Because of Covid-19 cases have increased dramatically, second semesters have been conducted fully online. We are not allowed to come to the campus and for the last semester we are called to come back to the campus. But since the last semester is in the fasting month, most of the students are protesting to go back to their hometown. I was really frust at that time, like I had just arrived and was still in quarantine but they already want to go back ?! My parents just arrived at home and I have to tell them to come back and pick me?! No! I will never do that because it costs their energy and money. Most of the students are happy because they are allowed to go back home but not for me, most of my friends and roommates decided to go back home. Lastly, I was left alone in that room. LOL. Gladly I have one friend who has decided to stay with me. HEHEHE. So I'm not really alone.

Being alone does not really affect me because I'm used to it. It gives me comfort. I celebrate Hari Raya with my friend. We called our parents and friends that day. I took some pictures of myself and posted it on social media wishing on everyone. I posted it without thinking or hoping for anything. Guess what?! He replied to my story! Yes my crush! I was about to sleep at that time but my eyes suddenly wide open at that time. I was so shocked and excited. Who is not excited when their crush starts the conversation first?! He was just asking me if I'm not going back home at that time and I replied yes. He asked me where I lived and lastly we changed our wish to each other. And one thing that makes me think about that day over and over again is he told me to take care of myself ! How can I move on from this moment ?! Like my crush told me that? I'm not dreaming right! I was smiling and blushing all alone in that room. I was already not getting my hopes high at that time and he suddenly comes into my life again like this?! How can I not put my hopes high ? He gives me that hope ! Arghhhh

PLEASE DON'T TORTURED ME LIKE THIS MEN !

After that thing happened, I was hoping he would reply to my stories again after this but no. There is no more conversation between us. We just view each other's stories and like each other's posts. Yeah it's enough for me rather than nothing. My foundation studies finally end. We just met each other in the first semester and I thought he was gonna continue his studies on another campus but no. I was wrong. We both continue our bachelor degrees on the same campus ! Here where I can see our future together, HAHAHA. I mean there is still a chance to meet him even though we are in different courses. But I'm not getting my hopes high because the higher my hopes the more it will hurt me. I'm just living my day as usual. It's the fasting month now, he always updates his instagram stories when he is going to iftar with his friends and when he's going to terawih. What I can say is he is totally my type! Someone who really cares about his religion. I can say that he is that type of person. You know he has a good personality that makes me fall for him.