My heart feels like it's gonna burst through my chest
As the emotions raging inside me are trying to rip it out

I was so set on something but I was not selected
Feeling as though I've been brushed aside as nothing

Not good enough to have earned a place among them
Putting in so much time and effort only to be told no thanks

How do I overcome this feeling of defeat and self hate
All I keep asking myself is what they wanted that I lack

I've cried so hard over this major disappointment
My souls feels this rejection like a knife cutting deep

What made me think for a minute that I stood a chance
How many things could I have accomplished instead

Time is precious so why did I give so much of it to this
Easy answer because this meant everything to me

My talent was unparalleled in my honest opinion
But now my unshakable confidence has withered away

People tell me I'm a talented actress and singer
The characters I've portrayed give confirmation of their praise

Acting is so liberating to have the ability to become someone else entirely
Singing is a melody on a breeze flowing into waiting ears

Why discount all that for the sake of this one thing
It does not compare to the things I've been cast in

It does not compare to the songs I have sung
So why can't I shake this feeling of depression

Taking a deep breath I'm pulling myself together
Inhale counting to four then exhale counting to five

Having wanted this so bad that I placed my worth in it
I know my worth is not defined by what roles I get

Not found in any solo or duet that I may get to sing
It's found in God so I now acknowledge this in my heart

These past three years I've grown as an actress/singer
The types of characters I can portray are more varied now

My voice has reached a high A note above the staff
I never before would've realized this potential inside me

But someone saw that there was a star waiting to glow
And put me out under a spotlight so I could shine

I will cling to this confidence in myself with both hands
My ambition is great & my desire to be better is strong

My talent speaks for itself & those who know me can see it
So though this meant a lot to me I can't fall apart over it

I know God loves us and is sad when we are sad
But He's got a plan for me that didn't include this

So I will climb out of this valley of despair and hurt
My head will not turn to look back at it

I will look ahead to the things yet to come be they good or bad
Remember not to place my worth on temporary things or things of this world

It will only bring me heartache and ruin my life
So I shall fix my eyes on God and His plan for my life

Entrusting Him with my heart since He'll never break it
Don't let one moment define the rest of your life

Look for joy in the moments of everyday life
Take time to laugh at the good and cry when it's bad

But then pick yourself up off the ground and press on