I can't leave......
My home is not even a home
It's a asylum where I go to be alone

Where my thoughts tell me to die
When I'm there it's like the walls are closing in
Just sinking deeper and deeper into my skin

The line says cut here
I can make it go away.
As the blade gets closer to my skin
It's begging please once again

As blood drips like a flood
On to the floor
That person that once knocked on the door
Ain't there anymore.

Guess he went to get more blades
And left them at the door
So I just grab one

And it's the end.
Please don't start crying
I won't do it again

So instead I get high
And it's rising inside.
The pain that I'm feeling
Is just part of the ride.

Chin up they say
Just listen to me
You "worthless and stupid "
That's what they call me.

But the hope that I have if for us to be
Like happily ever after it's just a dream.
When I wake from the bed.
In the morning
I kiss your head

And that's when I realize that we're not dead.