I keep thinking about him wondering if I should just confess to him because we live only once. HAHAHAHA. But I don't have the confidence to do that. What if he rejects me? Where should I put this face?! Enough! I will just keep quiet for the rest of my life.

It is the best solution that I have. Let's just love him in silence. I keep playing 'Enchanted' song by Taylor Swift because I can feel the lyrics. I want to tell him that I was enchanted to meet him. I want to tell him to not fall in love with someone else and I want to tell him to not have somebody waiting for him. Was I being too selfish? Yes, I think so. Who are you to do that?! But this is what love looks like. As my age has already reached 20, I feel that. This is not like the love when you're in school you know. It's different. Falling in love at this age means you want him to be your halal partner.

One day I received notification from instagram. When I checked it I was so shocked, it was from him ! My crush ! I read the notification first it was something like this " i made this for 3 hours, I hope you like it.'' The message was something like that. Now tell me what you would think if you got a message like this? Yes, I thought he wanted to confess to me. That's the only thought I have in my mind. I did not open his message immediately. I waited for another 10 minutes before I opened it. When I opened it, the message came with the link, so I tapped the link and it came out with something weird. So I replied to him asking what it was and I couldn't open it. Then he told me to not open the link and I was like why he doesn't want me to open it when he's the one that sent me that. Then another text came from him saying " my account is affected by phishing ". ok. How do I react to this. So you tell me that I got scammed?! Imagine how embarrassed I was to myself at that time. HUHUHUHU I feel like crying and laughing at the same time. Girl you must be dreaming, that's no way your crush will confess to you! The probability is too low! I just replied " laa, okay okay " to him. I wonder if he noticed that I'm disappointed at that time. But I hope he's not. Maluuuuu wehhh huarghhhhh.

I just want to throw a stone to the one who made this arghhh you just ruined my day ! 😑