger than my appa got married few years and my appa's only child of my grandfather who has not married and that's how Abi is older than me though his appa is younger to my appa. He wrote the entire exam and cleared all those exams. I was three years old, when my appa received selection letter from government to attend training for Collector. That was the time when my so called relatives filed case claiming our property as theirs and the case go for years that we left with no penny and our property was under the court. To add more, I met accident and need huge amount to operate and he need to choose between me and his dream and he chose me over his dream. He borrowed money and worked under him to repay. We won the case after few years, and the property so huge but it didn't help at the correct time. I felt so guilty even I was not whole reason not to pursue his dream but I gave up my dream"

There was silence and tension in the air. I felt difficult to breathe that I doubt that the air around us become thick.

"There is still long list like military officer, athelet, archaeologist. But Software engineer is never in the list but that is what now I am." I gave a smile pushing the tears back into my eyes.

"Don't push the tears Nandhini, sometimes you need to let things out instead of wearing that I AM STRONG mask"

"I was never in place to share anything, my two best friends were so understanding and no need to let things out especially letting thing will hurt them more than already they are. They both were so sorry and I don't want to add more weight to it. And Abi, he was so helpless as he cannot support by going against my appa."

"Your appa was so stubborn". He told the fact.

"Yes indeed but the stone heart deliquesce at the end seeing my stubborn but I was the one who choose to give up my dream and we both are not in talking term till now"

"You and your appa are not talking more than five years?"

"Six years and eight months"

"You said you were the one who gave up and he agreed for the internship, then why you both are not talking?"

"He never said in words that he is ready to send me to internship but I know my appa very well that he is accepted to internship but I also understand that he was struck between my dream and my relations. Those people are already waiting a chance for bad mouthing about my family and my appa didn't want them to give reason for that. I understood his dilemma and gave up but bottom of my heart it still hurts now that he didn't support me without dilemma that too from my appa who undergoes the same pain as mine. He knows how exactly it hurts when giving up dream but still he didn't support me."

I know I am stubborn head and adamant which is wrong but I cannot change it.

"But he didn't oppose when Amms informed that I wanted to go to Chennai to search job instead my mother who did the drama. But guess what, my appa convinced my mother which was surprising. In my whole life, I have not seen my mother uttering a word against my appa's decision. She is always a trademark wife that every man wanted but that was first time in history of Bhargavi and Murthy's, she said no after my appa said yes. I was ready to pull my famous stunts but she accepted without any of it."

I suddenly felt that the pain I withheld for six year and eight months melting down and relaxed once he side hugged me and placed my head on his shoulder.

19/10/2017