Its Hard To Miss You

Mikeys pov


I figured by how happy they seemed this morning, it was official. Now they had taken mama into a room and i guess frank was gonna tell her. I am so nervous about dad being told. Since he left, he sees us everyday for an hour or two, but hes not like he used to be. Hes cold and awkward.


Suddenly i heard a happy sounding squeal come from the living room. Mama has been told the news.


She walked out of the living room and began to knock on my door, barging in before i could answer and asked if i knew, to which i nodded.


"Im just so damn happy that Frank accepts Gerard and stuff yknow." She said through the tears that streamed down her face. I pulled her into a hug and laughed at her happiness as frank and gee walked into the room, hugging and giggling to each other.


Mama suddenly turend round and said


"When will you tell... him" she tended to avoid saying anything about dad and left the house when he was here, but frank asked if they should do it tonight and gerard nodded, a smile still dancing on his lips.


As the day dragged on, i could see gerard was becoming slightly nervous about telling our father, though i do feel that im more nervous than him.


Dad arrived around 7, just moments after mama left to meet her friends or something. For a while we sat down and spoke about how our days were but eventually the room fell silent and frank cleared his throat.


Oh no, the moment has come.


"Mr. Way, Gerard and i have something to tell you" i could see gee shuffle in his seat in pure fear.
"Okay, what is it?" Dad seemed mad at what frank said, i figured because he said GERARD and i have something to TELL you, implying that gerard would speak, though he wouldnt.


"Gerard and i. Well, we are in a relationship." Rage flashed through my fathers eyes as his fist met Gerard, Frank and then myself. What the fuck?


His hand began to collide with Gerards face over and over till gerard lay on the ground,eyes closed and breathing slow. For some reason, and i was greatful for that reason, he skipped out on frank. Probably so he wouldnt get sued or something. Instead, his fist began to hit me until i was knocked unconsious. Before i blacked out, i heard frank screaming and crying at my father to stop.


When i woke up, i was on the floor with a pillow beneath my head and a cold bag on my face, probably ice or something. It took me a moment, but i adjusted to being awake and frank mumbled to who i assumed to be mama, that i had woken up. I sat up and saw gerard first, he looked beaten badly. His nose had blood spilling from it and bruises around his eyes, a few cuts on his lips and chin and red lines on his cheeks. Jesus christ. Frank simply had a bruise by his lip from the first hit. I wondered how i looked and decided to get up and check.


As frank and mama told me to sit back down, i walked into the bathroom and saw my face. Blood around my eyes and nose, cuts up my lips and cheeks and near my eyes, bruises on my cheek bones and forehead, wow. I had been beaten worse than gerard. It was then i realised as dads fist had collided with gerard i had screamed that im gay too, shit. So my fucking coming out story is just me screaming at my father and being beaten. Lovely.


I walked back into the living room and called Ray. Over the past few weeks Ray and i have become close in class, not that i ever really speak about him to anyone else. Hes sweet and adorble and he plays guitar. Honestly, i think i like him but im sorta unsure.


"Hey man, can you come over"
"Yea whats up"
"Just bored and stuff i guess"
"Alright man"


In the next few minutes, Ray turned up at the door. I didnt answer so frank did and let him in, inviting him into the living room where he saw Gerard and i covered in our wounds and noticed franks bruise.


"Dude what the actual fuck happened"
"Ray, chill, its fine." I mumbled and patted the couch so he would sit.


"NO! ITS NOT!" He seemed so affected by what happened that i decided to just tell him before he caused drama.


"Our father found out, well that frank and gee are dating, and that im a massive queer. Lets see, after that... i dont remember, but i know it hurt a fuckin lot"


Rays hands were pressed so hard against his jeans as he balled them into a fist in anger.


"Dude its fine, it isnt the first or last beating ill ever have" i saw ray attempt to calm down as he changed the subject slightly.


"Im gay too"
Frank and i replied in the same way, at the same time.
"Rad bro" which made gerard and ray giggle.


But dear father, its hard to miss you when you arnt worth being missed.

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