What?!
I'm so confused.
"W-what?"
I couldn't say anything else. I was so confused. I was stuck. Literally, I'm trapped in this guys arm.
He laughed.
"Mm"
His voice vibrated on my neck.
"You're so silly April."
No no no no. Wake up April please. Wake up. Wake up!.
When my eyes opened again, I flung myself of the bed and fell onto the floor.
"W-What, what happened? How, what? I'm so confused."
I couldn't understand. Was the Jay in my dreams the same Jay in the real?
Or did Jay go into my dreams? No of course not stupid.
I sat on the edge of my bed, letting out a sigh.
This is so weird. It can't be a coincidence that I keep ending up in that dream talking a person who's technically just my conscience.
All I know is that I can't go back. I can't talk to either the real or fake Jay. It's just too weird. And if it means not sleeping then so be it. Maybe if I stay awake for a couple days then when I fall asleep I'll be in a different dream, without Jay.
I made my way to work, the day went the same as usual. No one came and talked to me and I just did my normal office work. Nothing eventful.
Whatever, it's the end of the day now.
I made my way inside locking all the doors and windows, just in case. I made dinner, a full meal that should last me a week or so, only because it took longer and would pass the time.
A grabbed a bowl and filled up with the meal. I watched TV, cleaned the house, prepared for work the next day and got changed into something comfy.
Now what. I would usually be making my way to bed, but this ain't happening. Should I continue this movie? No I would fall asleep 10 minutes in. Watch the news feed and stuff? Nah that'll get boring. Read a book, like a good book that I'm interested in? Yeah that could work, I want to finish off this book anyway.
That was such a bad idea.
My eyelids are so heavy. But this book kind of did work because it's 5am now.
I made some coffee and watched the sunrise. It was calming but I was still exhausted.
The day went by as usual. But I was less productive and more tired. I decided to stay back a bit longer so that I could finish my work for the day and some work for the next day.
I got home at 11pm. Perfect. I can make dinner now. Yes, I know I made a whole mean yesterday. But I need something to past the time. Why don't I bake something? Yeah, some sugar should keep me going through the night.
I started baking which actually was kind of fun. Keyword, kind of. It was a little sad and lonely since I'm doing it alone and late at night, but it's fine.
Finished.
After a couple spills later, 12 semi burnt cupcakes are made with icing and fruits on top. I shouldn't be wasting my food that I need to last forever and away from the shops, and away from Jay. But I really did need something to past the time.
I showered to wake myself up and had a few cupcakes for sugar.
It was like 2 or 3 in the morning. I lost track. I kept reading because I was interested in the book and learnt nothing from last night. But since I was only reading for 3 hours I wasn't as tired as the night before. But I was still exhausted, this was the second night without sleep.
I went on a small run to try and wake me up, it kind of did but it made my body sore. I was a bit more productive through the day, but I was so tired.
My face looked bad. My skin was pale, my hair was getting a little messier and there were dark circles under my eyes. I was slowly going insane, laughing at nothing and tripping on my own feet.
I don't know how I got through the third night all I know is that I can't do this anymore.
It was the fourth day without sleep and I was at work on my desk. I looked horrible, way worse than before. My hair was standing up on its own at this point. My skin was white, I basically was a ghost. And those dark circles, they're basically black rings imprinted around my eyes.
I looked so bad to the point people started noticing me. Yes, noticing me. They still didn't know my name, but they were pointing at me and whispering things to the people beside them while looking straight at me.
My body was so exhausted. I didn't have enough energy to sit up straight anymore. I leaned my head on my desk and almost immediately my eyelids fell over my eyes. I was out cold as fast as I laid my head down.
"Poor you, looks like you lost" I heard him.
Park Jay.
Or King Jay.
I don't know at this point. Even though this is all in my head, I was mentally exhausted to wake myself up.
"April~" He hummed. I could tell he was trying to be sweet with me. This is no longer the King Jay that was nice to me. It was the Jay that knew where I was all the time.
"Sweetheart just give up already. I'm too strong for someone like you."
{02/11/20}
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