{ Mari mom }
Before we started anything does anybody need to use the bathroom .

{ Mari }
Actually mom I do hold on right quick .

Mari said getting up heading out of sight . Her mom watched her turning her attention to Jayce .

{ Mari mom }
Jayce go to the bathroom lil bro go ahead come on .

Jayce got up laughing , jada laughed as jleah leaned forward pushing Jayce shoulders leaning back laughing.

{ Jayce }
Dang mom , just put me on the spot huh ?

{ mari mom }
Uh yeah cause everytime somebody get to talking or you sitting for a long time you be wanting ever excuse in the book to leave .

Jayce laughed walking pass Mari mom . Mari walked in sitting on the floor beside her mom .

{ mari }
I'm back , mom where Jayce going ?

{ dee'Leah }
To the bathroom.

{ Mari mom }
To the bathroom baby .

She said rubbing mari head as mari laid her head on her lap . I was trying to hold my tears in I miss my sister . Seeing mari and her moms bond made me regret leaving amour behind .

Like I've done did a lot of messed up things in my life . But taking care of my baby sister wasn't - I just miss that girl girl's presence .

~ Flashbacks ~
{ 𝐚𝐦𝐨𝐮𝐫 }
shasha.

She said, running over to be hugging me getting behind me looking up at trouble them. I laughed hugging her giving her my full attention.

{ 𝐓𝐢𝐧𝐤 }
yes ma ma. Wait, did you cross the street by yourself?

The females looked at me I ignored them I heard Jayce, I was now familiar with her voice. I didn,t look up I kept looking down at amour.

{ 𝐉𝐚𝐲𝐜𝐞 }
that's her daughter or sum

{ 𝐀𝐦𝐨𝐮𝐫 }
yes ma left she said to-

I cut her off picking her up putting her on my back. I looked at trouble who had questions on her face.

{ 𝐓𝐢𝐧𝐤 }
Trouble this is my baby sister Amour. Amour this is trouble and her friends.

{ 𝐓𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐛𝐥𝐞 }
Hey pretty, I'm trouble.

{ 𝐉𝐚𝐲𝐜𝐞 }
Hay amour, I'm Jayce how old are you?

{ 𝐀𝐦𝐨𝐮𝐫 }
hay trouble and jayse, I'm 4 "she giggled "

{ j'Leah}
wassup amour, j'leah

{ dee'Leah }
hay amour, I'm dee'leah

{ 𝐀𝐦𝐨𝐮𝐫 }
y'all TWINS

well all laughed as she looked at them confused

{ 𝐉𝐚𝐲𝐜𝐞 }
yes they are twins amour, but you will be able to tell the difference trust.

~ Flashback ended ~

Trouble gripped my waist underneath my jacket bringing me back to reality .

Jayce walked around sitting down on the floor .

{ Jayce }
Now can we get started before I have to use the b-

{ Mari mom }
Oh girl hush , cause when we start you're not leavening don't play with me jayce ann .

Mari mom got real serious looking at her .

{ dee'Leah }
Jayce , I don't think she playing .

{ tink }
She not she done said her whole government just about that's definitely not a joke .

Everybody started laughing Jayce leaned back hitting my leg . Trouble kicked her a little , Jayce shook her head leaning backward.

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It was night time by the time her mom left . I had been crying the whole time . Mari mom came over to help plan the funerals .

I was concerned at first because , this lady ain't know me yet . She sticking her neck out for me .

She was buying everything down to the flower arrangement . I tried to tell her that , that wouldn't be necessary .

Because , my mom set up an banking account for me and amour . Just in case anything ever happened to her .

While we was on our own , we would be able to access that information .

I was in charge of amour until she turned 15 or wanted it at 18 . Now that there both gone everything goes to me .

Mari and troubles mom was going to help me manage the money the right way and help me find something a little more manageable .

Meanwhile , I'm still thinking about amour dad . Like how could you scare your own child so much , only to come back traumatize  her then take her life .

I don't know what happened in that room . But I know I haven't been in amour room or my moms since .

I don't even know , what happened in this house amour haven't even lived life fully .

I don't think my mom was trying to take my sister away from me . I just think , she wanted me to be a kid again .

But ended up going the wrong way about . So probably seeing me in the hospital knowing that I was having sex .

Was probably the last straw for her . Her life has been hard for her too . The way Mari mom explain it from an adult perspective .

Made me feel like a idiot for saying all these things . I said to her while she was alive .

I was a bad ass daughter . When all she wanted was to be loved by me . Then I pushed her away because , things wasn't going my way .

Big momma I don't know what imma do before the month over with .

J'Leah walked into the kitchen . I looked up wiping my face . She sat down at the island table infront of me handing me a water bottle as she grabbed one from herself .

{ jleah }
Hey . How you feeling?

{ tink }
Like an asshole .

{ jleah }
Is it because of the conversation ,  we all had ?

{ Tink }
Yeah , I mean the way Mari mom explained it from adults perspective made me seem like what I was doing was on some immature shit .

Jayce walked in the kitchen sitting at the island table.

{ Jayce }
No it don't make you look immature all that just mean is you see things differently.

{ jleah }
Right so don't even start that downgrade shit . We are not about to start having a pity party for you because you was talking to your mom any kinda of way . When she was alive , what you wanna fucking cookie .

Both I and Jayce looked at her with confusion.

{ jleah }
For being a great daughter taking care of amour . While your mom was at work trying to provide for y'all protect you the best way . That she knows how ! You you fucking selfish tink .

Jleah said standing up from the island table throwing water on me .