*Lyrics*

Happy Never After by Meagan and Liz (YouTube)

•I thought we'd always be happy.

•I thought you'd always be good for me.

•I guess I was wrong.

•And you get to be my happy, happy, happy never after.

*End of Lyrics*

In a way I think Nick limits everything I do now.

I used to just easily talk to guys, even if I didn't like them. Just as buddies.

Now it just seems like I fear them thinking I like them and that I'm some desperate girl.

Is that how Nick looked at me?

A desperate girl who wouldn't stop talking to him, that he just asked out to shut up.

I can practically hear the voices saying "Don't think that Selena!" or "He was just a douche that said those things to get to you."

But I can't help but also listen to that voice saying, "But you are that desperate. Willing to let Sarah keep asking if he likes you? No wonder he thought you were desperate."

Come on we all have that stupid, partially realistic voice in the back of our mind.

Yesterday, April 23,2013 I saw him.

Nick, for the first time since our trip almost a week ago.

And it wasn't a pleasant time.

"Ah! Seth!" he exaggerated.

I rolled my eyes.

I even clench my jaw just thinking about it.

But I haven't seen him all day and I was determined to keep it that way.

I was in science. My favorite class because well...

"Come on Selena let's find a seat." Kevin said, putting an arm around me. We got new table arrangements.

I stood there with a goofy grin and took his arm off. "Funny." I laughed.

God I loved his arm around me. But no one could know I enjoyed it. I'd never live it down.

He ended up sitting behind me. Kevin's always kinda behind me huh? Hahaha.

We talked a lot.

Just random things.

"Hondo's being all pissy since I told him off yesterday. He's just a cry baby." He whispered to me, brown eyes piercing into mine. God he'd be the death of me.

"You just noticed that?" I laughed.

"Well no but..." he trailed on, laughing.

Hondo looked at me. I scrunched my eyebrows together.

Kevin started talking again, putting his head in the way of my view of Hondo.

I started laughing.

Kevin looked at me oddly.

"Sorry it's just- you were talking about him and- you just- never mind." I laughed.

I have no idea why its funny.

The bell rang. I guess seeing Nick ruined my day a bit but it can always get brighter...

***

4-25-13

Today was not the day Nick Carter.

You f*ck with me today I swear to God you'll regret it.

I mean god I can't even walk the goddamn stairs without getting insulted by you or Seth!

That's pathetic. Seriously Nick I mean we've been over for 2 months. Get over me.

Or whatever the hell keeps you tormenting me.

I hate how he can ruin my mood.

I was in a pretty annoyed mood already from a few agonizing people at the health fair.

We had to go to the health fair for school.

Some people were just annoying and we're now screwed for the next 5 weeks or more specifically, 21 days.

A stupid kid was jacking around with a service dog.

But no, also a few kids have to throw pencils at cars.

Dear god please let there be at least 3 students to tell who it was. Jesus...

I walked up the stairs to 4th hour.

"Oh..Ah!" Nick said as soon as he saw me.

I clenched my fists on the rail and stopped in my tracks.

"Grow up!" I hissed.

He stopped and looked up.

"Screw off!" I snapped before continuing to walk upstairs.

I sighed. I needed to calm myself.

***

Waiting on the teacher to let us in, Kevin kept touching the top of my head. And I would shove his chest every time.

This went on for a solid two minutes. Okay writing it..sounds stupid.

I was really bored in science today.

So I did a creative way of asking something I've been worried about lately.

"Hey Kevin! Let me see your planner."

"Sure." he said, getting distracted every two seconds.

Finally he handed it to me.

I grabbed a pen and flipped to the date: May 4th.

I wrote on it.

'Selena's birthday!(:

Don't be mean! xx.'

I hesitated with my signature xx (kisses) thing, but he's a guy, he'll never get it.

I stuck two stickers on the date.

A 'Happy Birthday' & a 'My Birthday'

Oh did I forget to mention this?

Kevin and I share birthdays.

But he's exactly 365 days older than me.

On numerous occasions I've been told its cute, romantic, exc. But I think it's flat out Fate being a bitch.

Skylar has even said things like "If you guys get married you would have the same birthday and celebrate together and awe!!"

I mean we've fought for 3-4 years about this whole 'I'm more awesome and more popular' bullshit.

But don't get me wrong, last year a lot of people forgot my birthday, and he sang to me.

(A/N: Want the full story? Read Enemies With Benefits it's a full on Kevin story.)

Anyways I asked him if he liked it in english, our last hour.

"I haven't found it and I looked everywhere."

I resisted saying "Nice job dumbass it's on the next week."

"Give me your planner." I laughed.

Five minutes later...he finally dropped it in front of me.

He just stood by me, waiting.

"What'd she put?" He asked Jo nervously.

"Urm...I don't know." she laughed.

She knew but let it stay a secret.

I handed him the planner.

He held it and squinted his eyes, reading it.

"Oh! Don't worry I won't. I promise." He assured.

"Pinky promise?" I teased.

"Girl I pinky promise with my middle finger." he chuckled.

So no fighting on my- our birthday.

Even though it's on a saturday..(:

***

Don't you hate when you get busted for something?

Most specifically, looking at your crush.

I rotated my Carmel Apple lollipop in my mouth.

"Hey Jo can I wear your glasses?" Kevin asked.

"What's your fascination with trying on girls' glasses?" I blurted. Word vomit. I blame it on that.

"Well what's your fascination with staring at me?" he laughed, leading to everyone laughing with him.

I flushed.

"I don't stare at you!"

"you're doing it right now!" he chuckled.

I groaned.

"Agree to disagree!" Jo shouted.

Earlier in Heath I said "If I had just said agree to disagree with Kevin it would have saved us years of fighting."

"Yeah! Agree to disagree!" I retorted.

"No agree that you like to stare at me!"

"No!"

"No!"

"Stop copying me!"

"Stop copying me!" he mimicked me in a high voice, laughing.

"Jesus Christ!" I groaned.

Jason mimicked me while Kevin said "You're still looking at me!" I groaned.

"Selena's blushing." A girl announced, cupping hands over her mouth to emphasize the noise.

"Am not!" I snapped.

Kevin laughed but it died down.

Great ending to a Friday...not.

~~~~~

Ello my loves(: That last part happened like literally fifteen minutes ago.

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Okay I gotta go! Kevin keeps passing me and sooner or later he'll realize what he said, I'm writing...

Update on As Long As Your Trouble this weekend! (if you read it)

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- Shyanne xx.